I realize, as I wake up without the urge to bop around saying, "Oh isn't this wonderful? Isn't this great?"...that Life is not going quite the way I want it to. Though I am reacting to external challenge much less than I used to say seven years ago and the pendulum is just moving a little bit towards the "not fun" side of my mind as I watch these circumstance unfold in front of me, I am still reacting in a less than neutral way to what Life is offering. Why? Because I am still not okay inside!
I know so well now that Life isn't personal and that accepting it as it is the only way to approach it. Still, parts of the discriminating, externally focused "me" remains. I know samskaras are leaving the filing cabinets where I had once fought to store them and are making their way up and out, as well. That is a bit uncomfortable and disturbing too...especially so as I deal with these "big" external triggers. I see how much of a mess I still am inside. It seems that right now there are things I feel I can't handle, meaning that I have some work to do.
Work?
Yes, work. I mean, I do not have to work anymore to make things different out there...to make people, places and things be the way "me" wants them to be but I do need to work to keep my heart open, my self centered and the shakti flowing. I am willing though...I see this as my life mission now.
If I have this stuff inside of me and if it is bothering me, it is going! And no more is coming in.
It is funny that I randomly answered the question and did this related video yesterday, only to open up to this today.
Anyway, all is well.
Michael A Singer/ Temple of the Universal ( August 21, 2023) Letting Go- The Journey from Bondage and Liberation. https://tou.org/talks/
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