Removing the Fearful 'Me' So Life Can Blow Through

 

Perhaps Life works better when we stop resisting it.

What if  everything you are going through...every twist , every turn, every so-called mistake  is not random at all?

What if Life isn't happening to you but through you? 

Alan Watts

Hmm! I conceptualize the above statement perfectly.  I believe that Life is just blowing through this "me". I believe that to be true with every ounce of belief making juice I have inside me. It makes perfect sense to my yogic and intellectual mind. More than anything...I WANT to believe it!!

But do I actualize it? Do I "live in this truth"?  Do I have the 'felt experience' of complete non-resistance, trust and openness for Life to just flow through?  Do my external experiences and environment reflect that truth?

Nope! I am still closing.  I am still flinching away with a protective hand up over my face in reaction to  many of  the external events that unfold in front of this human I call "me".  I still feel like I am being punished by life. I am still reacting  and feel a need to protect myself. Who is this 'my self' that I am trying to protect?

'My'is a posessive pronoun used to explain something that belongs to 'me'. Then there is 'self' with a little 's' referring to the ego/ the psyche/ the personality/ the seperate mind/body entity. As long as that is there with its its white knuckled fists pulling the door shut...how are we, as Self,  going to let Life just pour through us? The attention on 'myself' keeps us stuck in this notion that life is happening to us. 

How then do we get this fearful, traumatized 'me' to step back away from the door. Do we yell at it and yank it away?   Of course, not.  That will only scare it, traumatize it farther and make it resist even more.We squat down to its level like we would do with a child; gentlyexplain what is happening in terms it understands; remind it that we will all be better off if we keep the door open so Life can just blow through becasue that is Life's mission and our mission is to allow it to; and then make it excited by saying, "We get to watch the parade! It will be so awesome and cool!" Then we gently take the now relaxed, calm, and willing child out of the way so Life can happen through us.

Sigh! 

All is well.