You Have an Ego. Handle it!

 Can you learn  to accept reality? Can you handle that you have an ego instead of being your ego?...Start watching it instead of being it.  

"I am in here and I notice I have an ego."

Stop saying [to the ego], "The only way I am okay is when you are okay. "

Letting go and surrender are things you do inside. 

Michael Singer

Hmm! Something to think about. 

Can I handle that I have an ego? 

I am working on handling and dealing.

Can I watch it instead of being it?  

Yes, I think so. I have been watching my ego a lot lately.  I watch it when it feels all vulnerable and threatened, convinced that this 'me' just isn't enough. I watch it telling 'this me' we have to do something to fix ourselves, or fix and control what is out there so it feels better.  I watch it striving to attain ego boosting things like a certain degree of education or qualifications that others can recognize...or measurable outcomes that others can validate as worthy (a book related to what I do or other writings that others might say, "Oh, isn't that good". etc when they read it.)). I watch how it uses words and changes the use of those words in different situations, a bit too careful about how the words will make this "me" look :  when it  tries to redeem itself or create an image of intelligence for some, it uses bigger and fancier words ...when it wants to appear "more relatable" it dumbs down.  (That really surprised me when I noticed that in myself recently. Yuck!)  I watch how it responds to and treats others when it feels like it is getting its needs met: so warm, and open, and loving,  And I watch how it closes down, gets snappy, and cold sometimes when it doesn't get its needs met.  Over the last two days I have been watching how it gets all caught up in itself when it faces certain challenges like intense physical pain. It still can, after all my practice, get all caught up in the lie, "It's all about me."

I observe and am shocked when I see my ego at work and notice how it is still so prevalent in my life.  I often compare myself and my ego to others and wonder. "Is my ego bigger than theirs?" I see the American Idol contestants stepping back to let others shine, even if it means that it might cost them their place in a competition, and I wonder, "Would my ego step back in such a situation?" I see people remaining polite, curteous, and kind to others, even strangers , when they have been put through some gruesome situations and I ask: "Would I be thoughtful enough to say "thank you" if that were me in that situation?"

Can I let go and surrender? 

So, I look at my ego sometimes and I say, "You are a nasty little dude, aren't ya?"  I try to push him (yes I masculinize the ego...no offense lol) down away from my conscious awareness before catching myself, "Nah...I can't stuff or store anymore in there." I sigh and ask instead: 

"How are you and I going to get along?" 

To begin, you can't run around incognito anymore pretending to be speaking for or representing the higher part of this Self, cuz you aren't? You are the back end of the horse bud!

Next, I have to stop saying, "The only way I will be okay is if you are okay."  That I know now, isn't true.  I do not need to listen to you.  You are, afterall, never going to be okay. You are a bit neurotic and you don't always make sense. It is a very mixed up agenda you have set for us. I can be okay even if you are not okay!

Then I have to stop resisting you.  I have to stop being repulsed by you.  I have to stop reacting by trying to push you back down in the closet whenever I notice you or catch you doing something, pretending like you don't exist. You do exist and I need to notice you...keep an eye on you. Otherwise , you will make a complete mess of this house.

Finally, I have to stop beating you up. You are a part of me and you mean well. Some people would refer to you as the "Protective Personality". You do want to protect this body and mind, you are just a bit mixed up on how to do it. That's all. I need to see your good intentions as I take the reins of this chariot we have been riding on, away from you and give them to the higher Self.  Instead of you educating and directing me...maybe we have to let the "I am" in us do the directing.  What do you think? Well, it doesn't matter what you think does it?

Anyway, bud...looks like we have to let the "I am" take over. 

All is well. 

Michael A. Singer/Temple of the Universe/ Sounds True ( April 8, 2025) You are not your thoughts:From mental noise to inner peace. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wP56tHfI0PA&list=PLyOuAoSmZkKoESr2acNWwhznusbBkKXsT&index=1