Wednesday, July 31, 2024

Stepping Back

You don't have to fix the mind. You just have to take a step back and be the one who is noticing.

Michael A. Singer

If you have spent any time at all in the "labatory of soul research" as Yoganada referred to meditation and inner contemplation you have come to see just how cra-cra the personal mind can be.  It is like a manic street performer, screaming for our attention, "Over here!  Over here!  Look  what I am doing over here!" and man we go...we use this amazing mind to follow the crazy everywhere it takes us. We focus on this tiny spec of "me", which is only a concept, right?, at the  exclusion of all the other things we could be using this mind to focus on. Then when we do not like what we see, we say, "Hey mind!  Fix this." We ask a very unstable and disturbed mind to fix  the mind.  Huh? We end up creating  an even  more neurotic and unstable mind when we do that.  

We do not have to fix the mind! 

What we have to do is step back and away from the crazy and observe what is going on.  Step away from the mind and simply notice what it is doing. As soon as we step back and  observe...we realize we are not that which we are observing.  We realize we are not the crazy mind...we are just observing it.  We begin then to lose that attachment and overidentification with it...we become "less crazy" , we become less "me" focused.  We begin to see and experience more than what we have been narrowly focusing on all our lives.  There is freedom and liberation in that.  That is what yoga gives us.

Singer refers to it as a trap door that sets us free.

Stepping back and becoming the objective observer of our mind is the first and biggest step to freedom.

All is well!

 Michael A. Singer/ Temple of the Universe ( July 29, 2024) Stepping Back fromthe Personal Mind. https://tou.org/talks/



Tuesday, July 30, 2024

On Tip Toes

 

On Tip Toes

On tip toes, I leave my bed

Quietly I peak around each corner

preparing  my finger-biting amygdala

for what might pop out

from the dusky shadows that linger.

I try to soothe its busy chatter

and ancient,speech pressured warnings

by promising a smooth path,

one free of demons, and villians,

and unexpected surprises,

as we tip toe along.


But the day awakens

and morning calls. 

Glorious golden reds 

and warm soothing rays

splash over this tiptoeing form.

A  melody of a thousand tiny voices

singing and giggling in perfect harmony

emerges from the silence.

And the pure, untainted 'what isness' 

of the day

invites this human, 

and this that I am,

to join its playful antics.


Oh how I am tempted 

to leap forward 

into the light and joy 

that is held out  to us 

with tiny, dimpled hands...


but ...

this human,

with its fear,ful recitations,

its life-weary psyche,

and its tip toeing body, 

heavy with the to-do list 

it drags along,

heeds the internal warnings

and pulls back.  


For some reason,

I drop my eyes 

from the early light

and  follow it,

my annoying companion,

back into the shadows,

away from the morning's 

playful invitation.

 I bury my focus instead 

into the many 'must -dos' 

this human gets busy checking off

from its never ending list.

I sigh 

and the world echoes

the  grief

of this that I am.


 © Dale-Lyn, July 2024

Monday, July 29, 2024

Detachment and Desirelessness

 Attachment is the source of all our pleasures now. We are attached to our friends, to our relatives; we are attached to our intellectual and spiritual works; we are attached to external objects, so that we gain pleasure from them. What again brings misery but this very attachment? 

Vivekananda

Singapore bots are fading away...numbers dwindling down to zero and it is all good. I always preferred the quieter and smaller social gatherings to the larger. Though I can stand in front of large crowds to speak, I don't like big  noisy parties.  I find it too stimulating.  I can teach large classes but I prefer tutoring one on one.  The energy of too many people at once gets to me....the energy of too many numbers ( even if it all just bot activity) on my stats gets to me too. 

I like to focus on people one on one. (My readership is probably one on one lol...thank you reader.) My daughter, for example, had a belated birthday celebration for me at her place yesterday and though it was very nice I would much prefer a one on one with each individual that was there.  And the gifts...so lovely and thoughtful...but I feel a little overwhelmed by them when I look around my house.  As people I care about know...I love flowers...but I look about my house now and it feels a bit like a wake. So, so beautiful...each and every flower and I am so grateful for every kind thought...I am ...but I feel overstimulated by it all.  I am not sure if it is triggering an old samskara of unworthiness and being undeserving or if it is just reminding me of how "detached" I have become. A bit of both, I guess, but leaning heavy towards detachment. I woke up this morning thinking of detachment and desirelessness.

Detachment and desirelessness?

I don't know what I want anymore?  I don't know what I truly desire? If anything.  I had people ask me what I wanted for my birthday and I sincerley said, "I don't know.  Please just don't fuss over this.  Get me nothing." So my allowing gifts and birthday celebrations was because they felt like they needed to do something...it was for them. I was very very grateful for the thoughtfulness of all...but it never felt "right". I was not attached to any of it.

There was a time in my life where I would have looked to be honored in such a way as a show of how much I was worth to others.  I would take pictures of my flowers and gifts so I could cling to them or even show ppl on social media how others were validating my worth. I see now how unsubstantial that was. It was just something that reinforced this concept I had of "little me". It also helped to prevent some samskara triggering. There were times I went without that validation and it hurt this idea of "little me" deeply.  Now that I have it in abundance...I don't...want it? I just want peace...and somehow and for some strange reason this interfered with my peace...the physical world's pleasures are somehow interfering with my peace in many more ways than a birtday recognition. 

We have to detach ourselves to earn joy. If only we had power to detach ourselves at will, there would not be any misery. That man alone will be be able to get the best of nature, who, having the power of attaching himself to a thing with all his energy, has also the power to detach himself when he should do so. Vivekananda

I don't know what I want from this physical world anymore...if anything. Alan Watts taught that if you didn't know what you wanted this was desirelessness and meant you were on the path to enlightenment.  I am not sure I am any further ahead than anyone else lol but he also said we don't want for two reasons. You don't want because you already have it or you don't know who you are.  Hmm!  I already have what I need inside me...I do know that.  I am not sure exactly how to get it to come out from under all the junk I stuffed on top of it...but I know it is there.  And I don't know...I mean I don't know at the nonconceptual level ...who I am yet. Working on both of these things.  I also know at some deep level now that this world cannot give me what I need. I am in this world but not of it. Knowing this leaves me feeling very strange. (I can almost hear you saying...." Yeah...you are strange all right,  crazy lady?")

So what do I want? Answering that question quickly and without truly knowing if it was coming from ego or deeper, I would say "Peace...I want peace."  I want to be able to be at peace no matter what.

How do we find unconditional peace? We detach and let go. We become desireless.  So, it is taking me ( as the little me and as the deeper I)  around in one big circle, isn't it? So how, in this circle, do we go about life if we have no wants or desires except for peace?

Therefore says the Gita: Work constantly; work, but be not attached; be not caught. Reserve unto yourself the power of detaching yourself from everything, however beloved, however much the soul might yearn for it, however  great the pangs of misery you feel if you were going to leave it....(Vivekananda: 2.1 Work and its Secret)

We give, not for the sake of return, but for the sake of giving. We cannot be attached to the fruits of our actions.  I get that too...I really do...so awkwardly and still very unsure of myself as this diminished "little me" I continue to give, expecting nothing in return. Or do I? 

It is somehow awkward to give though...like this book I felt compelled to write to help others speak English so their lives, already challenged with so much, is easier. I felt great joy writing it. I felt peace writing it.  I enjoyed the time I spent writing it and the intention and motivation behind my writing it felt pure. Yet, when it comes to passing it on ego steps in...shamer ego...to say things like, "Who do you think you are writing a book outside your skill set and then  sending it off to someone who probably doesn't even want it? " There was peace in the writing of it when the intention was giving...not so much peace in the actual giving? 

I have yet to detach from some things obviously.  Am I desiring something from this process and from what I created?  I don't know. Hmmm!

I know this also transposes into our relationships.  I know I am detaching in some strange way from others as well.  I do not love them any less...I just seem to love all more...if that makes any sense.  I do not just want to serve a selected few...I want to serve all.  Hmm! So strange...I know.

...when he did not tie his soul to any particular voice and submerged into it...then the song of the thousand voices consisted of a single word...from Siddhartha

So much to think about.

All is well. 

Herman Hess. (n.d.) Siddhartha. Amazon Edition.

Swami Vivekananda ( n.d.) Complete Works of Swami Vivekananda; (2.1 Work and Its Secret.) Kindle

Wiara/ Alan Watts ( 2023) Alan Watts-Let Go of Attachment. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ndbmP5C-gK8

Sunday, July 28, 2024

Transmute

 To transmute energy, we must first become conscious of it.

Unknown

Imagine living in a state of perpetual bliss no matter what is happening around you.  Well, yoga,  is a practice that can take us there.

How do we transmute energy from the lower state most of us are stuck on to a higher? 

A quick guide to the transmutation of energy...bringing it up

  1. recognize when energy  is down...when consciousness is staring down
  2. pull back, detach, be aware you are aware
  3. allow for cleansing and purification. a. start by not putting more in that will need to be cleaned up...stop reacting, resisting, supressing and repressing; b. be aware, allow, and encourage samskaras to come up and out
  4. learn to handle what is going on now! "I can handle this!"
  5. Kriya yoga

All is well.


Saturday, July 27, 2024

What I Caught in the Intellectual Net


Great minds think a like: 

I mean I know my personal mind is not great but the One Universal Mind we all share is : )  

Let's look at the thoughts of two minds that I resonate with on the topic of there being one field, one ocean, one consciousness that we all emenate from. Let's start with Michael Singer's explanation of Yoga:

  • the quantum field is that stillness from which things get agitated and make ripples and waves building the universe...
  • the waves are the agitation of the ocean...but they are still the still ocean...
  • matter is just somthing that enemates off the wavelets of light and sound etc
  • yogis knew it was all energy thousands of years ago and science is just catching up
  • the purpose of my life is evolving so I can let things eneter my consciousness and be okay with them
  • God experiences God
  • The world of sense pours into the yogi and leaves him as it found him...srene, content, at peace
  • do your best at all times to stay seated in the seat of Self and to raise your energy...to be conscious. Breathe, and raise it up.
  • The Self is not neutral...it is ecstatic...

Alan Watts, uses, the same type of analogy in his description of Zen Buddhism

  • Zen is not a philosophy...not an intellectual net on which you are trying to catch the fish of reality
  • in this unverse is one great energy but there is no name to attach to it...we tried God
  • the basic energy in Buddhism ...suchness...tat taum aussi...one tat ...10,000 things, one suchness
  • the very nature of energy is  to be like waves with troughs and crests
  • you are a playing of that energy
  • energy is eternal delight ( Blake)
  • You're that
  • to be able to drift like a cloud and flow like water is the truest goal for the soul


So not only do we see the merging of two minds but the merging of two great fields of philosophy [though we know we cannot really put "what is" into conceptual frameworks ( intellectual nets) appropriately by calling them "philosphophies"]. 

If only in my own tiny intellectual net...I love when  truths come together as one.

All is well.

Michael A. Singer/ Temple of the Universe ( July 25, 2024) Consciousness: The Creator and the Experiencer. https://tou.org/talks/

Alan Watts/ T & H Inspiration (July, 2024) Trust the Universe-Alan Watts on Finding Zen.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NBmuvR9QYLs


Friday, July 26, 2024

Evolving and Experiencing

Be comfortable Experiencing the Uncomfortable
Michael A. Singer

To begin this morning's entry I just want to shout out to Michael A. Singer for appeasing my writer's confusion a bit.  I am always going off about writing for the sake of writing while the Self in the Seat smiles and nods along and while  my ego sits in the little chair in front of it saying , "Yeah right!!! As if!!!"

...an artist expresses their being onto form and consciousness rejoices in hearing it back...the artist is their own true audience

I know the Self has something to say and do through these tapping fingers that I don't understand yet and may never understand in this lifetime, and that brings me here with the less than perfect poetry.  I do not want to give the false impression, however, that I am so evolved I have no writer's ego and I only write to express Spirit lol. I do have a big fat, super chatty ego. Big time. I get pulled down into it many, many times.

Still, I have to say that I am evolving...far, far from enlightened...but still evolving.  I am at a higher level than I was  a few years ago. I see and feel that so plainly with how Life seems to be blowing right through me a lot more than it used to.  Oh...stuff still gets snagged on the Samskara splinters that line my mind and heart...but much less than they ever did. I see it too in my approach to writing. 

That, according to Singer and the true yogi masters, is a sign of healing and evolving. I am still struggling to get out of elementary school lol...especially with my writer's ego...but I am getting there. 

I am getting more and more comfortable expereincing the uncomfortable in all avenues of my Life.

What about you?

All is well in my world.

Michael A. Singer/ Temple of the Universe ( July 25, 2024) Consciousness: The Creator and the Experiencer. https://tou.org/talks/


Wednesday, July 24, 2024

Happy Birthday to This Human I Call Me

All through Life your physical body will age. But your energy body need not age-you can keep it like it was just born.

Sadhguru.

Happy Birthday to this human I am experiencing Life through.

Does that sound a lil cra-cra or what? 

But really, I have evolved enough to know that I am not this 61 year old body, this psyche, this personal mind with all its challenges and its limited perception of the world. I am not all the "happenings" going on inside it and outside it. Then who the heck am I? 

I am the one, in here,  observing this human move around through the 61 years it moved around. I am not this shell.  I am that which gets to experience Life through this human I call me.  It is amazing from this angle...much more amazing than it is from the worm's eye view I have when I get all caught up in being this human. Truly...a much better view.

So, I am grateful ...so grateful for this human with its wrinkling skin and its greying hair; its quick and creative brain function, its ability to laugh and cry, whisper or scream...for all the experiences it had so far...the painful and the joyful...its successes and its oh so many mistakes and  failures. Man it is all so good. 

What do I want this year as a birthday gift from Life? I just want a little more shakti flowing freely through me. That means a little more cleansing and a little more peace.  That is what I want for both this "I am" and this human. Do I ever sound like a yogi, eh? 

Go figure lol.

Happy Birthday Human...thanks for getting me to this point.

All is well

Tuesday, July 23, 2024

Two Foundational Truths

two foundational truths....

you were born

and you are going to die

on this speck of dust

spinning around

in infinite space


It is no ordinary speck of dust

but one that sings to 

the being blown into the

space between your first breath 

and your last

with bird song and laughter

ocean wave and soothing breeze


that performs in front of you

a brilliant drama

of actors coming and going,

currtains opening

curtains closing

with a host of spell binding comedy

and tragedy  

in between


that offers you amazing art 

to see and touch and taste

around every corner

brilliant canvases 

with flowering splashes

of the most amazing purples, reds and yellows

popping up  on a background 

of abundant green that doesnt seem to end 

blues of every shade

reflect the light of

a brilliant star

93 million miles away 

and well planned  strokes

of  contrasting whites and greys

soothe the over stimulated mind

as it tries to take it all in


Oh...the tastes you can taste 

as you feed this body 

that swirls and dances you around

ripples of salty and sweet

sour and bitter

offering your tongue

and your being

a tapestry of texture to explore


And the endless smells 

that tantalize and taunt

stirring up sweet and 

not so sweet memories

stored in the recesses 

of your amazing brain


You can touch

you can hold

you can feel the essence of yourself

oozing from the pores 

of all the other beings

that pass by

as you run your fingertips

over the miracles you encounter.


This speck of dust

you were breathed into

for a blink of an eye

on eternity's clock

is your  Eden


You think you have fallen 

from this garden

but you haven't

You are just too busy staring

at your wrinkling skin

and worrying about what your neighbor 

did or didn't do, said or didnt say

focusing on how you appear 

and what others might think

you wring your hands 

while you drip a litany of complaints

into the precious air 

you claimed as your space 

 you pace back and forth

in the mental cell you created

but you don't see the Eden 

you never left


Eden has gone nowhere

the dirty veil of your resistance, 

selecting and preferring

simply hides it from you

and now 

in that tiny span 

between your birth 

and your death

instead of enjoying 

and exploring,

loving and serving

giggling with delight

you are making 

a bloody mess

of this gift 

you have been given.

Wake up! 

And see  that this speck of dust

you are spinning on

is the  Eden

you never left


 two foundational truths

you were born and 

you will die

Your last breath is coming

there is no way of preventing 

the inevitable

Wake up and 

live before you die.  

©Dale-Lyn, July, 2024


Not great but this is how she came out lol. All is well

Inspired by:

Michael A. Singer/ Temple of the Universe ( July 23, 2024) Exploring Foundational Truths. https://tou.org/talks/

Monday, July 22, 2024

Beholding the Glory


"[The] Self -existent [One] has [created] the [senses as turned]...to the outer world.Those therefore who [seek] outside will never find that [which is within]. There are the few who,wanting to know the truth, turn their eyes inward and in their own souls behold the glory [of the Self]." (Katha Upanishads, II.i.1.)
Vivekananda, Complete Works, page 231, Kindle

Are you one of the few wanting to know the truth?

Michael A. Singer basically opened his podcast from yesterday (I am a day behind in my listening) with what I read before going to bed and what I heard Alan Watts speak about in my meditation this morning. This  reminded me of the teachings of Uell S. Anderson and it was like...Wow! All these teachers are coming together to point to this one truth. There is one truth in one mind and we are all that mind

I could see how all these teachings echoed what Vivekananda taught and his teaching came from the ancient Vedas of the East. Introducing these teachings to the close-minded West and the Christian mindset that still believed/believes the insurrection and the Holy Wars were justified, must have been such a challenge for Vivekananda and Yogananda and others.  Yet, there was such a simple truth in these teachings, as the above quote alludes to....that when one is willing to truly listen they cannot help but turn their eyes inward. 

Singer started by saying how all teachings are some how related and then he talked about how our perceptions are illusions in a sense ...only there because of our sense organs.  As part of the guided meditation I listened to today, Watts too explained how the outside world is actually inside. What we are perceiving and experiencing is just a result of sensory neurons and the interpretation made by the brain.  It is an inside game. Non-duality, what Vivekananda and Vedic teachers taught, is all about this internalization of the cosmos...the creation of all in the mind. 

I am the soul, the ever free; [I] never was bound. Time is in me, not I in time. God [as a concept...my input] was born in my mind. 
Page 231

Everything else, is not a delusion, but an illusion. We are so busy focusing on matter, we do not see Spirit. We are seeing a snake where there is only rope and reacting as such. 

We are never deluded. We always know truth, only our reading of truth is mistaken at times. You can perceive only one thing at a time. When I see the snake, the rope has vanished entirely. And when I see the rope, the mistake has vanished. It must be one thing

Both Singer and Watts shared today that consciousness, the One universal mind, gives meaning to everything. Focus on seeing the snake and you live in fear. Fovus on seeing spirit and what is beyond all matter, including all mind stuff and you see reality.  Focus on seeing the rope (or the lines on the road) and you live in peaceful neutrality. 

We need to remember that there is something very powerful within us...interpreting all this sensory information we are taking in. It is not the brain or the body doing the actual observing and experiencing. As Singer says, the mind is much higher than the brain. We are that Universal Mind.  We are not the body, the personal mind, or what it perceives. We are much greater than that and we are untouched by what is happening to "this human" out here  with its forever firing neurons. ...

Just as my soul is [to] my body, we, as it were are the bodies of God. God-souls-nature-it is one...Mind is something [which is] neither force nor matter, yet begetting force and matter all the time.  In the long run, mind is begetting all force, and that is what is meant by the universal mind, the sum total of all minds.
page 231

As if reading the book along with me, page by page, Singer goes onto say how pranayama ( breath work) is one means of anchoring us to that Universal Mind so we don't keep leaving it. This chapter I am reading in Vivekananda's great works is about pranyama. Ironically, breath was also the focus in today's meditation, again with the purpose of keeping us anchored to Universal Mind.

So we as part of the universal mind are souls here to evolve. We are going to make a lot of mistakes as we do.  We are constantly going to get pulled away from universal mind and get lost in the dramas of personal mind again and again. Instead of trampling down the self with self when we do that, we can honor and appreciate each learning opportunity that comes with our mistakes. 

Be thankful that the dumb part of your mind[personal mind] made you smarter [brought you back in a round about way to Universal Mind].
Michael Singer

Use every opportunity in life you can, to turn the eyes inward to behold the glory that is there. 

All is well! 

Uell S. Anderson (1977) Three Magic Words. Wilshire Book Company.

Michael A. Singer ( July 21, 2024) Learning to Handle Reality. https://tou.org/talks/

Swami Vivekananda ( ) The Complete Works of Swami Vivekananda, Volume 1.4.3-1.4.21. Kindle
(I have been reading this book for years now and I am only halfway through volume one.  Can you imagine how big this book would be if it was in hardcopy? lol)

oops...just noticed I left my notes up lol

Sunday, July 21, 2024

No Readers?

 No Readers

"Why do you write when 

you have no readers?  "

A writer with no readers

is better than 

a breather with no breath, 

a heart with no beat,

a being with no soul,

and a life with no joy.

For witing

is the  breathing,  

and the heart beat

of this form.

It is the song of this soul.

It is the joy in this Life

I have been given. 


The reader,  to this being, then

is no more than 

a hand holding  a mirror up

that reflects back what I am,

catching my breath

in foggy patches

to show me I am still  alive. 

If I already know what I am,

and that I am still alive,

do I really need a mirror?


No, it is not  so much a question 

of what this writer needs. 

Maybe one should ask instead:

Does the reader need 

the mirror 

this awkward and shaky 

writer's hand

holds up?  

© Dale-Lyn, July, 2024


Ooops! On another poetry bender lol.  Sometimes, it just keeps coming out of me lol. Anyway...not sure who I am apologizing to  because as the poem above suggests I have "no readers"...well I know I have a few ...thank you! 

All is well!


It is the All

 You are not bound. No one was ever bound. [The Self] is beyond. It is the all. You are the One; there are no two. God was your own reflection cast upon the screen of Maya. ...As you unfold yourself, the refelction grows [clearer]. 

Vivekananda, The Complete Works, page 231, Kindle Edition.




Another One

 


Weeding by the root. 

Fear and desire,

weeds overcrowding 

your mental garden,

have one root.

Dig it up.

Don't bother mowing over them,

burying them deeper into the earth.

They will just come up again

and again

and again

strangulating the precious

harvest

of your mind.

You will not see through 

this overgrowth

to the light that shines 

upon everything

if your gaze  is hidden 

in the busy work 

of your resistance.

You will not feel the rain 

refreshing the soil

encouraging  all 

green things to grow;

you  will not  hear  

the soothing song of breeze

nor will  you feel the touch

of its gentle fingers

if you are busy

trampling down what is.

Don't bother. 

Juust trace each prickly thing

back to its root

and pull.

Dig  up the one root

of  fear and desire

and set your garden free.

© Dale-Lyn, July 2024

Inspired by the line from the below video where Singer says, "Fear and desire have roots"...than out this came. 

All is well.


Michael A. Singer ( July 21, 2024) Growing through Fear and Desire. https://tou.org/talks/

All is well

Friday, July 19, 2024

Fifth and Final Reworking of a Poem

 Final Attempt.  Not working this again lol.  I do not know why I bothered with this one so much. It is far from what others might deem as great or even good...not worth th effort even...but I felt compelled to rework and revise.  Crazy. Maybe its the message that needs to be heard?

The River and the Eddy,

While the Ocean calls the River home,

a prized trophy bobs up and down,

carried high on the shoulders of the returning hero.

Asleep, after hours of splashing effort,

 unaware of the strong and steady waves

 that carry it  along,

 the swimmer mindlessly moves

 toward its own demise.

 

Whirling, swirling, riveting in tormented circles,

the Eddy up ahead gets ready to pull 

all treasures from the River’s protective hold.

 Set on tearing all the unsuspecting,

yet the endlessly anticipating 

away from their unconscious daydreams

it waits for its next victim to arrive.

 

Like a bully hiding in the corner of the River’s bend,

it sticks out a dirty foot from below the sparkling waves.

And the surprised River, so intent on getting to its destination,

heeding only the voice that calls it forward,

stumbles over the boulder of Samskara 

and its lifetime collection of debris.

Losing its momentum, its hold on self weakens.

The swimmer is torn from its clutches by the Eddy’s force.

Both the river and its charge

 are clumsily sucked into the awkward barrier.

 

Tangled up in all the other captured things,

torn from its original trajectory, 

splashing about in a desperate attempt 

to find something solid to hang onto 

the drowning treasure swallows

the waves of misguided attempts 

and begins to sink to the depths below.

 

All the while the rush of these Holy Waters,

the trough and crests of these mighty waves,

are still being called forward 

by the Oceans’ powerful  but unseen Force. 

The Voice of Source is strong and unrelenting, 

stirring up the waters that collect

behind the impediment of samskara.

 

The River is drawn like a magnet to all that is.

Yet, the cries of its cargo, the drowning swimmer,

pull its attention down and away from nature’s intent.

When the watery focus repels that which it is,

and is drawn instead

 to the stuffed and stored debris of human preferring,

to the boulders of human resistance,

forming the current of human selecting,

it spins in a whirlpool of human suffering.

 

Down, down, down the swimmer sinks, 

claimed by this vortex of its own trapped energy, 

into the mirky depths that build up and break down 

behind the boulder of samskara.

The River …the powerful, majestic river ...

drops its all- seeing eyes from the skies

and follows this human down to the watery death that awaits.

 

Howling with delight,

the Eddy triumphantly claims 

another victory over the natural flow of Life.

 

The undaunted Ocean sings again, 

calling out in compelling whispers,

coaching the River to leave the swimmer behind 

and to come home where it belongs.

Reluctant to detach from that

which it carried with such pride,

the waters continue to resist 

They twirl and swirl around and around,

making the Eddy stronger with each downward plunge.

 

Still, that Force calling the River forward is unflinching.

It is determined to bring all its Ripples home. 

Unknown to this tiny disturbance of river, 

trapped in one of many Eddies, 

 Life is determined to go on.

In the universal flow,

exists the Shakti, pure and free, 

moving in glorious sparkling persistence,

 back to the Source from where it came.

The birds and winds above 

cry out in joyous awakening 

relaying a message in their song   

for all who will listen: 

Stop resisting, relax, 

and let the ocean pull you home.

 

Through the rushing noise of human drama,

 the soothing chorus is heard

and the River finally removes its focus

from the drowning, struggling form.

It lets go.  

 The flimsy carcass slips 

lifelessly to the muddy bottom,

while the waters return 

to the surface where they, 

sparkling with millions of  twinkling diamonds,

embrace the sunlight once again.

 

The boulders dissolve,

 the debris disperses

 and the Eddy is no more.

Without the heaviness of swimmer,

the barrier of Samskara, 

the mighty River is set free to continue 

its joyful journey home. 

© Dale-Lyn, July 2024

Wednesday, July 17, 2024

Attempt Number Four

 

The River and the Eddy,

The Ocean calls the River home.

A prized trophy, carried high on the shoulders of this returning hero

the swimmer bobs up and down. Finally asleep,

 after hours of splashing effort, unaware of the strong and steady waves

 that carry it protectively along, it moves toward its own demise.

 

Whirling, swirling, riveting in tormented circles, the Eddy up ahead

gets ready to pull the swimmer from the River’s protective hold.

It, without mercy, is set on tearing all the unsuspecting,

yet the endlessly anticipating away from their unconscious daydreams.

Like a bully hiding in the corner of the River’s bend,

it sticks out a dirty foot from below the sparkling waves.

The surprised River, so intent on joyfully getting to its destination,

heeding only the voice that calls it forward,

stumbles over the boulder of Samskara and its lifetime collection of debris.

Losing its momentum, its grasp weakens.

The swimmer is torn from its clutches. Both it and its charge

 are clumsily sucked into the awkward barrier.

 

Tangled up in all the other floating things the Eddy pulls toward it,

torn from its original trajectory, splashing about

 in a desperate attempt to find something solid to hang onto 

the drowning treasure swallows the waves of misguided attempts 

and sinks to the depths below.

 

All the while the rush of these Holy Waters,

the trough and crests  of these mighty waves,

are still being called forward by the Oceans’  powerful  but unseen Force. 

This Voice is strong and unrelenting, stirring up the waters 

that collect behind the impediment of samskara.

 

Yet, the cries of the River’s cargo, the drowning swimmer,

pull its attention down. When the watery focus is drawn

to the stuffed and stored debris of human preferring,

to the boulders of human resistance,

forming the current of human selecting,

it has no choice but to spin in a whirlpool of human suffering.

 

Down, down, down the swimmer sinks, 

claimed by this vortex of its own trapped energy, 

into the mirky depths that build up and break down 

behind the boulder of samskara.

And the River …the powerful, majestic river ...follows.

 

Howling with delight, the Eddy triumphantly claims 

this that makes it stronger.

 

The undaunted Ocean sings again, calling out in compelling whispers,

for the River to leave the swimmer behind and come home.

Not wanting to abandon that which it clung to for so long,

the waters still resist and twirl and swirl around and around

making the Eddy stronger and stronger and stronger.

 

Still, that Force calling the River forward is determined 

to bring all its Ripples home. 

Unknown to this tiny disturbance of river 

trapped in one of many Eddies,  Life goes on beyond it. 

In the flow of that universal Life beyond the barrier,

exists the Shakti, pure and free, 

moving in glorious sparkling persistence,

 back to the Source from where it came.

The birds and winds above cry out in joyous awakening 

relaying a message in their song   for all who will listen: 

Stop resisting, relax, and let the ocean pull you home.

 

Through the rush of human drama, the soothing chorus is heard

and the River removes its focus from the drowning form.

It lets go.  As soon as it releases its hold allowing the flimsy, 

lifeless carcass to fall to the muddy bottom,

its waters return to the surface where they, 

sparkling with millions of  twinkling diamonds,

embrace the sunlight once again.

The boulders dissolve, the debris disperses

 and the Eddy is no more.

 

Without the heaviness of swimmer,

the barrier of Samskara, 

the mighty River is set free to continue 

its joyful journey home. 

© Dale-Lyn, July 2024 attempt # 4

Are you in this dance?

 This is the real secret of life-to be completely engaged with what you are doing in the here and now. And instead of calling it work, realizing it is play.

Alan Watts

It is all just play! Do you get that yet.  It doesn't matter what we are doing actually (as long as it isn't harmful to other beings). It doesn't matter if we are working in a lab close to discovering the cure for cancer or writing the next Pulitzer Prize winning novel.  It doesn't matter if we are sitting on a mountain cliff in the Himalayas chanting "Aum" into the air or kneeling for hours on a church pew praying. It doesn't matter if we are preparing to  graduate from University with a PhD in Nuclear science or picking up the textbook that says "Get your GED in 30 days" . It doesn't matter if you are sitting on a park bench in your neighborhood or zooming by on a Fast Train as you travel through Spain.  It doesn't matter if you are by yourself, unnoticed in a crowd, or delivering a speech to the United Nations. The point is..."you are". The question  then, "Your Life is right here,, right now ; are you in it?"

Or are you like the majority of the human race waiting...waiting to get there. All the while saying to yourself, "It is coming...it is coming.  It is almost here.  I will get there...just have to work a little harder, do a little more, go a little farther, wait a little longer...but man, it is so close?" 

What are we waiting for? What is that thing that is coming? What are we trying to achieve with all our effort?

Peace? Happiness? Joy? Love?  That which will settle the mess inside? 

Are you getting it or are you still waiting? I mean you probably get some semblance of peace and happiness and love every now and again...that keeps you waiting doesn't it, for more?  But it never lasts does it?...What we get  is just a tease. Just like when a gust of wind might blow the carrot so close to the donkey's mouth he can nibble on it, get a taste of it before it settles back into its position away from reach. After that nibble the donkey keeps going, keeps working, keeps trying, and keeps waiting for the day he can get more than a nibble. 

More than a nibble?

What if you woke up every morning full of these feelings of happiness, peace, joy, bliss, and love...just full of it? Would it matter then if you graduated with honors from your PhD program,, if you made it to the finish line, if you got published, if you finally had enough money to buy that house or travel? Would it matter if you were a broke, destitute, uneducated human being sitting on a park bench doing absolutely nothing? No, if you felt good, clean, and pure inside all these things you are seeking or waiting for would not matter. Would they?

Imagine just feeling high and blissful...full of love for self and all beings...all the time no matter what you were doing or what you had. Imagine dancing simply for the joy of dancing. 

I want to be in the dance, not waiting for the music to start or stop so I can get sonewhere?  What about you? 

The music of Life is playing here and now...and we can be in this dance 100 percent. It might be painful and exhausting at times, it might me  a fun jig or a beautiful waltz...but the point is we just need to be in it...no matter what  And it has nothing to do with what we are doing and everything to do with being here now. 

Like, I realize that and I do find myself enjoying being where I am more and more and seeking less and less. I still get pulled away again and again into "the need to do  and get somewhere " frenzy of our culture. Despite that,  I am finding more peace in this doing that I am doing and in the not doing that I am not doing.  Still writing a book I probably have no business writing and what others are calling " a boring endeavor".  I have no idea why I am writing it.  It is taking much more time than I thought it would but for some strange reason I hear the music behind me as I write. My fingers just go tapping along. 

Though I have no idea where this book will go when it is finished...if it will ever get finished...I am enjoying the process of this "boring endeavor" .  I am enjoying the learning and the "scholarship" for the sake of learning" as well...with everything I do.  Alan Watts once shared that scholarship means "leisure devoted to learning". I want to study all "the charming irrevalences of life". Learning is my leisure. It truly, truly is. I enjoy and dance along with that too.

I want "more" of this peace and joy, I do. I am still not "settled" in the here and now all the time.  I still want to control the music and lead the steps at times I do...but I do realize fully and wholly ...that it is all about being in the dance. I just want to be in the dance!

Anyway, I am rambling again. 

Just be in the dance!

All is well.