Okay with the Human Mess

 Cleansing,

feeling,

healing,

and touching

what is-  [the Shakti under the blockages and the suchness of Life, and Love]-

through opening 

The new mantra created and used by this human I call "me" 

I think "okayness" is a state of being that is highly underrated.

What is okayness?  I believe it to be a state where one is open enough to allow Life to flow through without resistance. 

I am, as I have said many times, on a mission to cleanse and open to Shakti and the suchness of Life.  I am seeking the unconditional love that I know is within me, under all the blockages I have created over the years.  At this stage of the process, I am seeking to be okay with what is.  Being okay with what is involves a process of cleansing (out the blockages), feeling and experiencing what is there, healing by allowing it all to just be what it is,  honoring the process, and letting it all flow through the opening that emerges when we do this. Shakti will then be free to flow through.  When shakti flows, love will flow. 

I am very content, at this point of my journey, to be able to just touch this shakti...to get glimpses of it.  I know the ultimate outcomes of such a practice can be blissful enlightenment when shakti flows completely free.  I am not so attached to that outcome, though.  I accept that I may never get there in this life time. I am content with momentary touches of peace, and love that come with this state of "okayness with what is".  I am so, so grateful that I am getting those touches and glimpses, that I am feeling okayness. I can see how I am feeling more and more okay with the human mess and I see that as true progress. :) 

Does that mean that Life is no longer difficult? No. 

As it is for many, it is still messy right now for this human I call "me".  It has been messy and chaotic for a long, long time. I am finally finding a certain "okayness" with that. I am resisting, less and less, what Life offers me and am beginning to accept and honor it all. I know that the work that needs to be done has to take place within me.  It is my job to cleanse myself and to free shakti. It is my job to open to love. This healing, this love is not the responsibility of anyone else nor will it be found "out there". The world didn't break what is apparently broken in "me", and the world cannot fix it.  Only an inner practice will do that. :)  

The above mantra is something I use often in my meditation practice now. I realize, however, that the majority of this practice takes place off the cushion or mat  and in real life activities. As the title of this blog site suggests, we wake up in a busy world. Yet, in this busy world we need to stop and be still often.  So I take 20 minutes to an hour every morning and evening to sit in stillness and check in with what is going on within me. I watch whatever is there...I feel it...I asked to be healed from it...I observe the resistance and I will myself to be okay with that.   I embrace it, I talk to it, I listen to it ( without getting too caught up in its story). I allow it to stay before I allow it to go. Then I check in with whatever is hiding below the resistance and do the same with that.  I do my best to be okay with whatever shows up. 

Because of my practice both on and off the cushion, I recognize and accept discomfort, more and more.  In order to tap into the "felt experience" that is awareness, I need to detach from the story that used to carry me and keep me away from the felt experience. It requires getting out of our head and down into the actual experiencing. 

If you can let the discomfort make it through you than you do not need to know what put it there.

When you learn to handle situations that are uncomfortable you will start to feel shakti.

(May be somewhat paraphrased)

I have had the living experience lately of taking care of my three year old grandson for the week.  There was no time to be in my head. I felt my heart open...so very open during our time together.  I felt myself more present and in the moment than I have been for a long time.  I felt that experience of love!! 

I also had the opportunity to be with my other two grandchildren, more than I have been able to be since the situation changed.  It was lovely.  We played and laughed. I listened and watched them experience Life. 

I also felt at the verge of crying in many of those moments. Why? Because being around these innocent, yet very wise three and four year old beings opened me.  It opened me to the moment; it opened me to the  awe-filled experience of Life; it opened me to love. It opened me enough for shakti to begin to push up against my blockages.  I felt(and feel) some long stored stuff emerging into conscious awareness...I am feeling that too. 

And I am okay with it all! 

My grandson went home yesterday after 9 days with Nana...and though my body was saying, "Thank God!" my heart was both saddened by a sense of loss his absence is now creating and at the same time grateful for the opening into okayness that deepened in me. I love the experience of being open!

Hmm!  How I ramble, eh? :)

Anyway, I hope that you too are experiencing such openings in yourself...and are able to touch any shakti that is being released...even if it is only in trickles (as is my case most times). 

The human experience is all so beautiful, even when it is messy.

May you and all beings be well.  May you and all beings be open and free to touch the flow of shakti within you.

All is well!

Michael A. Singer/ Temple of the Universe/ Sounds True ( March, 2025) Love is Not Found, It's Freed. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=onE0QdRwSak&list=PLyOuAoSmZkKoESr2acNWwhznusbBkKXsT&index=4