Lightness of Being

  The heavier the burden the closer our lives come to earth, the more real and truthful they become. Conversely, the absolute absence of burden causes man to be lighter than air, to soar into heights, take leave of the earth and his earthly being, and become only half real, his movements as free as they are insignificant. What then should we choose? Weight or lightness?

Milan Kundera, The Unbearable Lightness of Being

Numbers are down again on the stats page and I feel relief.  Feel like what I might be getting now are legitimate readers. Who knows? But I do feel "lighter" because of it.

Anyway, the numbers are not the only thing that is down lol...the swelling in my mouth seems to be going down. It is much less sensitive to touch. So grateful!!! 

I woke up and for some strange reason I felt lighter...physically lighter, emotionally lighter. My movements seemed free and insignificnt...not weighed down.  It was weird.  Nothing in the external world has changed significantly enough for me to notice...yet, I seemed to be free of burden. I am not sure of the cause for this "felt expereince"...but it was/is nice to be absorbed by lightness. 

This lightness might have  a "physical" cause to it, too? You know how you feel with a fever? That lightheadedness and spaciness? I feel like that and have felt like this off and on since I first got the infection in April. That is why I thought I had a fever. It is far from "unpleasant". Actually, kind of "nice"... hmm!

One minute I feel burdened and weighed down by the world...and the next I feel like a helium balloon...untethered, half realm, and with nothing "significant" to cling too. 

Isn't the felt experience of Life strange to witness? 

All is well