Slipping Into Self Pity?

 

Self pity is our worse enemy and if we yield to it, we can never do anything wise in this world.

Helen Keller

1000 little violins were playing in my head as I reread my entry from yesterday.  Not only did I make a lot of typos lol, I also pulled my'self' ...and possibly others...down into self pity and negativity. Isn't that what a dying ego...grasping for something to hang on...wants?

The truth is: it is hard.  There is a lot of crap this human I call "me" has to deal with. ( A lot of humans are dealing with crap...many with crap so much more challenging than mine!). Still...it basically sucks sometimes!!! And I do have a scientific  mind- I was born with it. This intellectual mind wants to know why circumstances are this way...Is it random? Is it karma (and I don't mean the punishment idea of karma)? Do I have some negative energy attached to me for some reason? Are these just lessons Life believes I am ready to handle so I grow? (Or the one I am most afraid of): Am I doing this to my self because I don't yet know how to handle the reins of this mind? 

I don't know...sometimes...many times...that question comes up. Why is this happening? Why is it so hard?

Yeah, self pity will sneak in there too every now and again, like it did yesterday, but most of the time...it is just an objective question I am asking.

Hmm! Anyway...you can put down your tiny violins now lol. I put away my self pity.

Side note: Self compassion is required when we recognize the tendency towards self pity.  My first reaction when I recognize my self pity is to chastise myself and say something like, "How could you do that??? You know better!!" I feel shame.

We need to have compassion for the human we are that has a tendency towards this.  Be kind as you gentle reassure  that human that it is okay to fall into negativity and self pity from time to time...and gently encourage them not to stay there. It will do no good what so ever in this world.

All is well.