Looking Deeply at Debbie Downer and Negative Nellie

Dig deep within yourself, for there is a fountain of goodness ever ready to flow if you will keep digging.

Marcus Aurelius

Wow! It seems like I downloaded some very personal and unpleasant truths yesterday when I had a good look at the veil that keeps us from experiencing what we are here to experience.  It was a bit of a turn-off for me so it was more than likely a "turn off" for many. You probs didn't want to hear that from me or anyone else. "Debbie Downer [stealing the character from SNL] and Negative Nellie" are not welcome guests at many tea parties. This type of negativity usually is something we want to avoid on our spiritual mission.  This part of the excavation process may be very disappointing...but it is also a neccessary part we have to dig through to get to the hidden truth within. 

Imagine knowing a life changing treasure is hidden in the earth.  You have studied every map...solved every clue and know for sure that the x in front of you marks the spot. You have been digging and digging, sweating and going without as you dig. It is exhausting, bone crunching work but you know that what is in the earth is the most valuable thing you could ever possess. You are committed to getting to it.  Up to this point you had to dig through topsoil, shale, rocks ...you have gone through many layers of what you thought was the "deep" stuff  and suddenly your shovel connects with something that might just be the top of a treasure chest.  It is even shining like gold as the sunlight hits it. You are so excited!!! "I am there! I am at the core!!" 

Everyone around you is telling you that this is it...you are reaching the truth of who you are.  So, you keep digging only to find that it isn't a chest but another heavy layer os shale ...thick and crusty. More digging required. After the shovel is down, you scrape off the dust and there and behold...the skeleton of 2 people emerge...exactly your frame and size. Sitting up and rattling the remains of dust and dirt from their bones ...Negative Nellie and Debbie Downer introduce themselves and right away start their spiel, talking in unison for stereo effect, 

"Thank God!!!...We can finally get out of this hole.  We have been down here for so long trying to get your attention but you kept burying us with layer after layer of dirt and thought and idea nonsense "....  Debbie spits out a few pebbles and maybe an earthworm from her fleshless mouth. 

"Sure...you were hearing us...how could you not... but not as clearly as we needed you to. We needed to be free to have a real heart to heart (well maybe heart to sternum)...talk with you. But...you didn't want to deal with us...because we are "sooo annoying and negative" and you wanted nothing to do with that on your  fancy, woo-woo  mission to enlightenment. la-de-dah. " 

Nellie picks up her arm that somehow got disconnected from her shoulder and tries to put it back into the socket .

"We cannot help but be negative after all the crap you stuffed down here with us. Come on Man, Give us a bloody break!! Yeah, we aren't as pretty as the fancy treasure buried beneath us but did you have to bury us alive? Really? That is why we have been screaming at you through all the layers you put on top.  We were not going to completely dissolve because of all your positive thinking crap! Bone doesn't go away that easy!  Where do you think the expression , 'skeletons in the closet came from...duh!' 

Anyway, after a little chit chat we will gladly crawl up out of this hole and out of your life so you can get to the fancy treasure you covered up....Yep! you, my friend, are the one that covered it up.... nothing else and no one else. And we are just casualities of the process. 

You have to deal with us first, though! So, are you ready to have  a good look at what you buried and talk with us? "

And as you are looking at these two rattling skeletons, you notice the light from beneath them shining through.

Okay, my imagination kicked in lol...Anyway, I did see a bit of the light that is within us all, the treasure we dig for in our awakening process, during that little episode at the grocery store. I wasn't, however, expecting to have to deal with  Debbie and Nellie lol.  

I realize how important it is to get to those core beliefs inside us which unfortunately are often negative downers...No matter how we hide these core beleifs, no matter what we bury them with (and I don't care how much positive thinking or positive affirming you may do)..they don't go away.  They will haunt us until we look deeply into them and set them free. 

So, that is why I had a good look at them in writing last entry.  I am sure I am not the only one with a Debbie or a Nellie in their closet, am I? 

Anyway...something to think about.

All is well.