Be present as the watcher of your mind- of your thoughts and emotions as well as your reactions in various situations. Be at least as interested in your reaction as the situation or person that cause you to react.
Eckhart Tolle
I had to come back after listening to today's talk from Michael Singer. It was like it echoed what I just wrote about. I woke up this morning feeling so messy and uncomfortable inside and came here to write about it before I listened to the podcast. When I listened it was like OMG...is this man reading my mind before I even think my thoughts lol? Serendipity again. Is the universe reminding me that I am exactly where I am supposed to be in my Self-realization process? The more committed I become to the learning and growing, the more these little serendipitous things seem to happen to support my learning.
My life feels like such a mess right now and I am reminded by Singer's words that it is all a part of the process, testament to my willingness to go deeper. I am simply shining the light of awareness, of consciousness on that which I refused to see for so long. As long as I am witnessing , observing what is going on in me ...I am less likely to blindly react to what is going on "out there". There is so little I have to "do" but sit in consciousness and witness...witness the mess inside me...witness the weeds emerging through the surface ...witness what I tend to do with them or at least what I feel compelled to do with them ( react) and instead just watch. Witness what is happening to the layers and layers of earth I have attempted in the past to bury them under...observe... and instead of running around to stop it from blowing away, instead of clinging to any false sense of protection I once clung to ...do nothing but watch as each layer gets blown away or stripped away by this or that. Then I just sit with the painful feelings that were once hidden there as I get closer and closer to the roots of "my" suffering, of suffering in general...doing nothing but observing. The mind, trying to protect "me", will still chirp and chatter about how I should react...keep clinging to the outer stuff that stops me from feeling, push away that which will leave me feeling uncomfortable...bury, bury, bury the truth. I just won't listen...I won't go there or "do" that. I will sit with the uncomfortable and be comfortable doing so. I will allow those root energies to emerge in their own way, at their own rate and on on their own path. I do not need to react to any of it. I can just witness.
Man...this learning is so cool. It might not always feel so good lol...but it is cool!
All is well in my world.
Michael A. Singer/Temple of the Universe ( April 16, 2023) Letting go of Reactive Energies. https://tou.org/talks/
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