Thursday, May 11, 2023

I Do Not Know

I do not know the thing I am, and therefore do not know what I am doing, where I am, or how to look upon the world or myself. 

ACIM, Chapter  31: V: 17:7

Hmm!  I was reminded of this passage from A Course in Miracles when I was listening to Eckhart Tolle's latest youtube today ( see link below) ,   With it, I see ,once again, the connection between most spiritual teachings. Is this not the basis of yoga and the vedic teachings? Is this not what Socrates meant when he asked that we "know thyself" ?  It is said that there is no statement that the world fears more than the above and yet in its learning is salvation born. I hope there is learning and salvation in this stage of the journey because it seems to be where I am at.  There is a lot of "I don't know" in my life. It is very confusing

Tolle comments on the poetic nature of the entire passage 17...well the entire course is written in such a poetic way. Though skeptical mind says it is inconceivable that these words were from Jesus Himself, channelled through the body and mind of  an aging, practical minded and agnostic psychologist at Columbia University, as they were said to be...heart says , "How can anything so profound and beautifully written come from a mere mortal?" Most poetry, I feel but do not know, comes from a higher place than ego. Again: "I don't know!" 

I do not know like I once thought I knew.

I do not know what I am...I mean...what I  truly am beneath this flimsy layer of "me" I wear, beneath all the images and ideas I created about who I was and what the world was. Without all these concepts and notions I once believed to be true and am now questioning...who am I?  I do not know.

I do not know what I am doing either?  I mean, at this point of my journey, I am observing myself moving around on this planet...doing things...I see how most of what I have done up until this point of my evolution, was mindless...I was not paying attention to what I was doing.  I did not know "why" I was doing what I was doing.  I also do not know what I am supposed to be doing now. I do not know. 

I also do not know where I am. What is this place, this planet, this universe and how did I get here?  Why am I here? Am I in the world or is the world in me?  The more I practice, the more I am starting to see that the world is in me...and that just confuses me more.  I don't know how to look upon the world anymore...it all seems so senseless, so very much of it meaningless.  And I do not know how to look upon myself.  I see this "me" with all its neurotic tendencies and I just want to get rid of it.  Who am I without it? I have yet to truly realize this Self beneath the self...so I am not sure how to look upon that either. I do not know.

There is an awful lot of "I don't know." in my life, s there may be in yours. That is a good thing, It is a sign that we are  learning, and growing, getting closer to the truth.

It is to this unsealed and open mind that truth returns [ meaning it was never lost, just forgotten], unhindered and unbound. 

All is well.

Eckhart Tolle (May 10, 2023) Who Are You?/ Eckhart Tolle Reads A Course in Miracles. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=grBahEds37U

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