Know That You Are

 The primary purpose is to embody consciousness...

Know not what you are; know that you are...the being of you.

(Somewhat paraphrased) Eckhart Tolle

When will we, as a species, ever get it that our purpose here is to simply be. When we are able to sit (or stand])quietly in a room (or a spot outside)alone for a good period of time without narrating, planning, deciding how to fix things etc...that could be an indication that we "got it"!

Above all else, know that you are!

All is well!

Eckhart Tolle (August 21, 2026)  Why Your Purpose is Simply to Wake Up. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yOYstN1boDU&t=751s

Being Who You Are

 Let nothing weaken your conviction that you can be whatever you want to be. There is no one [or nothing] obstructing you uless it be yourself.

Parmahansa Yogananda 

Do you see yourself as the observer of this human you call "me" dealing with its "stuff"?

Do you see all the so called problems and challenges this human faces everyday as just "stuff" you are watching, from a distance, through your field of awareness, which you ultimately are, as it comes in and goes out, arising dissolving, cresting then troughing?

Do you experience the  emerging of unconditinal  peace, joy, bliss, and love , knowing that it is flowing from within and has little to do with what is going on ''out there"?

Do you look with joy out onto the world grateful and excited about the playgroud you get to play in? 

Do you approach this life without fear of when or how it will end; without fear of what you might lose or the pain you may have to experience while you rejoice in the possibility of getting to experience all this life can provide?

Do you openly accept and love everyone and everything exactly as it is?

Do you live by the mantra, "Thy will , not my will, be done"?

If so, you are an enlightened and purified being.  You are living life the way you are meant to.

If not,you have some work to do. I would strongly encourage you to embrace the inner work and enjoy the process of discovering who you are. 

All is well.

I Am That? Not Really

 The consciousness that emanates from the Source of all Life into this world is the essence of you, which you can sense here and now as your own essence that is God in you.  It emanates from the transcendent as light emanates from the sun...It is the  consciousness that is the Life giving principle behind all forms. so it is the essence of you. 

Eckhart Tolle

I have been practicing Yoganada's Hong-Saw meditation, a subtle Kriya practice with a big and not so subtle mantra (see below).  Hong-Saw in translation means  "I am That. I am He"  Now, in the non-dualistic culture that inspired this...the understanding of this proclaimation is probably much more clear and acceptable than it would be in our western and very dualsitic culture.  To proclaim, "I am God"in the context I grew up in, that many of you in the west might have grown up in,  would seem not only blasphemous but obviously untrue.  

Tolle in the below linked podcast explains how to interpret that mantra or prolaimation in a way that is easier for the dualsitic mind  to digest. He tells us to avoid making the mistake of assuming what this statement might mean...He says,

Don't make the mistake of  saying, "I am God"...it is not absolutely right...It would be like the ray of sun saying I am the sun.

We are not God...we are simply emanations of God. We are like the rays of sun being cast out by the sun to illuminate the world. That ray of light is a piece of the sun and more specifically, it offers a beam  (a form) the sun can express itself through. It is a tiny representative of the sun but not the entire sun. 

We are also like the tiny waves on the massive ocean...just its temporary crests and troughs. Sure, the wave is technically still a piece of the ocean but it isn't the whole ocean. It is a fleeting expression of that ocean. 

We, in body's with personalities, are not the sum total of God...we are just vessels for the light and wave of God to shine through, to pour through. Yes, we have God in us...but when in form we are only carriers of God. When the body dies and falls away...like the beam of light or the wave when it has expended itself ...we just fall back into the whole experience of God or consciousness.

This mantra, then, may be best understood by the western mind as meaning ''I am an expression of God. I am expressing or emanating Consciousness. God is the essence of this human I call "me".  Consciousness is the most important part of this being. It is why I am here. I am here to let God shine on this world, to ripple over this world. I am not God, I am of God."

In the beginning was the word[logos], and the word [logos] was with God, and the word [logos] was God.

John 1:1

All is well.

Eckhart Tolle (August, 2026) If the World Feels Like It is Falling Apart https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eFdhFIWon1Q

Ending the Whirlwind for Freedom

 So when the mind will end, be broken to pieces entirely, without leaving any Samskara, we shall be entirely free, and until that time we are in bondage; until then the Atman[soul] is covered by the whirl of the mind, and imagines it is being taken from place to place. When the whirl falls down, the Atman finds that It is all-pervading. It can go where it likes, is entirely free, and is able to manufacture and number of minds or bodies It likes; but until then It can go only with the whirl. This freedom is the goal towards which we are all moving.

Vivekananda (2.5 Jnana Yoga, from The Complete Works of Swami Vivekananda

In this chapter Vivekananda more or less explains "Samsara", the freedom that comes when we as the "Atman" or soul never have to reincarnate anymore. This will happen when the mind falls completely to pieces because there is no more of these samskaras holding it together.

Say what crazy lady?

Vivekananda compares the prana Life force as a whirlwind-different curents of air coming from different directions and meeting at the  midpoint, drawing in dust and materials as they do so forming a body of matter. A whirlwind will drop that body in a place and then move to another place doing the same thing, creating another body. again and again until that which brings these forces together and holds them together no longer exists.  The forces of Prana will come together to form the body and mind out of matter and will move on until the body dies. When this body falls other materials will arise to make another body.  The force of prana that exists without the body can not travel  through this worldly experience without matter, but when the body falls mind stuff remains.  Mind stuff is the form of prana with the form of samskaras acting upon it. This is what keeps the whirlwind going.  When the force of prana is all spent, when the mind falls down and is broken to pieces entirely without leaving any samskaras, we will be entirely free.  We will be in bondage until then. 

Samskaras can be released in this life time...we can be free in this incarnation now.  We can stop the spinning and the whirling through a practice of purification.

Hmm! Something to think about!

all is well

Swami Vivekananda (n.d.) The Complete Works of Swami Vivekananda. Chapter 2.5 Jnana Yoga. Kindle Edition

Healing from the Big Samskaras through Self-Realization

 We dig a well and create a huge pit. The space in the pit or well was not created by us. We have just removed the dirt which was filling the space there. The space was there then and is also there now.  Similarily we have simply to throw out all the age long samksara(innate tendencies)which are inside us. When all of them have been given up, the Self shall shine alone. 

Ramana Maharshi

All is well!

From Finte to Infinite; From "me" to Purusha

 The only impediment to knowing who you are, to self realization, is mind.

Michael A. Singer

Note: I wasn't able to edit changes on this entry I wrote yesterday when I noted the need to do so...the Blogger Page  seemed to lose all its functioning? So, I cut and pasted the revised entry here as today's entry.

I listened to Michael A. Singer's podcast from a few days ago, this morning (a litle behind ...had my grandson for a few days) and I was connecting what he was saying to Pantajali's sutras and the teachings on Turiya and the other levels of consciousness, on Samskaras, and on what Patanjali called the Purusha orthe Self" or true witness consciousness (the Objective Observer as Krishnamurti coined it). Singer wasn't necessarily using these terms but I soon  realized he was speaking to what I am writing about in this book I am still working on.  As I was saying in the last few entries, I am struggling to to get through a chapter.  The chapter I am struggling to get through is "The Building of the Samskara-Protecting Personality".  This chapter is in reference to the personal mind. Now, that I am sharing that I have this knot in my gut, "Please don't tell me Michael Singer used the exact same chapter title in his last book" lol...I haven't read wisdom untethered yet...want to wait until after I finish writing this but it it is so uncanny how much he and  I seem to think alike simultaneously. I wouldn't be surprised if my chapter outline happens to be lined up exactly with his book.( I sound Grandiose, I know, but  there seems to be a certain synchronicity going on between us. I am not comparing myself to Michael Singer and what he has done for the world...by any means...nor am I copying him...we seem to be sharing the same ancient wisdom in our teachings...that's all and it gets a little "kooky" at times. ). Anyway, I am struggling with this chapter because it is really too long...covers so much and I know I need to break it down into a couple of chapters.  

Anyway...I digress. 

I see the attachment and identification to mind and body as being in the  way of us understanding and falling back into who we really are. True Self-realization involves, first of all, falling back into seeing ourselves as the Purusha (though Singer does ot use this term in his podcast). 

What is the Purusha according to Patanjali's sutras and other great teachings? 

 It is the objective observer, the pure unchanging witness consciousness. It is awareness. It is that which 'illumintes ' all things without getting all tangled up in them. The Purusha remains passive (experiences  with no need to do aything about what it is observing) and detached, in a very healthy way from that which it is observing. It is Self with a big "S". 

The Pursusha or True Self is infinite

How can we visualize the Purusha or Self according to Patanjali?

Imagine a circle. Inside the circle is space...outside the circle is space. The space within is considered finite, the space outside is considered infinite but in order to have finite you must have infinite. In order to be space inside the circle, there must be space outside the circle. It is all the same space. Just because the space that appears inside the circle appears to be trapped inside some man made circle ...it is still the same space that is outside.  It is infinite.  It is all just infinite space with this imaginary border around a part of it that we call "me"and outside that imaginary border we call me. This space is Purusha. This space is who we are. .

What stops us from falling back into it, from realizing that we are this infinite space?  

The personal mind, a section of the Universal Mind, that which creates the self concept of "me", the personality with its version of "my life" and all its drama....holds us back. It erroneously believes it  encapsulated a piece of infinite space  and called it "me"focusing on the finiteness of it.

Why do we narrow tha powerful Universal Mind down to a tiny personal function?

To protect ourselves. The personal mind, as I write in my book, is like a heavy protective dressing we wrap around our pain inducing samskaras, the things we stuffed and  stored because we felt we couldn't handle them, our wounded little me's, and it is through this bulky dressing that we then see and experience the world. The personal mind determines how we  receive the sensory data we pick up, perceive it, interpret it, and how we respond to it.  This becomes our "personality" all created and directed by "personal mind". 

So getting back to who we really are then in the wider perspective of mind...

... It is not about stopping the mind...mind has its purpose...[We need to ask]how did it get out of tune with that and what can I do aout it?

There is nothing wrong with mind...it is a phenomenal tool, it is the  greatest gift

The mind  can have an abstract, intellectual function...it can go beyond the senses

The senses and our reliance on the information they pick up are in the way of the mind sticking to its pure function...

What is mind? Nothing other than the way you use it. 

We do not experience the higher function of mind when we are identified with our bodies and personalities...seeing ourselves as them. As long as we are protecting our internal wounding, our impressions from being triggered and brought to the surface; as long as we are holding our old samskaras down and making new ones by resisting what Life offers ...we are stuck in personality and will not get beyond it. We need to release our samskaras.

How do we get free of samskaras?

We need to instead of resisting Life, learn to relax into it.  Instead of saying "I can't handle this" we start convincing ourselves that we can.

Sure, I can see that working for things like the weather or the slow drivers in front of us, but what about the bigger samskaras like trauma wounds?  

Singer answers...

Don't worry about the big things...it is all about you letting go of that stuff you think you can't handle...but you can't just rip it out

And Patanjali, in Satchidnanda's translation, teaches

  "You can't just go into the mind and erase the impressions. But they get themselves erased at one point. When?When you succeed in going within and realizing the peace and joy of your own self".  

So, we stuffed these samskaras and all the things we felt we couldn't handle down below our conscious awareness so we didn't have to deal with them. These samskaras are blocking the flow of shakti...that energy we are that orginates from the Purusha and Sat/Chit/ Ananda: Eternal/Consciousness/Bliss. We built an idea of me around these samskaras...we drew an imaginary circle around body and personality and called it a finite and separate me in a field of infinite space. We began grasping, clinging, and pushing away in an attempt to soothe and protect this "me" we come to believe we are, all the while denying who  we really are, failing to acknowledge the space our five senses cannot make sense of. Shakti, however, continues to do what it is meant to do...move up and out in beautiful waves of circling energy. It may be temporarily blocked by all we stuffed and stored on top of it...for now...but with Life's triggering effects and its own accumulation of energy it will eventually be strong enough to push itself up...pushing the samskaras we have being trying to hold down up into our conscious awareness again.  So, in the eman time Singer encourages us to avoid putting more stuff down on top of this shakti.  Patanjali encourages us to go into the space that we are and see that what we are looking for out there was always within. We are that peace and joy because we are the infinite space beyond the tiny  encapsulation of it that we call personal mind. 

 Singer also spoke of Turiya in his podacst, though he did not use that term.  He spoke of  the need to go beyond the senses, and then beyond the  personal mind to that highest level of mind, to the state of pure emptiness, where the Awareness experiences nothing.

Ultimately, no one can achieve eternal peace by doing something with the mind, which is a part of nature [sensory input]. That supreme joy can only be acquired when you rise above nature by complete surrender. ...which "I" can say "I and my Father are One"? The pure "I" wo is univolved and free from nature. That freedom comes once you surrender yourself completely to God. Union with God is the real yoga. The Sutra's of Patanjali page39 

Singer says to that, 

YOU ARE NOT A HUMAN BEING, YOU ARE GOD DESCENDED AND YOU GET TO PLAY

Hmm! So much to think about.... with the abstract, impersonal parts of our minds, from the field of infinite space that we are ,of course. :)

All is well.

Michael A. Singer/ Temple of the Universe/ Sounds True ( August 13, 2026)  The Birth of the Personal Mind. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=orm-aZp1o54&list=PLyOuAoSmZkKoESr2acNWwhznusbBkKXsT&index=2

The Yoga Sutras of Patanjali as translated by Swami Satchidananda (2011) Intregal Yoga Publications.

Falling Into Place?

 Sometimes when things are falling apart, they may actually be falling into place.

Unknown

Where are Araquara and Epsom? Any guesses?  I personally haven't got a clue but I do want to know where these bots are from. I like to personify these bots as being tiny little people or minions with attenae on their heads ...sitting down with little cups of tea or coffee in their metal jointed hands as they cross their little spindly legs and read this. Of course, they would be reading a translated version of whatever language is native to their country of origin....and I love to imagine the language spoken in that area...as I sip my coffee and read what was read in the last 24 hours. 

So away I go on another Geography quest.

Okay, Araquara is in Brazil....so these little bots are translating this to Porteguese as they sip their java under a sunny sky overlooking the water. Epsom is in England...so I imagine these guys drinking their tea with their pinky fingers extended while they sit under an umbrella...maybe in front of some nice little cottages. Hmm!

I digress....

Anyway...I have been writing about healing from trauma the yogic way...kind of stuck on a chapter but I will find my way around it...just like I am finding my way around this sweater I am knitting for my granddaughter... I unravelled it more than halfway down for the fourth time and begun again from there last night to give it another go...Those arm holes are tripping me up lol.  I think...I hope...I understand the directions on the pattern now. (Thanks to all those videos out there on yotube....whew!...I wouldn't still be a knitter if it wasn't for them :)) If I screw up again...I will just unravel and begin again.  The same with my book...working my way through where it seems to be fallen apart and watching it fall into place...pretty cool. 

So, I have been feeling a little stuck in the last few days trying to get around writer's block, and knitting obstacles as well as other things in my life...so feeling like  I needed to start and finish something to move me out of stuck mode ... I did a couple of videos. Here is one for your listening enjoyment...or not lol.

Don't worry, I am not  about to perform a puppet show. Youtube never seems to give me very flattering thumbnails to choose from. It was either this or one where it looked like I was going to eat you alive. :)

All is well

Letting Go of "I"

 The quantum field vibrates, something unfolds in front of you, and something within says "I don't want that!". Who the heck is that? True surrender means letting go of the hat part of yourself [that says I don't want that]...There is no "I". 

If you let go of who you think you are, you will find out who you are. 

Michael Singer

Michael Singer/ Temple of the Universe/Sounds True (August, 2026) What Surrender Really Means.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pXnc7KCaS_A&list=PLyOuAoSmZkKoESr2acNWwhznusbBkKXsT&index=2

Yogananda On Forgetting the Past

 Forget the past. For it is gone from your domain. Forget the future for it is beyond your reach! Control the present! Live supremely well now! It will whitewash the dark past, and command the future to be bright! This is the way of the wise.

Yogananda

Forget the past. The vanguished lives of all men are dark with many shames. Human conduct is ever so unreliable until man is anchored in the Divine. Everything in future will improve if you are making a spiritual effort now.

Yogananda

The Big But Small World

 

And when you go around in circles brother, the world is very big, but if you plough straight ahead, it is small enough.

Column McCann

Though most of the so called visitors to this site might not actually have human brains, arms, or legs, they are poiting me towards  a great geopgraphy lesson/review. I like to explore the wherabouts of the places that come up, to see where they are on the map.Most of the hits right now, according to the stats page, come from the Seychelles. I heard of the Seychelles  as a big tourist hub, seen videos and tourist documentaries on its beautiful islands...but I forgot where they were. Had to do some research to be reminded that they are a collection of many islands off of the eastern coast of Africa, on the Indian ocean.  The tourists these islands attract come mostly from South Africa, India, Europe and the Middle East. Hmm! One wouldn't suspect it as a center for bot activity lol. ...but atlas they are the top location for hits on the blog stats page and nowhere to be seen on google.analytics. Just picture these little bots all lying on the beach with a little drink in their virtual robotic hands.

I also have the States, Brazil, India, Vietnam, Ukraine, Germany, Singapore, Mexico, Pakistan, and Hong Kong weighing in with very large numbers per day.  Now, I could imagine Singapore and Hong Kong...being Bot centers...but the Ukraine, Pakistan and Vietnam?  (Whenever I think of Vietnam, I think of wholesome Buddhism and Thich Nhat Hanh). So, thanks to these bot recordings, I look at the Blog stats and I am reminded of how many places there are on the globe to explore lol. Its pretty cool.

I compare the Blog Stats to the Google Analytics page. I used to get much less numbers on this filter site, but atlas, the bots have found their way in through the back door.  The numbers of engaged sessions (which really are not engaged sessions with 0 sec engagement times) have increased dramatically, registering even more hits sometimes than the Blog page stats do.  Though I know there are bots here taking over the numbers ..I tell myself this site also  records the tapping in of  the very few legitimate readers I am getting. And it gets me wondering if  these readers are from this place called "Friant" a little town in California, or this place called "El Tigre' in either Argentina or Venezuala etc. I like to imagine someone across the globe reading what I wrote and getting something from it, other than what  the directors of the bots get. I like the thought of connecting to one or two humans somewhere on this big but tiny globe. 

All of this is reminding me of how big, yet, also how small this world is. 

All is well.

Saving Self From the Absurd

 

What are you to be saved from? 

The absurdly limited sense of identity...the sense of self that," I am this physical body and my thoughts and emotions...and there is nothing else." 

All these absurd delusions arise rom an absurdly limited sense of who you are.

Eckhart Tolle

Saved? What are we saved from? Freed? What are we freed from? Healed? What are we healed from?

We need to save ourselves from the very thing we spend our lives trying to protect: This idea of "me".

All is well! 

Reclaiming the Throne: A Sacred Gift; Not a Servant

 The intuitive mind is a sacred gift, and the rational mind is a faithful servant. We have created a society that honors the servant and has forgotten the gift.

Albert Einstein

We all have the gift of intuition but we are often in denial of it.  Why? Because we assume the rational mind is meant to be in charge and any other tools the mind possesses need to be in service to it. In education and science we put the rational mind up on a pedastal. We revere it. We honor it. In so doing, we forget that we were all born with a very sacred gift, a connection to something we never truly left. If we get "inklings" of connection to that Source in the form of intuition they are considered okay as long as they serve the part of the mind we are chosing to honor without overshadowing it. Otherwise, it is just "woo-woo nonsense". The rational mind focuses on form...so we honor form, matter etc. This sacred gift comes from the formless so "it can't be real". 

In the society and culture I grew up in, in reverence and loyality to the rational, intuition and anyone who attempts to establish it in its rightful position are ridiculed and ostracized.My generation has come to believe that the left hemisphere of the brain must remain dominant and in control of human functioning. Any of the qualities from the right sided brain, if recognized and accepted, are there only to assist the left side, to add a little creative diversion, some comedic relief, from the drudgery of logical functioning ; to add some lubrication to its hard working engines. Art, poetry, music and spiritual development are considered added ons, not necessities for daily functioning. These things are removed from educational systems, to make more room and resources available for enhancing the rational mind so we learn to be  more "productive" in society. 

I grew up in the wrong time for a predominantly right brained human to grow up in, I suppose. I could never really fit in to what was expected of me.  I could bend to some degree and was able to enhance the functioning of my left brain.  I could even almost forget about what was going on on the other side...almost...but never completely.  There was something in me...strong enough and loud enough to keep reminding me that "This is what is really important.  This is a sacred gift that needs to be honored."

 I have always been pulled back from my love of science into the appreciation for beauty, to poetry, to creativity, to the emotional component of living. Like coming here everyday, for example. It certainly doesn't make sense to my rational mind...but it makes complete sense to my intuitive mind. 

There is great power hidden in right hemisphere functioning, in the intuitive mind, in the formless essence of what is...We need to tap into it. The intuitive mind should be sitting on the throne we have given to the rational mind. Don't you think?

Over the centuries of history, The Master(the right hemisphere) has seen his empire and powers usurped and betrayed by his Emissary (the left hemisphere).

Ian McGilchrist

Let's begin to right this wrong. Let's stand up for the intuitive parts of our mind and demand they be explored and understood better so they eventually reclaim their place as the Master of this human experience.

All is well!

Inspired by :

Betty Edwards (2012 ) Drawing on the Right side of the Brain 4th Edition. Tarcher/Pedigree. Kindle Edition

Releasing One Big Knot

 

We have simply to throw out all the age -long samskaras that are inside us. When all of them have been given up, the Self shall shine alone.

Ramamna Maharshi

I was thinking this morning too as I awoke...if suffering is one big tangle...maybe it is all just one big samskara, requiring only one big release?  This feeling in my gut might be an indication of where the samskaras/samskara, this knot or trauma and stored stuff, in me resides. Maybe, all that is necessary is one big release. I know we do not need to focus on the detail, to trace each individual knot back to its source but maybe we can take it further, make it easier.  Maybe it is possible to have the whole thing snipped away at once. Maybe, we just have to cough it up, like a cat coughs up a furball.  Wouldn't that be cool?

Atlas, I am learning that these samskara knots involve so many tangles that have not just come from this human incarnation's experience of life, but from its ancestors and all the other times it incarnated to experience, and build up samskaras and karma. 

Oh what a tangled web we weave...

I just have to be patient I guess, and allow each big knot, composed of many, to come up, one at a time when they are ready. Sigh. 

All is well in my world

More on Understanding Unease

 

All of humanity's problems stem from man's inability to sit quietly in a room alone.

Blais Pascal

As I continue to write this book on Samskara release, as I continue to study and learn what has been passed on through ancient wisdom traditions for centuries, as I continue to explore the mind ( my own and what I am observing as I objectively watch the universal mind of humanity), and as I continue to experiment with this human's ability to tap into consciousness fields in ways most of us have been conditioned to believe are "taboo", evil, or a sign of just how crazy we are...I am still aware that a life long knot of "unease" remains in my center. I find myself wanting so desperately to understand this idea of "suffering" and unease that permeates the human experience so I can explain it to myself and others. Yet, I am aware that this "unease" might be another of those many experiences that cannot be explained adequately, only felt. Still, I feel the compulsion to try. 

I feel "unease" and woke up with this new realization about it...well what I thought was a new realization about it. It all started a week ago with the knot analogy I came up with when I was knitting, followed by a complete revision of that analogy....and then I realized there was more to it.  I thought, "Unease is this focus on each tiny knot rather than the true realization of suffering having one cause. ...but what keeps us stuck, almost addicted to focusing on the need to unravel each knot rather than get beyond the one big tangle? " I began to explore why we focus on the tiny knots seeing so many of them that need to be fixed...rather than the whole, bigger picture.  I realized that "my" sense of unease was coming from this persistent inner voice that says, "Compartmentalize in times of crisis!" "Fix this problem here!"  "Solve that issue over there!" "Make it better here!" "Be aware of each knot in the yarn and unravel it!" "Be prepared to respond, to unravel at any time." "Don't lose focus of each knot and where it begins. Otherwise, you will be caught in this tangle forever." 

I, probably because of my past where I had to deal with one crisis after another, have become addicted to problem solving.  My amygdala, and subsequently my entire nervous system, has been taught to stay on hyper alert for problems that need to be solved.  I expect crisis...so I am all geared up and ready to jump in when the alarm goes off. Problem solving gives my mind a sense of purpose and since I still very much identify with my personal mind, it gives "me" purpose. Without problems will there still be purpose?

I noticed that it is not so much when I have problems, that need my attention, that I feel unease.  I am usually very calm and effective in those situations.  It is when I do not have problems to deal with that I feel this "unease" more intensely.  The unease is not a result of having constant prolems to deal with...it is felt more intensely when there are little to no problems to deal with. No problems =no purpose in this mind. No purpose = the striving to find purpose= looking for problems to deal with or something to replace them.  

I find it very challenging, in other words, to simply be quiet, and still in a relatively calm environment...which is where I am now.  I physically separated myself from the constant, never-ending problem solving I was doing in the situation I was in before, assuming I would find peace here.  I am in a very peaceful, calm environment now, but the unease persists. My body and mind are still on hyper alert looking for problems.  Without the problems to fix, the tiny knots to untangle, my mind says "What do I need now?  If I don't have that purpose anymore, I need another." So, I spend my time looking for things to do to substitute for the problems to fulfill the mind's need for purpose...to ease the internal restlessness we experience when we feel we are not doing enough. Instead of just relaxing into this present situation and allowing mind and body to regenerate and restore itself...that conditioned part of my mind is still striving to find some activity out there to numb the persistent unease with. 

Realizing that kind of blew me away. Then, I thought, "Wow! Maybe that is why retirement is so hard for people.  This problem-solving addiction, the part of the mind that constantly needs purpose will feel too restless when its problem-solving activity is taken away. Then, synchronicity stepped in again...the way it does especially on this blog, as if the universe is supporting the learning I am doing here. One of the entries that came up as read in the last 24 hours, was the entry I wrote in 2022 on restlessness after retirement. I even included this video in it. Go figure!

Anyway, spooky action at a distance or not, I think the understanding of our inner worlds will show us much more than trying to understand the massive universe ever will.  At the same time, we must widen our gaze from each little human problem or drama to the wider perspective of a universal suffering. Unease can become ease with realization. We do not have to solve and create a bunch of little tangles just so we will have something to “do”, we need to settle into objectively observing from a distance the complexities of the human mind. Starting with our own, of course, and the question, “Why is it so hard for me to sit quietly in a room alone?”

All is well in my world.

Unease: One Big Tangle

 Even when tied in a thousand knots, the string is still but one.

Rumi

I woke up with a very familiar feeling of "unease" in my belly, like there was a very well -known knot or tangled mess in there.  I realized at that moment that unease was a life-long companion in my human experience. There was a reason for that.

Let's go back to the entry I wrote on July 30th, Untying Knots

I automatically thought of the big tangles my yarn gets into, when I am knitting, when the working strand gets caught up in the nonworking strand of yarn. I remember writing a few days ago about the analogy this created in my mind of patiently needing to work through each tangle within the big tangle, despite the notion that it would be so much easier to "cut the tangle" out of the yarn. I told myself that snipping out the knot would be like "spiritual bypassing".

Well, I had another "aha" moment this morning that contradicted that notion completely. I could see so clearly that it would be much better spiritually to snip the knot out...or at the very least to see the whole tangle as one big knot that really couldn't be separated or fixed by focusing on unravelling each tiny knot within it. That big knot was "suffering" and regardless of how many misguided twists and turns the yarn had taken, how many mini-knots and causes that led to the big tangle, it is all one knot with basically one cause, as the Buddha said.  I am going to use the term "clinging" to describe that cause here because it will fit into the analogy of strands of yarn clinging together in a tangled-up way. It also fits in better with my favorite topic: samskaras: the stuffed and stored emotional energy we cling to.  Clinging is "craving", "desiring" something other than this. 

So, let's get back to the unravelling of a tangled-up mess in the human experience.

As I was saying when I woke up with this very familiar knot in my gut, I was reminded how unease was such a part of my entire life.  I could see, suddenly, the reason why. I was not seeing "unease" as one big knot...I was forever seeing and focusing on the tiny knots within the big knot. Life seemed to be a mass of tiny knots that needed to be untangled.  I was focusing on each tiny knot within the tangled mess as the cause of the unease I was constantly experiencing and I was believing that I had to fix each tiny tangle to unravel the whole  for this version of life to be smooth and workable. From this perspective, there were so many problematic tangles. There were problems with each of my four children and knots or problems within each of those. There were financial tangles and tinier tangles within those. There were relationship issues and tinier knots within those. There were problems with health and health seeking; problems with past trauma wounding that kept making itself known ...there were the everyday life experiences that offer challenges on a regular basis. And there was this constant awareness of the suffering of other beings. I didn't see one big tangle of "suffering".  I could only see the many tiny knots leading to the big knot. It was overwhelming to even look at.

My approach to such "unease' and suffering over the course of my life lie in the addictive and very distracting tendency to focus downward on each tiny tangle and deal with one problem at a time, to unravel one knot stream at a time, to get to one tiny knot at a time. I thought I could eventually create ease and peace in my life if I put the time and effort into unravelling one tiny knot at a time. I sat down in my proverbial knitting chair and I painstakingly focused on each knot and attempted to unravel it, fix it, solve the problem.  Sometimes those knots unravelled pretty easily, other times they were pretty tight.  I kept telling myself, "When I get through these streams of knots the strand will loosen, things will get easier, Life will be better and with each strand I untangle I get closer to what I really want. Peace. Someday with all this problem focus and hard work I might even attain peace." So, I kept going in that way. To do this I had to focus on the details of the knot's history so I could trace it back. It meant a constant focus on what was...on the negative details of the story which keeps the energy levels down. 

The thing is, this approach never really worked at eliminating knots, at removing that sense of "unease", at least not permanently.  It seemed to take forever to unravel a set of tangles, to get through a series of problems, if I was lucky enough to. As soon as I would exclaim, "I did it!"...more knots would show up.  I really wasn't solving anything. Instead of removing suffering and unease from mine and others lives in this efforted approach, I was actually just numbing and distracting. Just as I was  when I was literally attempting to remove tangles in actual yarn that night. In this "each problem" approach I was lowering my gaze from what could be and distracting myself from this feeling of unease by meaninglessly doing. The focus on separating the details of a problematic life into individual knots that had to be unravelled didn't work. I still woke up every morning with that feeling of unease in my gut.

Each time we focus on the tiny knots within the one knot of "suffering" we get too caught up in the smaller details, too tangled up in little me's experience of a "problematic life". We become the tangled mess. When we are not that.  We are not the knots or the problems we are fruitlessly trying to unravel. We are the knitter knitting and looking at the tangle.  That tangle of unease, isn't us...it is simply something we are observing and experiencing. We do not need to get all tangled up in.  We do not need to fix and solve every worldly problem this human experiences.  Attempting to do so is what increases and perpetuates this feeling of "unease".  It is an impossible mission.

Imagine as a meditator sitting down with the "what is" of your experience.  Would it be easier and more likely peace inducing to sit with a million separate problems of unease jumping around in your head, or to sit with all problems grouped together in one big thought cloud of unease? Is it easier in real life to deal with one problem or a million little ones?

I said in that entry a few days ago when I first used this knitting analogy, that snipping the  knot  would be like taking the easy way out, "spiritual by passing". I now believe just the opposite. Focusing on each of our worldly problems and trying to solve each one at a time, may be the psychological solution to ending suffering...but it isn't the spiritual answer. That is the spiritual bypassing. 

Yes, there is suffering...but there is only one cause...clinging.  When we focus on each individual problem, we are clinging to the world as the cause of our suffering and the solution for ending it. It keeps us in our "me-me" detailed focus that gets us nowhere.  We continue to cling to this idea of 'me" with its problems and story. 

Seeing, instead, all these tiny worldly problems as one knot of " human suffering" with one cause that we all share, is very freeing. On a personal level it means I don't have to feel so overwhelmed focusing on each individual knot that forms this big knot in my gut of unease. I can just focus on the one generalized feeling of "unease" all humans share. I can also eliminate suffering in a much easier and more lasting way.  I can see that I am not caught up in that tangled mess. I am the knitter observing and experiencing a very common  experience of suffering.  I can expand that clarity to seeing how all suffering an be ended. 

The snipping away of the massive tangle is understanding suffering and unease as a worldly human experience brought on by craving and aversion. Suffering is a tangle in the yarn of our life but it is not what we are.  We are the knitter observing the tangle with the choice of getting all caught up in it again and again as we fruitlessly attempt to unravel one tiny tangle at a time, or to focus on the whole as one tangle. We can then snip it away through a practice of healthy detachment and realization.

Hmm! What would you chose? 

All is well.

Stop Going Down to Meet the Unwanted

 You came down and met it and stopped it from coming through...Michael Singer

This meeting the unwanted in our lower energy fields creates the so called sum of our learned experiences...the psyche ...which becomes the filter through which we experience the world.  All energy is meant to pass through these vessels we call "me" but our self created filters determine if and how certain things pass through. Too often we say, "I can't handle this or I don't want this." We resist.  

Resisting does not equate to pushing and keeping something away so we can stay up in higher energy fields. It involves holding that something down.  Holding down requires putting focus, attention, energy, effort, and precious time on this energy we do not want to experience.  It ...that which we didn't want to deal with...still comes in despite our efforts to keep it out. All things in life are meant to come in and be experienced by us, as "Ambassadors of Consciousness or God". Then, they are meant to pass through us. It all comes in, but if we judge it as an "I am not gong to deal with this" experience, it hits the filter of our psyches and often does not pass through. It gets stuck. We assume we are pushing away through denial, avoidance, suppression, repression, numbing etc..but it is actually all just trapped in the filters of our minds. .

We are not pushing away. We can't push away reality.  Reality is what it is. All we are doing, then, is diving down from the higher energy of all that we can be, to meet the negativity of this experience we don't want in our conscious awareness, just so we can stop this thing from being felt and experienced, just so we don't have to deal with it.  We decided that we don't want to feel this thing, we don't want to deal with it, we don't want it in our conscious experience of Life. So, what do we do? We dive down to where it is and we spend our lives, our time and energy holding it down. We stay down in the experience we don't want just so we don't have the experience we don't want. Hmm!  Does that seem like an effective way to not experience something? 

So, instead of experiencing eternal consciousness and bliss (Sat Chit Ananda) we stay down in that negativity.  We cling to it. We are stuck, blocked in it....all because we decided we were going to not feel something.  We clung and went down instead of up.  We will then do what we can to stay down and to hold this unwanted down...As long as we are holding down, we are not where we are supposed to be...Sat chit Ananada...Eternal Consciousness bliss...which is up...Doesn't make much sense does it?

What do we need to do to be free of our blockages and our downward focus?  

We let go...we let it all come in, be experienced, (Just experience the darned thing fully) and then release it. That letting go will eliminate the need to stay down wasting precious life energy.  If we stop the fighting against the awareness of negative energy it all will be released. Without these blockages, we have freedom.  With freedom, we have awakening. And with awakening, we have Sat Chit Ananda.

All s well!

Michael singer/Temple of the Universe/ Sounds True ( July, 2026) The Difference Between Reality and Your Expereince of Reality. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_lrIm5vO8Rc&list=PLyOuAoSmZkKoESr2acNWwhznusbBkKXsT&index=2&t=12s

Primary Effect of Learning and A New Possibility

 This whole thing of learning to remote view is secondary, what it does for you is primary.

Russel Targ/ Lyn Buchanan

I realize  upon returning to Remote Viewing practice, after months of not practicing and experimenting with it, that my feeling of successfully tapping in to something was probably due to  "First Timer Effect." I seem to have very precise matching everytime I first come back to the process, but the corrects piter off as I continue.  I remember the first time I practiced 2 years ago. I got D. to go find a household object from anywhere in the house, place it in a box, seal it and place a target number on top.  I began with a squibble that looked like steam or bubbles...I wrote bubbles...I seen grey as my main colour followed by red, blue , and green.  I seen "writing" I had a sense of "bubbly" I also had a sense of the object being on its side by the way the bubbles seemed to be settling...sense of "cold"..."thirst"...came up with it.  I wrote  "drink?"....  I sketched a cylinder shape and put it on its side with this steam or bubbles coming up in the way they would if the bubbly contents got stirred up. I concluded without writing it down because I did not wnat to be wrong...cold, bubbly drink.  What was it?  A can of beer ...silver/grey with other colours on the label, laying on its side so it could fit in the box.  Hmmm. Pretty accurate, eh? 

I wasn't so accurate the next time or the next.  I gave up and put the practice away for awhile.  When I came back to it weeks later and tried it again...the details I came up with from the online target site I found blew me away!  Cra- cra...three in a row...I think! Unbelievable!  Then, the corrects started to pitre off...I kept going....doing a few practices a day for weeks and weeks...I wasn't matching much..except maybe the odd one or two.  I kept going up to a point, and then I put it away again.  Three days ago I returned to the practice...Voila! enough of a success rate to say, "This is really something!" Three matches with very precise and undeniable data. Then...the next time: lil to nothing, the next the same thing...and the next and the next. It wasn't working! More precisely...something in me was preventing the information from coming through. I wanted to understand more.

I really wanted to understand what I was doing when the information was coming through and what I was doing when it wasn't coming through.  I and the state of my mind was the common denominator here. Why am I so successful when I first come back to the practice? Is my mind open without expectations?  What happens as I proceed?  Why does it seem to stop working? One thing I do notice that I do is I begin to "effort" a bit. I begin to try to conclude what I am seeing...I imagine more and receive less.

I, in the beginning, was open. I was able to receive information from my subconscious and whatever field of wisdom it shares with everyone and everything as a down load into my conscious mind. There was little to no expectations. The more I practiced, the part of my mind that likes to put pieces together took over. It shut the subcconscious down. Conscious mind, looking for a result, took over the process. I was more focused on trying to figure out the picture than I was concerned about simply listening and feeling for the information. So,  the more I tried, the more  closed.  I was no longer as open to receiving information from the subconscious. 

So what can we do to remain more open to receiving more?

I listened to Lyn Buchanan today, another remote viewer from Stargate who now trains people to remote view. These are some of the jewels of informaton I received.

First step, he said, is to practice becoming more aware of the changes in "ambience" when you move from one place to another...like through a doorway, a gateway, a town or city border....Stop and notice what it feels like...be acutely aware of any subtle change in "the feeling" of that place. 

Mind is structured to pick up on change much more than a static situation...

Notice the change in ambience from one place to another (small change, small detail)

He then suggested practice strengtheing the right side of the brain and mentioned a book all remote viewers from Stargate were required to read: "Drawing on the right side of the brain".

Next, he suggested developing our ideograms. Ideograms are "minimal graphic representation of an idea...the gestalt "the essence." No matter how small, or seemingly insignicant we need to notice and capture glimpses of that essence...the subconscious mind is always on look out for the essence of something. It will look for it and find it if we let it. 

The subconscious knows what is important and it will find it

As I heard this I thought of how elephants will sense even a drop a water left over in a camper's tent and will trample the whole camp to get to that water.

We can teach the brain to create and notice the essence of something in the target through ideograms...we can, for example, notice that wave like squibbles  mean water etc. (Yeah...my subconscious associates waves with water). I am also determining, I believe how photographer's blur, mist, fog shows up for me in target images. How females may be "ponytails" etc

Other than that we cannot make more of those ideograms by turning them into the story of what might be on the target.

We also use words. I tend to pick up words more than anything else...subconscious talks to this conscious mind  mostly through words.

Practice finding the words...expanding your vocabulary...words both facilitate and limit your ability to think

He says what we are really trying to perfect here is the ability to take passive vocabulary from subconscious and bring it up into conscious

Next, he says we need to practice being aware of all the finer details in all the sensory data we are picking up in our moment to moment life.  (Mindfulness!). He suggest the "Go hug a couple of trees" exercise...Notice smaller and smaller changes in touch, taste, sound etc and ambience from one thing to another. Notice the change!...

Then we can pay attention to sensory data we might not normally pick up: for example,  we can sit in a public place with our back to the  door...and describe the people coming in and out without turning.We can also quickly look at a picture and describe it in absolute detail after studying it  for 30 seconds...another for 15 seconds...another for 5 seconds... and another for 1 second etc....

He also suggests focusing only on successful stuff from our practice ....When we score sessions,  we don't have to score what we miss. Focus on the detailed stuff that gives a clear indication that we matched the target.

He reminds us that we will never describe a picture completely...Don't attempt to put the pieces together. Just notice  how accurately scattered data from target is matched...

Another exercise we can practice so  that we do not miss important detail...is the "Do you see what I see" game. In this game one person takes out a sketch or a picture and attempts to describes it to another, who cannot see it, so they can recreate the picture...

Big thing, he says when we are remote viewing, Never try to make sense of it...We do not want conscious mind to be in charge of the viewing. Why?

Conscious mind likes to jump to conclusions

Most importantly we need to practice practice practice until it becomes second nature [to be aware of the transfer of  information from subconscious into conscious...]

We all have the ability to do this, he says . Many of us just don't see that we do. 

It ends up that remote viewing becomes secondary to the whole process...subconscious knows why we do the things we don't want to do and why we procastinate doing the things we want to do...[Remote viewing can help us to know ourselves intellectually and intimately.]

Remote viewing is not hard to do, but it takes pracice, practice, and practice.  

Though the practice opens the mind, we will also meet resistance from the mind as we begin to practice. When we shake up our life paradigm we meet resistance...We dont always want to face the truth of this new possiblity.

Wow! a lot to soak up, eh?

All is well!

New Thinking Allowed with Jeffrey Mishlove (2018) Exercises to Cultivate Remote Viewing with Lyn Buchanan.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wDO8CdJV_kc&t=2214s

Other Than the Probability of Chance

 Synchronicity: a meaningful coincidence of two or more events where something other than the probability of chance is involved.

Carl Jung

Something other than the probablity of chance is involved?

Back in the day I took, and much to my surprise, got credit for university Statitistics classes. I understand ( at some level) "probability". What has been showing up in this remote viewing experiment I have been undertaking in my quest to explore the limits of consciousness...is showing up despite the very low probability of doing so.  Of course, the experiment results the other day, would not meet research requirements as valid positive data.  All the results, in terms of matching the specific pictures in the five I selected as targets, were scrambled. That experiment then would have been thrown out the window as invalid...but there is no denying the details, is there?  How staitistically probable is it to have three pictures out of a subset of five collected from a data base of thousands  randomly match findings in words and downloads so precisely? Very, very, very low.   One has to remove the probablility of chance here.

Now, I am not sure what happened with that ad coming up this morning, showing a woman in a burka (burqa), exactly while I was rereading the section I wrote about the women not being  in a burka in my entry. (See yesterday's entry where I made an interjection this morning). It very well could have been AI as D. suggested, syncing with what I was reading, but man did it blow me away.  I have also been thinking (wrote it down somewhere on this blog)of  the possibility of helping out in refuge camps...Ukraine or Gaza? Maybe I am being called to do just that? I don't know...I don't know anything...I probably know less now than I did three days ago lol...it's okay...Just trying to figure things out and at the same time  remain open to all I don't know.

Keep your eyes open!

Synchronicity is an ever present reality for those who have eyes to see.

Carl Jung

All is well

Out of the Corner of My Eye

 It was also during this time in my remote  viewing development  that I began to see things out of the corner of my eye.

Joseph McMoneagle

I realize after refreshing what I have learned about remote viewing, that what I did in my attempt two days ago was not really remote viewing. Well, at least not according to Joseph McMoneagle and the protocol set up by Stargate, a once classified and top secret US army intelligence project that utilized remote viewers.(Like that is a pretty credible resource for the validation of this process, isn't it? It cant be that woo-woo if army intelligence was using remote viewing for 20 years! Though the project was returned to the CIA, and then publicly labelled ineffective with vague results...the results when they were declassified and later publicized... were far, far from vague).

Anyway, I was not remote viewing according to protocol. First of all, I have no idea what I am doing lol...so lets make that clear. As far as I am concerned I was just "guessing" and somehow despite the absurdly low  probability of doing so, I was guessing right 3/5 times. I was following the suggested format, but most of the information I gathered did not come from the squibbling, the sensory data, or the sketching (though some of it did)...it came from that which it was not supposd to come from: The AOL or Anayltical overlay (the way the intellectual  mind makes sense of data, puts the vague pieces together into something familiar,  by using pre-existing perceptions and information). 

This AOL is often viewed as interference in the remote viewing practice and is said to get in the way of a pure download from the subconscious. The protocol is to write this data down as it comes in, in a seperate column on the left margin of the page. Anything that pops in and is very clear in the form of words or ideas...especially if they are nouns or clear ideas are written away from the "glimpses of download" one may be getting. One is not supposed to clearly state what the target may contain...only describe what they are picking up and to draw it to the best of their ability.

Well...Things come to me in words...thoughts.  Not sure if I am "hearing" them or just thinking them...sometimes I will actually see the word. When I "get" a word whether it is my imagination or not, I write it down in quotation marks to indicate it is a word I am sensing in some ways. It often feels like a guess so I write that word (or sentence)in the AOL column...other times the words feel  "right" than I write those words around the sketches I am attempting to draw.  

Are these words always matching what the target reveals?  Absolutely not...a lot of times they have nothing to do with the image...but many more times they do. If I had to measure accuracy of my guesses  by counting how many times I got something in terms of a glimpse, a word, a shape, or feeling...right versus how many times I got it wrong...even in some of my worse "guesses"when the picture never matched what I had in my mind...the data right usually outweighs the data wrong or at least some of  the details that I connect together are too specific to ignore. 

Sometimes, even though I have a lot of unmatching or even contrasting information in a guess, something like "arabic writing" will come through and it will be so strong I can't deny it. It will then lead to an AOL like   "arabic woman standing alone"  "in dark clothes". Now I could be piecing stuff I already know together with this vague stuff...the loops I was seeing did look like the q's and f's? of the arabic alphabet ( I didn't consciously think I knew that at the time...but part of me did) What I kept drawing over and over was a connection of these loops...thus "repeated pattern" came to me. Then suddenly "arabic writing" made sense to me. That was clear but at the same time I  doubted myself and put it in the AOL column. So, what do I think of most often when I think of that alphabet...devote Muslims.  What is a symbol of a very devote muslim that comes to my mind? A women in a Burka. Thus "dark clothes"...The woman part also came with the word "ponytail" that popped in my mind  seemingly from nowhere...I couldn't connect it with anything other than the guess"must be a female".  That may be why I saw a female. 

The whole time I was "guessing"...it was all guessing...some of those guesses felt very strong but I still couldn't trust them to be accurate...There is a lot of skepticism and self doubt getting in the way here. So much so taht I never summarize my findings.  Even after I realized that three pictures were pretty well bang on but belonging to different target numbers out of the five, I did doubt.  If I was really doing this, I convinced myself, the pictures would not have been scrambled. Then when I read that this happens sometimes I trusted that I could  just be getting information out of time...I was willing to try to trust the process a little more.  The pics really seemed to match my descriptions.  

But...I told myself this can't be happening....I am just wanting to believe this works. I want to believe in magic. I need to  make sure that I am seeing the matching clearly and objectively! So, I looked again at the picture of a woman standing over a barb wired fence...(the word "prickly" came so clear to me during the practice too)..I found myself ...questioning, "Well how do I know she is arabic? She is not in a burka...as I assumed she would be...sure she is in dark clothing but still...it isn't a burka. (I did not say Burka in the description...the words, "in dark clothing" came to me. My mind just made the assumption it was a burka...but the word "burka" never came to me like "in dark clothing" did )[ This is an interjection 2 days later after writing this: as I was rereading, everyday I come back to my blog, and just as I was getting to this part....this section right here...right at this point, while I was listening to a podcast that had nothing to do with what followed on my phone, all of a sudden a commercial came on..."Mothers in Gaza" and there was a woman in burka talking about her suffering...it came on right at this point...right at this point!!! I am jumping out of my skin but D. is telling me it is just AI somehow syncing with what I am reading...could be, eh? Why does my mind feel relieved, wanting to believe it was just AI, and my heart, at the same time,  feel so disheartened over that possibility? But then my mind questions, " If AI can do this...gather  information from what seems like an infinite data pool in the ether and then sync it with what is happening in "real time"...why can't consciousness?]How do I know she has a ponytail when her head is covered ( as a devote islamic women's head would be)? Am I just assuming that the building she is looking at is a mosque? That style roof  is very similar to Russian orthodox architecture.  Maybe the photo is of a Ukranian women looking into her country during war time? I did very much get the feeling of "war time' when looking at the picture. Come on, how do I know she is arabic...Arabic was the biggest gut feeling I had. I clearly wrote "arabic writing" "arabic woman standing alone" "in dark clothes". "If she isn't arabic, and  if that wasn't a mosque," I told myself. "None of this stuff is  true." 

Even if she wasn't arabic...how coincidental is that to have a woman standing alone in dark clothes looking at something that "could be" a mosque??? Of all the thousand and thousands of pictures in that data bank....this is the pic that came up in the five.

And the man on the moon one...I drew what my mind told me looked like "Earth". I wrote it down and the word space came to me so quickly ..I wrote "space"  ...not in the AOL section but next to my sketch. I also see where  I wrote "distant" "alone"under the, What does this make you feel like? part of sensory data... because that was the feeling I picked up.  Most bizarre, I wrote "rim of orange light to my left of the picture."  Now as I was putting the pieces quickly together in my mind I imagined a man standing on a precipice at high altitude, looking out at  big spacious valley. I wrote "solitary figure standing on rock." as my summary ( though I hate to do summaries because I am so unsure of what I am picking up). Assumed the orange light must be the "sunset", "sunrise". So, I obviously do use imagination ...I am crerating scenes in my mind ...the images rarely seem to match the entire image I have in my mind but they do match the words I write down. There was an obvious rim of orange light in front of the astronaut. 

The sand dune wave and cloud one had a lot of information that would never apply...but my final sketch was of waves under clouds. I also wrote "sand""soft". I was convinced it was water...when I first squibbled the waves. So when I did the dot dot dot sketch...I told myself that must be rain coming from the clouds or sprays of water on the camera lens...but the word "sand" popped into my head and I wrote that down near the sketch.  I told myself it must be the sand on the beach near the water. My mind was stuck on the waves being water...I started with writing "wave-like" but my mind was so convinced it was water, I wrote "water" in the AOL section. It turned out to be big waves of sand dunes under clouds. Hmm!

People often pop in when I am using this data bank of photographs..."Goethe lady in black"   came in this time...I discovered when blurry images  of these people pop in and they don't fit the scenario they could  actually be the photographers that took the pic (well I only gathered evidence of this twice and only once very clearly). When I started testing this a year ago, there was one pic of wild animals I got ...quite succesfully but I kept seeing this man...in his thirties...ginger...standing there, with an open hoodie on...I wrote it down because it  kept popping in and seemed quite clear...it was really interfering with what I was seeing of this wild animal...so I thought I must be wrong or the animal was in  zoo and he must be the zookeeper. So, I just wrote it all down...and when the pic came up...sure enough it was just of this mother leopard washing her baby...no human in the picture. Now the image if this man seemed to belong in this picture somehow so I decided to check the photo for the photographer's name (a lot of these shooters are from National Geographic). I looked him up under images...and the first pic to come up was of a man in his thirties with an open hoody on  and a camera around his neck...ginger. He was a wildlife photographer for National Geographic.  It was not the exact pic I had put together in my mind, but it was close enough for me to say, "WTFrontdoor?"

My mind is still convinced I am just "guessing". Isn't that weird?

I am not sure what this all means and why I am even sharing it. I feel in my quest to understand consciousness as a wanna be yogi, as  a person who loves science, and as a human asking "who am I?", I have to explore this, experiment with it, even if it means sounding like a crazy person to others ( and even to myself), even if it means throwing what I thought I knew into a tither ( it is uncomfortable to shift away from comfortable, familiar paradigms), and even if it proves to be nothing more than woo-woo...I have to at least explore it. Something tells me this possibility- "possible" ability- we all have is something too important to hide away.

The more intention you place on hiding something, the more it shines like a beacon in psychic space.

Pat Price, former Standford Research Institute Remote Viewer

All is well!