Express the Messy You

 Ultimately there is no failure...it is just a part of the learning process. It is only the ego that is afraid of failure.

Eckhart Tolle

Only the Ego

That is so true, isn't it?  When I bring my imperfect self to this page iand express it in prose, the  images I took, poetry or videos that are all so imperfect ( Man ...counting the typos and grammatical errors alone could keep someone busy for  along, long time) ego is afraid...ego is very, very afarid.  Why?  Because ego does not like the  vulnerability that comes when we shed our false faces and suits of armour and just stand there as transparent as can be. 

It is the Wise Self within that says..."Speak! Write! Shoot! Share! the most real you."  

Ego cringes and says, "No...that real you is so "messy" and so so tender...it will get hurt...only share the most perfect you. Put on your false face and your protective costume and only speak the lines you rehearsed that someone else has written." 

Ego doesn't like it when we present the messy brokenness of who we really are. It  wants only the perfect finale...and does not want to risk mistakes, failures and ultimately rejection.  It would rather we didn't do the thing we loved authentically than it would for us to risk failure.

The only way to do what we love, however,  is to start doing it imperfectly...start failing and finding joy in doing no matter how it turns out.  We know we are going against ego's wishes and following Spirit's guidance when we love what we are doing while we are doing it, without concern for outcome.

That is what it is like with me and writing...coming here...so, so far from perfect but so very much me. Sigh!

All is well in my world.