Growing Beyond What the Mind Has to Say

 

"I have a mind and it says different things at different times." 

Michael A. Singer

Sometimes I am astounded to realize how much growing and expanding I have already done.  It blows me away.  One would probably never guess that this human I call me has done such tremendous growing.  My circumstances certainly do not reflect growth lol...at least not in the way things like the "The Secret" and most Life coaches would measure growth.  I am not manifesting external abundance and blessing. I am struggling.  One could watch me stumble and fall as I make way over all this stuff that has landed in front of me and say..."Wow! She must be stuck and failing to grow." I even find myself saying that to myself sometimes as I watch myself dealing with these challenges.  I do not feel extremely joyful and content with the unfolding of life circumstances either. I conclude, then, that I mustn't be evolving very quickly.

Then all of a sudden I remember the words above. This is just my mind and it is just saying what it is saying.  It is not necessarily the truth! I recognize the absurdity of listening to the mind.  I fall back and gain a different clearer perspective. 

When I create distance and look at how this human I call me handles life now compared to how she used to, I find myself saying, "Man...have I ever grown." My growth is very subtle. Sometimes I do not even see it. Evidence for  my growth might not be what others notice but the objective proof is in how less I react to Life...compared to before.  

It stuns me to pull back and see how this human stays calm and present in situations she would have once gotten all rattled in; how she responds rather than reacts to the pain attacks from others; how open and present she is in the presencce of others who are all caught up in drama, and how "calm" she can remain in the face of outstanding challenges. I also see this never ending free flow of patience, love, and joy energy pouring through in the presence of the grand children...all children actually. She ("me")  can see these amazing innocent little humans forming...she sees that all behaviour stems from somewhere and none of it deserves "reactivity"...she sees how futile and potentially harmful that reactivity is. I "expect" and "demand" so little from others now.  I do not expect other humans to be anything other than what they are, where they are. I don't look to others to fill me up or fix what is broken within me. I stay firm when I need to be but every thing I offer is with this patience, love, empathy, and kindness that I didn't know existed in me. I have this compassion for humanity I never had before.

I see this lack of "attachment" to things this human  was once so attached to: the going ons in the body, the drama of life occurring around, this need to "do", and worry about the future. Infact there is so much less attachment to the future! There is also so much less dwelling on past story. There is this acceptance of the past as being past...and instead of pulling up detail and living in it... all events are so blurry existing only in the background in a peaceful way. I am much more "present." Though I still slip and fall into mind stuff, Iam able to become aware that I am mentally slipping away from presence and I can anchor myself back into the body and the moment so quickly.  There is also such acceptance and reverance for the five realities of Life : aging, illness, change, death, and accountability for actions. I do not seem to "fear" any of it. There is so little concern about what happens to this body or personality. I am committed to using this human to serve in the best way I can.  

There is so much more objective observance than there is this need to get all caught up in drama. I find myself recognizing "drama" and attempting to cut through to that which is important hidden under the drama both in "my own life" or when others express the drama in theirs to me. 

My awareness of and appreciation for the beauty and miraculous nature of Life is ten fold what it was. I, for example,  am so attune, it seems, to every bird song I hear! I stop in my tracks to listen to that or the sound of wind through the trees. I get completely absorbed in the music or the beauty of nature surrounding me.  I want to share that magic with my grandkids and others. 

Oh man...I could go on and on.  I just know that despite what my mind may say at times...yes, I am evolving...big time. Though it doesn't feel "easy" and I am not necessarily "happy" all the time...there definitely is an underlying peace making itself known in my life in a very subtle but real way. Yeah! It is pretty cool. I am manifesting what I desire most! 

I am so appreciative of all the teachers who helped me to get to this point: too many human forms to name but a shout out to Eckhart Tolle, Michael Singer, Thich Nhat Hanh, (so many others), the people in my life (all of them!), and of course Life circumstance for taking me this far. 

All is well.

Michael A. Singer/ Temple of the Universe/ Sounds True ( July, 2025) Releasing the Meaningless Moments that Create the Personal Mind. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aYIipW3pnzg&list=PLyOuAoSmZkKoESr2acNWwhznusbBkKXsT&index=13&t=2s