The Heaviness of "me"

The human condition is not personal...it is just the human condition.
-Eckhart Tolle

Carrying the Heavy "me"

We all carry around this personal sense of self throughout our lives, don't we?  I know I do.  And it is heavy and painful to carry it around.  It distorts the way we see the world and, as is often my case with it, it makes it seem that others or the world is out to get us with one "thing" after another. We feel that our "happiness" ( a concept created, I believe, by this little "me",) is always being threatened or taken from us by the things around us. So we are always on guard, ready to attack for this idea of happiness and this idea of self. 

The Collective Experience of "me"

Sometimes we find reprieve by joining with other little personalized selves to form a collective, a tribe  or a nation and we stand together defending against and  attacking all the other 'selves' out there that do not ascribe to our ideology.  We are constantly making separations with the intention of protecting this "me".

What is this heavy "me"?

What is this heavy "me'' we are protecting? 

It is simply a concept, an idea we have, a thought...something that exists only in our minds.  It is an illusion and not who we really are.  It will definitely not last forever.  It may last for a life time but I guarantee that at the moment of our death we will realize just how illusionary it is and how we wasted so much precious life energy carrying it around because we mistakenly thought it was us.

This little personalized sense of self will self destruct at some point.  As Eckhart Tolle puts it, There is a self destructive mechanism  built into the illusionary self by the grace of God. (Omega 3). It will not last forever but unfortunately many of us are so identified with it , it may take time to dissolve. We just need to allow it to dissolve as it is programed to do.  Something greater beneath it is always pushing through. Trust that something.  Life knows what it is doing.

Allow it to crack open

Some of us are blessed enough to catch glimpses of just how flimsy this "little me" is before our deaths. We come to see how it is responsible for our suffering and how we really don't need it...in fact we would be better off without it.  This realization may come because of a feeling of intense suffering as a result of some tough life challenges.  Maybe we will reach a point where we say "This is just too much!" and a crack will appear in this armour of little self we wear. That crack allows grace to slip through and grace is the realization that we are merely caught in an illusion and need not be.  Others might say we are "breaking down" or "going crazy" but we will begin to feel a strength with this grace that we never experienced before, a lightening of a load, a freedom from the heaviness.  The world will begin to look very differently.  We will know that we are not going crazy, we are finally seeing clearly.

(Check out the poem that came to in the October 28th entry)

Beyond "me"

We will begin to see beyond "me" to all.  As we open up to Grace, we open to compassion and the ultimate human experience...Love.  And not just love for a few select people who share our genes or our homes and neighborhoods...but for all! We see the One family Dalai Lama spoke of in yesterday's entry.


So opening up, having this heavy  sense of "me" dissolve around us is not only freeing for us personally, it serves the world.  It serves humanity! It is essential.

All is well.

Eckhart Tolle (March 2016) Omega 3 2001-Grace Came in and Presence Emerged. Namaste Publishing https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ld2YRg23vkY