Udana jayaj jala panka kantakadisvagana utkrantis ca.
By mastery over the udana nerve current (the upward vital air), one accomplishes levitation over water, swamps, thorns etc, and can leave the body at will.
Yoga Sutras: Book III: 40 ( Sri Swami Satchidananda, 2011, Integral Yoga: Yogaville.)
Say what, Crazy lady?
I am timidly peering around the corner to check the reaction of people to my last entry before coming back out on stage. lol (Well the stage of Life in some form of public view). I shared that I had a very weird experience that could be included as one of the Siddhis.
Siddhis in yoga are simply "accomplishments". When one accomplishes mastery over parts of the body and mind, it is believed that we break down physical world barriers and gain what some might call "supernatural powers". It sounds so weird when I write that.
I do not think I have supernatural powers lol. I just had an experience!! Now as I clutch the curtain to look out to see what the crowd is doing in reaction to my sharing I imagine this conversation going on:
"Did she say she had an 'Out of Body Experience' and some weird dreams about being in another body and trying to save her soul?"
"Yeah, I knew she was a bit off...but that's ridiculous. "
"I know. This yoga stuff is really, really woo-woo isn't it? It is all a bunch of mystical BS. And she isn't even a real yogi...just some western wanna be."
"Crazy! She probably dreamt the whole thing and now thinks she is some highly enlightened and spiritual being! Imagine even sharing that with anyone."
These voices may not be coming from anywhere but my own mind lol but I do hear them. In response I say:
I did have an OBE (a tiny little mini-one) and I did have those dreams. Were they anything more than some persistent dream state or some type of hallucination brought on by eating too close to bed time? I don't know. Does it matter? Whatever they were, they were very real to me. (Well a schizophrenic would say their visions and voices were very real to them too...so that doesn't say much about objective reality, does it?)
It did get pretty woo-woo. The part of yoga that speaks to what happens to our connection with consciousness when we reach samadhi is pretty woo-woo even for me. I am not seeking the Siddhis (supernatural or occult powers)...at all. I am not seeking any accomplishment through samadhi! That is not what I am in this for. Far, far from it. I am merely seeking the "Truth" and the "Peace that surpasses all understanding" through my practice. I did not intend for anything "woo-woo" or "weird" like this to happen. Though it was cool, I really don't want it to happen again either because I am not ready for it. At this point I would accept any plausible scientific explanation to debunk the mystical out of what happened.
And yes, I am more than a little "off" lol and I am not really a yogi. I will call myself a yogi some times because I practice yoga but I also try to remove all such labels from my being...Most importantly, I definitely do not think of myself as enlightened or extra spiritual just because I had this weird experience. I just wanted to mention that I had it and then quickly push it behind me. Sigh!
So...let's forget about it from here on in. This is not what yoga is all about or what I am all about here.
It happened. I shared. It's over.
All is well
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