Doing Something about "it" Peacefully

I said 'somebody should  do something about that'...then I realized I am that somebody.
Lily Tomlin

My daughter walked by my desk when I posted those pics of the cat and dog the other day.  She noted that I was  jokingly referring to it as "animal cruelty" and pointed out that I "shouldn't be making fun of that." She was concerned that I might offend all the animal activists in the world who work so hard to save the lives of so many beings on this planet. I didn't know how to respond at the time so I just nodded my head and said, "duly noted."

Now I can respond:

It was never my intention to offend.

I appreciate all the passion, motivation and inspiration the animal activists offer as they do all they do for the betterment of all beings on this planet. I respect their position. I am grateful that they care so much!!!

I am aware

I accept and fully realize the suffering that many animals are enduring at the hands of mankind. I do not have my head in the sand.  I do not close my eyes and pretend it isn't happening.  I am aware. I just have a different approach than others to the suffering that happens around me.

I do not fight it

I stay aware...yes...but I  do not fill my head with it.  I do not "fight" it.  I try not to allow myself to be consumed with anger over the injustice or to blame and hate those who inflict such cruelty.  I do not "resist it". 

I truly believe that what we resist persists. And the more I am "overwhelmed" by the suffering in this world...I fear the more suffering there will be.

 
I attempt to seek a peace  filled world through peace

I strongly believe if I focus more on being peaceful, the world will become more peaceful; the more I focus on being kind, others will be kinder; the more I focus on being joyful and happy...the more happy and joyful the world will be...the less suffering, there will be.  If we want to make an everlasting change in the world...we need to make a change in our own inner worlds by eliminating the toxic emotions like anger, rage, resentment, despair, helplessness, and revenge.

I focus on  the deed, not the doer

I believe it is the deed that is unjust, and it is those deeds I want to focus on changing.   I do want animal cruelty to stop.

"There anin't no sin and there anin't no virtue.  Just stuff people do." (Casy, from Steinbeck's Grapes of Wrath)


I forgive

I believe those who inflict pain on other beings are often unaware of the pain they inflict.  If they are aware they are lost in their own pain.  I also see myself in all other beings on this planet.  I cause pain too...in some way...so how can I judge or condemn others that do so.

The most healing thing to do is to forgive.


I take inspired and peaceful action.

The action I take may be small scale but I believe it makes a difference.  I support the SPCA. I am not actively saving a species but  I have six rescued pets that I love and take care of. I love all animals and make it a point to love and appreciate nature.  Even my shooting animals ( with my camera lol) allows me to capture and share their preciousness and their beauty.  In some small meager way that may inspire someone to care as well.

I try to use ease and lightness in my everyday approach.

I attempt to find lightness and laughter in everything for I believe that will help the world more than my intensity, my anger and my need to do ever will.

For example, I cannot help but to chuckle  a little when I see this:

 

Even though the circumstances that lead to that cone were very sad.  Yesterday she stepped into a trap set for a much smaller animal whose fur is valued as a means to make money.  She suffered two large down to the bone lacerations requiring several sutures. I am now fully aware of what happens to those smaller animals and it deeply saddens me. 

 

Yet, I know for a fact... Roxy does not waste a moment of her here and now resenting the trapper who set the trap.  She is past all that.  She is more focused on being all she can be now. She is focused on healing her own wounds.

 

I do not agree with trapping.  I do not agree with our human ego's quest for material gain through the suffering of other sentient beings.

 

I still believe on focusing my energies  on what I want to see in the world rather than what exists.  I believe I need to heal my own wounds first.  Anger, resentment and  a need for vengeance of any kind are wounds that need healing.

 

Kindness, Lightness of spirit and joy are things that heal.

 

All is well in my world. 

Recognizing and Remembering

All your difficulties stem from the fact that you do not recognize yourself, your brother or God.  To recognize means to "know again," implying that you knew before.
ACIM. Chapter 3: III:1:1-2


I want to clear up some confusion when I speak of  "remembering who I really am and from Whom I came."  I know I say that often and I understand it may be confusing and unsettling to those that hear it. You may question if I am "completely off my rocker" or  suffering some late stage dementia symptoms.  In a sense I am. And so are you.

Say what crazy lady?

Dementia?

 Well...I suffer and am attempting to recover from a different type of dementia that inflicts so many of us once ego steps in to our lives to make its noise.  Once that happens we may not hear the voice of truth that lay beneath it. We may be confused by the chaos. We may begin to believe what ego tells us and think we are something we are not, that the people around us are strangers and we may  wander  farther and farther away from home. We may not recognize the familiar, all we knew before even when it is where it has always been. We will, then, have dementia of the spiritual kind.

Not being able to recognize the world around us causes a great deal of fear, does it not?  Most of us do not see what is real.

I worked with patients who had Alzheimer's and other forms of dementia and though they were sometimes comfortable in their distorted realities...there were many more times when they were terrified. It was heartbreaking to watch them  desperately fight to get through the security doors so they could "go home," to what they knew before.

We all do as they do, on some subconscious level. We struggle to find the familiar, to go home to where we belong. This world of chaos we create in our minds is not where we belong.

Healing

Healing is simply remembering who we are and from Whom we came. "When you heal, you are remembering the laws of God and forgetting the  laws of the ego."  ACIM Chapter 7: 2:6

I want to know the laws of God  again.  I am at the point in my life where I realize that I do not recognize and remember the way I should. I am banging on those doors looking for my way out of this world I created in my head. Something tells me over the ego noise that home is not all that is around me...it is in me.  The doors I want to open, where I know the truth exists, lead inward.  I want to go there.  I want to understand.

If I  looked in the mirror and suddenly heard myself saying, "Oh!  There you are!"...and seen in those eyes staring back at me, the One who created me and Who has never left me...I would "Know again" that which I always knew. All my difficulties would disappear, would they not? I would once again know Love.  And in Love there can be no fear and without fear, there is no suffering.  

Home is the end of fear.  Home is the end of our difficulties.  No wonder why we desperately want to go home even if we are not fully aware of that longing. We want to "know again," what we knew before. Remembering is healing.

So What did we know before?

Hmmm! I don't know. 

I cannot give you a wordy explanation that will answer all that.  I am not sure anyone can.   Even if I did know, I don't think I could put it into words, like so many of us feel we need to do with explanations of heaven and hell, other lifetimes, other dimensions, or other planetary degrees.

 I cannot describe it or give directions because I do not know exactly where we came from. I don't know. I know what I was taught and conditioned to believe but I don't know on the conscious level!

 I  think what we knew/what we know...whatever that may be...  is beyond word constructs and thoughts???  It is beyond the way we understand things in this form.  I believe it can only be known and expressed through feeling, vibration and pure consciousness.   I believe with all my heart... for reasons I cannot even explain...that what we knew/what we know...in ourselves, our brothers and this One source of all Creation that I call God...is Love...pure , uncontaminated, unconditional  Love.  That is all I got for you.

When I say I am remembering...I am simply tapping into that Love somehow...getting glimpses of it from time to time...and they are only glimpses. I will hear something.  I will read something.  I will see something and experience something and it is like remembering the face of a loved one in the midst of a demented fugue.  It clicks!  It resonates.  It feels so good and I find myself saying, "Oh!  Yeah!  That's it!"

I also  believe whatever it is we knew/know...is right now and right here. ...where it always was and where it will always be. We just need to recognize it and remember. Something tells me in a very strong and compelling way, that we do not need to die to do that.  We just need to slow down, breathe and go inward for just a few minutes  a day.  We need to seek that face in the proverbial mirror of our soul.

Well I have a sense I didn't make that any clearer for anyone lol.

A Course in Miracles

For those who want to know more about remembering this Love, I would recommend A Course in Miracles.  It uses a Christian basis to make sense of our remembering who we are and from Whom we came but it is definitely not the fundamentals of heaven and hell Christianity  I was brought up on.   The teachings  resonated with me as they may or may not with you. 

If the course is too daunting for you, try reading Marianne Williamson's Return to Love which is a lovely and gentle introduction to the teachings.

I guess...what I have come to see over the course of my searching is that it is okay to go beyond what we were brought up to believe in search for what we do believe...to what we knew before.

All is well.

References.

ACIM ( 2007).  A Course in Miracles: Combined  Volume. Mill Valley; Foundations for Inner Peace.

Williamson, Marianne ( 1992) Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles.  New York: Harper Collins

Animal Cruelty

Mankind is not the only animal that laughs, cries, thinks, feels and loves.
Douglas Williams

 

"You may be amused.  But I certainly am not!!!"

 

Oh the things we do to our animals for amusement purposes. lol

 

Please know that no animals were harmed in the taking of these shots...just their dignity.

 

 

"You give me the ball; tell me I'm a good girl and then you put me in this?  Cruel... not cool!"

We are all apprentices in a craft where no one ever becomes the master. 
Ernest Hemingway

Working on editing my book for the ??? time...it is all good.  I learned so much from writing it and I am sure some could learn from reading it. I watched this free video seminar on book publishing from Hay House the other day ( I can not link it).  In the video Dr. Deepak Chopra spoke about what was needed for a successful book.  Loosely paraphrased, this is the information he offered:

1. You need to be passionate about what you are writing (Check!)
2. You need to know your stuff (Check!)
3. You need to have a unique way of expressing that information (Check!)
4. You need to have relatable stories within it (Check!)
5. You need to know that every good story is a love story of some kind ( not a romance novel but a "Love" story.(  (Check! That works for me because there  is Love in my title.)
6. You need to follow a story arc: a problem that needs to be solved, barriers/conflict and resolution.(Check!)

I got all that!  Yeah!  So now to get some one to publish it lol.

It is all good!

References

Hay House (2017) I can't get back in to get the name of the webinar but it was with Reid Tracy...part one of the series when you accept offer for a free "Quick Start Publishing guide"

It's all right!

My happiness and my function are one.
Lesson 66 ACIM

Okay...I am going to talk a little bit about serendipity and purpose. 

I have been playing and thinking about Tom Petty  for weeks.  And I am not one to play a lot of music. Nor do I tend to be star struck and obsessive about musicians but for some reason I was thinking about Tom Petty an awful lot lately.

Now don't get me wrong...I love his music.   I often have my Sirius set at the Tom Petty's station for nostalgic reasons. (As a fitness instructor back in the day, I led an aerobics class and I filled my tapes with the heartbreakers' and the Travelling Wilburys' music.  It always uplifted me so I could uplift others.)

One day, about two weeks ago, I heard a Travelling Wilbury's song  and it stuck in my head.
So  I go around the house repeating the chorus of this song for days.

Then I come across the  George Harrison documentary on Netflix last week and he, of course, was a Wilbury. In the doc they showed them producing this song.

They also show clips from an interview with  Tom Petty as he  explained how the Wilburys began.

So I am even more in tune to the music  after watching that.  I find myself cranking up my radio as the songs come on all stations, it seems, over and over again.

Before I leave for Toronto I have this great inclination to find some of Petty's lyrics and use them for my entry.  I used Wildflowers  because it seemed to fit with where I was at. 

Even in TO I had a conversation with someone about how much I liked Tom Petty.  ( I usually do not talk about musicians to others).  I mentioned how I envied the fact that he was a man who knew happiness when he was doing what he loved to do, when he was following his purpose. He in a sense did not only inspire me to inspire others in the aerobic classes I led but he also inspired me to write.  I seen this young man from a small town in Florida do what he loved to do and though stardom is not the perfect life by any means...one could tell by watching him perform and by his lyrics he was happiest simply doing what he was here to do. 

I realized that when I want to write...I often turn his music on.

Then sadly... I find out yesterday that he passed. 

What I kept hearing and reading was : Petty died at 66. I kept saying to myself 66?  66? 

This morning I wake up  and amongst the thoughts that popped into my head I am thinking about Tom Petty dying at 66. 

So I go to open up the ACIM text to a random page, as I sometimes do, for a few words to inspire me and set me off for the day...I am "coincidently" thinking about Tom Petty dying at the age of 66
 as the book opens.

Without any conscious intention, I open it up to the above lesson...lesson 66.

And I knew as I sat there looking down at the page that I was experiencing serendipity. What was the lesson about?  The connection between purpose and happiness.

There has to be something to learn from that, doesn't there?  There has to be something to learn from Petty's life and music, his being on purpose?

There has to be something to learn from serendipity? Maybe all this is more than just a series of kooky and not so kooky coincidences that people like me make too much of?  Maybe all these little events that happen in life are leading us somewhere ?  Maybe I was meant to open up to that page because of the wisdom in it?

Maybe we are all meant to follow our bliss as Campbell said and Petty did...that is where we will find our purpose?  I know yesterday after hearing the news I was inspired to get back to some books I had written to re-edit them  for submission again.

There is something to learn from these lyrics that were written by a serendipitous meeting of musicians who formed a band serendipitously all because they  found their happiness simply  making music? That music is used by others for the same reason.

Well it's all right, even if you're old and gray
Well it's all right, you still got something to say
Well it's all right, remember to live and let live
Well it's all right, the best you can do is forgive

retrieved from https://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/travelingwilburys/endoftheline.html

It's all good...heck..."it's all right!"

I'm gonna free fall out into nothin

Gonna leave this world for a while

-Tom Petty- Freefallin



Rest in Peace Tom Petty.

I absolutely loved his music.

What We Can Learn from "Strangers"

I have always depended on the kindness of strangers.
Tennessee Williams

Wow!  What we learn from so called "strangers." (Isn't "stranger" an awful word, btw? As if the individuals around us, whose personalities we have yet to become familiar with, are "strange." Aren't we all the same under our outward appearances and ego dominated personas?  Aren't we all One?  How can we be strangers then?)

Anyway, On the way home I happened to be seated by a lovely woman who was moving to the province from BC and I feel like the angels above did the seating arrangement for that flight that evening.  I couldn't rearrange my seat to sit by D. because the plane was pretty much full and disappointedly I plunked myself down in an aisle seat, next to a woman who I would soon discover had a wealth of valuable knowledge to share...knowledge actually that I needed in my attempt to cope with my health issues more naturally.

I am not sure how much I was able to offer her but this is what I gained from our two hour conversation:

• Cayenne pepper is just as effective as nitroglycerine and much less toxic...in relieving angina.  It is a vasodilator as well and can be taken under the tongue or in a glass of warm water. (http://www.nutralegacy.com/blog/general-healthcare/5-cardiovascular-benefits-of-cayenne-pepper/; http://www.naturallyproven.com/cayenne-pepper-top-15-health-benefits/)
• Lugol's Iodine is an estrogen stabilizer and will help with fibrocystic breasts, menstrual irregularities, ovarian cysts and plain old menopause. (http://alternativa-za-vas.com/en/index.php/clanak/article/lugols-solution; http://druglessdoctor.com/article/ladies-do-you-have-hot-flashes-2/)
• Pink salt ( Himalayan salt... which I recently started using because someone told me it was good for you) offers the perfect combination of iodine and other much needed minerals for the body without upsetting the sodium balance as much as white salt will. (https://draxe.com/pink-himalayan-salt/)
• Dairy is not meant to be consumed by humans.  (I knew that but thought I would include it here as a "review" :)) The only milk we were meant to consume is our mother's milk and only in infancy.  Cows, themselves, only drink from their mothers as calves. Why then are we encouraged to consume dairy products throughout our lives? (http://drhyman.com/blog/2010/06/24/dairy-6-reasons-you-should-avoid-it-at-all-costs-2/)
• Dairy is a mucous producer and should not be consumed when one has a cold or respiratory infection.  It will make the congestion worse.  (I knew that as well but read the literature that disputed this as a myth...it was time to read the literature again).  If it is producing mucous that is a sign that the body needs to protect itself from it. (https://nutritionfacts.org/video/is-milk-and-mucus-a-myth/)
• Turmeric, though nasty tasting, is excellent remedy for a sore throat.(http://www.thehealthsite.com/diseases-conditions/try-turmeric-for-quick-relief-from-a-sore-throat/)
• Peppermint oil ( the ingestible kind) has a host of wonderful healing properties including being an immune system booster.  It is not irritating to the GI tract. (https://www.organicfacts.net/health-benefits/essential-oils/health-benefits-of-peppermint-oil.html)
• Garlic also boosts the immune system as well as improve cardiac health.  Many of you may already be aware of that. (https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/11-proven-health-benefits-of-garlic#section7)
•  A cold/hot shower can boost energy and immune functioning.  By doing seven short intervals of adjusting the tap between hot and cold while showering, we can stimulate blood  and lymph flow.(http://healingthebody.ca/health-benefits-of-hot-and-cold-hydrotherapy-showers/#gs.hU9Jvto)

She shared so much more with me ...too much for me to remember all of it.  I was blown away by her knowledge of the healing techniques of so many ingenious people through out  the world. She explained things in  a way that left no doubt that she knew what she was talking about but for the purpose of "evidence" here...I will include sites where more information can be found to support the knowledge that poured from her head so easily.

The uncanny thing was...I never mentioned any of my ailments (of course) but she touched on remedies for all of them.  I just found myself completely absorbed in the information she was sharing. It was truly serendipitous.

The greatest thing I learned through our encounter, though, was that there are some truly "real" people out there.  I watched how she spoke to me and the others around her.  There was no pretentiousness, no cockiness ...just sincere kindness.  She was vegan and dressed the part so authentically without an ounce of animal product on her or around her.  (Well except for my leather sandals and purse that I tried to hide unsuccessfully underneath the seat in front of me lol).  She was the real deal.

I am grateful I met her. I wish her all the best in the new life she is establishing as a Maritimer.

All is well!

Just a quick note before heading off to bed.  I'm back!!! ( Obviously lol).  I want to make it clear that I am by no means judging city life in anyway except knowing it isn't for me. I think if you like excitement, adventure, and the fast life... Toronto is the place to be.  I just cannot seem to get used to it......and in all honesty...I never gave it a fair shot.  I went on an "extended vacation" once when I was in my 20's, with the intention of looking for work but I knew then...it wasn't for me so I went home after about a month. 

I drive in the vehicles of excellent drivers when I am there and feel very confident in their skill and ability but just think that I won't be doing that in this life time. lol . No matter how I want to confront my phobias...driving through TO on the expressway...is not something I intend to do anytime soon. My problem...no one else's.

Not putting down the city or the inhabitants in my previous entry...just mentioning just how un-city like I am. :) I had a very nice weekend...met some wonderful people and spent time with "family."  So it was great!  If I would have felt better...I am sure I would have been ripping and soaring with the best of them lol. 

All is well!

You Know You are a Hick when...

I say half your life is spent trying to get out of a small town, and the other half trying to get back to one.
Unknown


You know you are a hick when...when  airport security asks you to stand on the red line you turn your back to them and lift your arms in preparation for the frisk you see on TV shows... only to have them  tell you to turn around and go through the archway like a "normal person".

You know you are a hick when...you can read the airline  magazine twice because it so " interesting".

You know you are a hick when...you get excited over the "cute little" package of cookies or pretzels the  airline offers you for a snack.

You know you are a hick when...you can't get your head around the fact that you are suspended miles and miles in the air...when only a little over a 100 years ago the idea of flying was deemed "impossible."

You know you are a hick when...you wore hard to walk in flip flops because you assume you will be able to  step into Pearson airport off the plane and walk right out the door to a waiting taxi cab.

You know you are a hick when...you are prevented from crossing lanes of traffic to go into an unmarked vehicle  that is hailing "Come!  Taxi!" from half a kilometer away from where the taxi line up is .

You know you are a hick when...some kind soul pulls you away from the oncoming traffic that you assumed would be courteous and super aware of new to the city  pedestrians as you walk into it.

You know you are a hick when...you believe that "only minutes away from the airport"  is like five or ten minutes away, not a 50 minute taxi drive.

You know you are a hick when... only five minutes into the city you are looking above the massive buildings to the sky and are saddened by the fact that you cannot find one single star in it.  The lights around you are not the lights that impress you.

You know you are a hick when...you instantly drop your bags in the middle of the  lobby  of the Hilton and look up completely amazed by the architecture and size of the building, as well as  the ten floor glass elevator.  You are even more amazed at the more "cool" people who are now  staring at you because you are amazed.

You know you are a hick when...you sit in a crowded bar for 30 minutes, wanting nothing more than a sandwich,  only to be completely ignored as all the "more cool"  people around you get waited on and served.

You know you are a hick when...you have to jump on the bed in the hotel room to test it out.

You know you are a hick when...you long for the sound of cicadas and peepers in the middle of the night so you can sleep.

You know you are a hick when.... you travel down the 401 or the 407.  (I need not say more....only that you know if it was you behind the wheel, you would have your eyes closed and your foot on the brake the whole time.)

You know you are a hick when... you ask people how  they can stand being in a car for up to six hours a day and they just look at you like you are crazy, "Well...you got to do what you got to do.  You get used to it."  You know you never could nor would you want to.

You know you are a hick when...you wonder where all the  people in the city are going and why because  after they reach their destination they just seem to spend the time planning the way back.

You know you are a hick when...you feel like you were the one who got married as you walk away from the wedding reception with a beautiful bouquet of flowers that was once the centerpiece on one of the many elaborately decorated tables, bottles of complementary wine, boxes of sweets,...all this after eating a magnificent three course meal that was to die for.  ("What did I have at my wedding?"  you may find yourself asking as the shoulders come up around the ears. "Oh, now I remember...I couldn't even afford wine for everyone so I gave them juice." Oh the shame of comparison.lol)

You know you are a hick when...your limited exposure to different languages and cultures becomes so obvious as you strain to listen to the wonderful varied tongues all around you and shamefully catch yourself staring at the beautiful faces and wardrobes   that look so different than your own.

You know you are a hick when...with butterflies in your belly, you want to see it all and experience it all while you are here and get disappointed when you know you can't do "everything" in three days!

You know you are a hick when...despite all the excitement, you still find yourself longing for the small streets, back yards that go for acres, skies that twinkle with stars at night and the friendly simplicity of life in a small coastal city.

You know you are a hick when...you hear the wheels of the airplane touching down on the runway of a much smaller airport,( one suited for flip flop wearing gals like myself) and you sigh with deepest appreciation, "Ah!  I'm home!"

You know you are a hick when...

Time to Get Goin'

Going on a road trip.  Need about four outfits.  I've packed 35 just to be safe.
Unknown

Rainy day and it is somehow very comforting. 

I wanted to let you know, I won't be here for a few days.  Heading off to a wedding in TO after work today,  which I am excited about but just wish I felt a tad bit better.  Oh well...it is still all good.

There will therefor be no posts for a few days but that doesn't mean I won't be writing them . :) Writing is not something I do...it is something I am.  So I will be writing somewhere and somehow just like I'll be eating, sleeping and breathing lol. I need to be, don't I? I guess that also means I have to bring my camera...oh, oh "Watch out, all you photo shy creatures on my path."

Until we meet again...have a wonderful weekend!  :)

What lies ahead I have no way of knowin'

but under my feet grass is growin'...

It's time to move on. 

It's time to get goin.'

Tom Petty

 

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J4CZSnKFxJE

(If I am doing anything that diminishes the artist's rights by linking these videos I hope I am informed by someone soon...for that is definitely not my intention. It's just such a great song.)



There is a time for many words, and there is also a time for sleep.
Homer

I know what I am doing when I get home....zzzzzzzz.

The neurons in my gray matter are not firing very quickly this morning lol so I will make this quick. 

"Oh good!  Another quickie!"

If you are anything like my kids or my students you will appreciate the lack of wordage from an otherwise very wordy person.  Consider it a break.

But only a break.  I still have lots of words rumbling and tumbling inside me, anxious to do their somersaults and cart wheels  out onto the page.  They will make their debut...but today...a less than happy body and a sleep deprived mind are calling the shots!

No matter how many times I tell myself I am going to embrace the sleep paralysis when it occurs so I can see what it is really all about...the fear gets the best of me and prevents a good night sleep after an episode  in case it happens again.   Next time...I will get to the bottom of this lol.

Anyway, have a wonderful day!

Sleep Paralysis

Won't write much today. Not feeling 100% . 

On top of that I had an episode of sleep paralysis early this morning that always leaves me a little off.  I get them often and have been since I was a child.  Sometimes they are absolutely terrifying and other times I am more curious than anything.  Regardless, I know in each of them I need to roll over and wake up or else....!!

I always  have this extreme battle to "wake up".  I mentally fight because I cannot physically fight or move anything but my eyeballs  to wake up away from the pressure on my chest.  Anyway...I will get into that at another time. 

For now...just know that though this particular episode was not as frightening(it was still scary)...it still leaves me exhausted for the rest of the day, unsettled and questioning.  My questioning has led me to some research.

If you want to know more about this very interesting and sometimes scary phenomenon of  sleep paralysis check out:


Out-of body Sleep Paralysis-documentary by Viacons Filmes @ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qz-LNQZg9MY


Other Sites for the medical explanation:

http://www.webmd.com/sleep-disorders/guide/sleep-paralysis#1

http://www.sleepeducation.org/sleep-disorders-by-category/parasomnias/sleep-paralysis/overview-facts

I am not the only one that finds them a little bit frightening:

https://www.buzzfeed.com/carolinekee/sleep-paralysis-is-scary-af?utm_term=.dtoz7mrOb#.dvmKkeNR7

All is well.  (I am awake and I can move lol)

Seeing Peace Instead of This

I could see peace instead of this.
ACIM Lesson 34

I talk and I write about peace of mind so often it is probably making all of you a little nauseated. lol

What is Peace of Mind?

I see it as the thing most of us really want when we set out on one of our many quests for this or that; to attain, gain, claim or remove; to do, achieve, win or succeed etc.  Ego tells us we want the "thing" but what we really want is freedom from suffering and that is what we equate with peace of mind.

By doing, we do not have to sit with what Pascal called, "the miserable truth of our existence".  Distraction, goal hunting, activity and diversion takes us away from what we fear will happen if we sit quietly.  We fear we will be overwhelmed with misery and the realization of our own suffering should we just be.  Ugh!  How depressing is that? So we do!

In that doing though we will meet up with obstacles and barriers that seem to stop us from getting to the peace we assume the thing we are seeking or clinging to  will bring.  Life happens, right?  We will lose, we will get sick, we will be hurt by others, "bad things" will happen, and we may find that this idea of "suffering" follows us around like a dark cloud. When we bend over to catch our breaths we may realize that our thoughts are negative  and we will feel anxiety, worry, and/or depression. We are suffering

Do you mean there is no escaping suffering?

Suffering is real, as the first noble truth of Buddhism states.   According to these truths, suffering actually comes from our "craving" for more...in our diversional activity, our pursuit of material gain, selfish pleasure over compassion and when we refuse to accept the world for what it is. As long as we search for peace and fulfillment in these things; as long as we run from our ego-generated  fear of sitting alone... we will suffer!

According to A Course in Miracles we choose how we see the world.  When we fear...the world becomes a place of danger and potential misery.

Where does suffering originate then?

Suffering begins  in our minds.  When we look out at the world we determine what type of world we see.  From there we make our behavioural choices.  Is the world we see, one we can accept and find peace in?  Or is it one to fear and run from the truth of into diversional and self serving activities?

If we see the world through fearful eyes and decide we must escape into our activity and self protection in order to survive...we will indeed suffer. If we are thinking negative thoughts and feeling negative emotions more than likely we will choose behacviours that take us away from peace and into suffering.

Is there an end to suffering?

Yes !  The third noble truth of Buddhism is that suffering can cease once we stop "craving", "attaching" and seeking to find fulfillment in things outside ourselves.

Suffering will end when we learn to sit quietly and face the real truth of our existence.  When we learn to respond and accept the lives we are in and actively choose peace.

We can end suffering by choosing to see peace instead.

Peace is always possible

According to lesson 34 of A Course in Miracles, "Peace of mind is clearly an internal matter.  It must begin with your own thoughts, and then extend outward.  It is from your peace of mind that a peaceful perception of the world arises." (pg 51; 1:2-4)

By  sitting quietly for a few moments each day we can become aware of what we are thinking and feeling.  We can see how this impacts how we see the world and therefor behave.

All we need to do when we catch ourselves thinking thoughts that are fear based and unloving, or encountering situations that bring up these thoughts and feelings is affirm
"I could see peace in this situation instead of what I see now."

We can change the way we think and feel.  we can change the way we see the world.  We can choose to see peace rather than suffering! 

Make it a point to sit quietly and remind yourself of this often.  And when you encounter a less than pleasant situation repeat the above affirmation to yourself until you believe it! 

It works!

All is well in my world!


ACIM (2007) A Course in Miracles: combined volume. Foundations of Inner Peace.

O'Brien, Barbara (2017) The Four Noble Truths of Buddhism . Thoughtco. Retrieved from https://www.thoughtco.com/the-four-noble-truths-450095

http://thewisdomdaily.com/what-i-learned-from-blaise-pascal-about-the-power-of-stillness/

There is another way of looking at this.

There is another way of looking at the world.
Lesson 33, A Course in Miracles

This bit of not wanting sickness remains in me...just ever so slightly there reminding me  I have to do some "mental work" that I am just too tired or too lazy (lol) to do right now. So I wake up this morning and as I enter my office where my "writing center" (sounds so official eh?) is, my eyes fall on the opened text of  A Course in Miracles.  I look down to see that it is randomly open to lesson 33 and lesson 34....both are more than echoing what I am feeling.  Coincidence?  I think not!

I realize that there is more than one way to look out at the world I am experiencing.  I do not need to be so attached to the idea of what I don't have right now.  It just keeps me there. I can look at things differently.

There is another way of looking at this.

Isn't it comforting to know there is another way of looking at the world?  When what we see does not bring the peace of mind we long for, isn't it wonderful to know that we can just look at it differently? We decide on how we look at things.  We decide how we feel.  :)

It is all good!

 I stopped feeding these little guys and I assume they are on their way south! Safe journey!

Want!!

Keep the faith.  The most amazing things in life seem to happen right at the moment when you are about to give up hope.
Unknown


I woke up a little down this morning...a little bit heavy with the weight of the world. I looked around at my circumstances that don't seem to be changing  and perceived myself as "stuck" .  I am more fatigued than ever.  My head won't stop spinning.  Chest pain is still a constant reminder to stop  when I exert myself. The bills are piling up on my desk and new ones too.  I see how I cannot provide for my children the way I used to, the way I want to.  My house is grosse!  Things are not the way I want them to be.

I found myself sighing a big pathetic sigh that said, "Oh Well!  I better get used to it.  Things are not getting better."

I better get used to it? 

I actually said that to myself ??

I allowed that low energy thought and feeling of being stuck to rumble through my psyche and my life the way it does in those who have given up.  Here I was thinking I was accepting my here and now so that I could find peace but I was  really...just giving up on expecting or even wanting anything more?

After all the work I did and all the evolving I know I did, when that last layer of ego was debrided I realized I am still sick with a psychic malignancy. This cancer grows rampant in many of us and we will not see it for what it is until we pull away the superficial layers of who we think we are. 

Not nice but...  It happens. 

This journey forward to full recovery is going to involve some remissions and some flare-ups.  Recognizing you are in a flare up is key.  I am in a "I am afraid to want more"  flare up.  I am not going to fight it or resist it, I am just going to learn from it and go forward once more.

I am going to refer you back to a couple of past entries  I wrote on this "Giving-Up-On Wanting Cancer" that still, much to my dismay,  grows within me.  I read through them  and I feel a little bit pumped with new motivation to make peace with my situation and heal from it, to get to real acceptance and peace of mind.

 If you can relate at all,  I am hoping they will assist you as well.

Moral of this rampage:

Accept where you are right now...but....Do not give up on wanting more. Keep those hopes and dreams alive in you. Project them out there. It ...whatever our "it' may be...will happen for all of us if we continue to send our desires out into the universe with hope.  Don't get too hung up on how it is going to happen or when it  is going to happen...just know that it will happen!

Besides...doesn't it just feel better to wish, to dream and to imagine all the wonderful possibilities out there than it does to feel stuck in a rut?  It is all about feeling better, right?  In this moment, dreaming, hoping, and wanting will make you feel better.

So feel better.  Want!

Have a read

https://dale-lynwritin.blogspot.ca/2017/05/acceptance-vs-giving-up-on-wanting.html

https://dale-lynwritin.blogspot.ca/2017/05/ten-steps-to-healthy-wanting.html


All is well in my world!  It really is!

My Sweet Lord

I really want to know You; I really want to go with You; I really want to show You  Lord...Mm, My Lord; My Sweet Lord...
George Harrison

I want you to go to the link below and click on the song as you read this.  I was watching the first half of  The Material World documentary on Netflix two nights ago and I was so moved by George Harrison's spiritual seeking.  He was "awakening" at a time when it was not as popular (lol) as it is now.

The next morning, I was thinking about the documentary as I got into my vehicle. I turned on the radio to "My Sweet Lord".  I have always been so moved by that song so I reached  down to turn the volume up.  As  I looked down at the screen I was blown away to see it was George Harrison's song. I honestly never knew that...had no idea it was his song! So that spurred me on to watch the second half of the documentary and learn more.

George Harrison  was raised a strict Catholic and found great financial success and public notoriety (the things most of us crave in this material world)  very young as a member of The Beatles. Yet he realized early on that it was not enough.   After experimenting with psychedelics, like many did in the 60's, he began to question what he was brought up to believe, looking for more in Eastern philosophies.  Years were spent on this "seeking". He began to see and speak about the unifying principles in all religions...even against great criticism.

In 1970 he released this song which became a number one hit! In the song, My Sweet Lord,  he is singing that he can not wait to meet this Supreme Being which is obviously not specific to one religion. He uses the Christian "hallelujah" sound of praise through the song as well as the Vedic Upanishads mantra ,"Hare, Krishna" in an attempt to unify our understanding of what "God" is. (Well that is what I believe).

Anyway...I found his life story and his truth seeking to be so inspirational and motivational...and now I have a song that I can sing along to, that will help to inspire me more. 

Well if I sing it out loud...I will be the only one around me inspired...let me tell ya! lol .  It is all good!

All is well in my world.

Check out:

The Song and facts about it:

Song Facts (n.d.) George Harrison/My Sweet Lord. Song Facts. Retrieved on http://www.songfacts.com/detail.php?id=1172

The Documentary:

Martin Scorcese (2011) George Harrison: Living in a Material World. Netflix https://www.netflix.com/ca/title/70216230

For everything there is a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven.
Ecclesiastes 3:1

Head is a little "spinny"  this morning so I won't write long.  I'll make too many typos lol. Lovely sunny summer day.  Yep it is the last day of summer. Hard to believe how quickly this season went.  Love Autumn though with its amazing colours and its subtle light.  All good.  All so very good!

Never be in a hurry; do everything quietly and in a calm spirit. Do not lose your inner peace for anything whatsoever, even if your whole world seems upset.
Saint Francis de Sal

I love this quote from a 16th century noblemen and lawyer who became a priest when he realized that "God is Love." Like Buddha and so many other great spiritual figures of our history, he renounced prestige and nobility for a "Devout Life" writing beautiful books of inspiration and faith for lay people which was not done at that time. He preached charity over penance. After his death in 1622, he was canonized as the "gentlemen saint" because of his charity and patience. In 1923 the Pope made him the patron saint of writers and journalists.  :)  (That is why he has a special place in my heart).


References

Check out: http://www.catholic.org/saints/saint.php?saint_id=51


All is well!

A little learning from Casy, "Grapes of Wrath"

I watched Grapes of Wrath again last night and was blown away by the sheer beauty of it as I am every time I watch it.  The movie itself is great.  I love old movies in black and white that do not depend on bells and whistles but on brilliant acting and a well written story to reach the audience.  This movie is one that does that.

And, I of course, love Steinbeck's wonderful depiction of the human experience during times of strife and struggle. He pulls out the beauty in people  from under their apparent ugliness or imperfection.  He gave people hope in a time when hope seemed to be blowing away with the dust in the wind.  When you read him you are often left   with just a hint  of something...a knowledge that beyond all suffering is something worth fighting for.

Casy was my favorite character in the movie and in the book.  In almost all Steinbeck's stories he creates a character who depicts what it means to be enlightened or awake. Casy was that character in this novel...a "preacher" who gave up on preaching because he did not feel "he knew enough" and began to question what he was told to believe. He felt he lost the Spirit but as the story develops we see how he actually found it and became like "a lantern" for others.

I love this quote the most:

'What's this call, this sperit?' An' I says, 'It's love. I love people so much I'm fit to bust, sometimes.' . . . . I figgered, 'Why do we got to hang it on God or Jesus? Maybe,' I figgered, 'maybe it's all men an' all women we love; maybe that's the Holy Sperit-the human sperit-the whole shebang. Maybe all men got one big soul ever'body's a part of.' Now I sat there thinkin' it, an' all of a suddent-I knew it. I knew it so deep down that it was true, and I still know it.”

What does it say that we can all learn from:

• The Spirit...is love.
• We do not need to say that this love, this Spirit belongs only in the deities we worship ( in this case...coming from the Christian Bible Belt of the United states... God or Christ)
• We don't just need to love God
• We need to love all men and all women.
• The Holy Spirit is the Human Spirit 
• The Holy Spirit is within all of us
• There is just "One" soul and we are all a part of that soul
• We are all as Tom later tells his Ma, " a little piece of a great big soul"
• this is "knowledge" and a "truth" we have inside of us. It comes from a man who questioned everything else and felt like he knew nothing but he knew this!

This is like the wisdom generated in the enlightened mind. 

Casy even goes on to say,

"I  got thinkin' how we was holy when we was one thing, an mankin' was holy when it was one thing. An' it on'y got unholy when one mis'able little fella got the bit in his teeth an'run off his own way, kickin' an'draggin' an'fightin'.  Fella like that bust the holi-ness"

Is that miserable little fellow ego?

What also reminds me of enlightened wisdom are these words:

"There anin't no sin and there ain't no virtue.  Just stuff people do."

Hmm!  Just some thinking generated from re-watching a great movie and re-reading a great book.  I encourage you to check out both.  :)

All is well in my world.

References :

Steinbeck, John (1939) Grapes of Wrath. The Viking Press

Grapes of Wrath (1940) movie...on Netflix now (sorry ...don't have this cited correctly)

Spark Notes ( n.d.) Grapes of Wrath. Important Quotations explained on Sparks Notes. Retrieved on http://www.sparknotes.com/lit/grapesofwrath/quotes.html

Grapes

Pluviophile: A lover of rain. Someone who finds joy and peace of mind during rainy days.
Unknown

Rest!  Allow God to restore, replenish and refocus your mind.
Unknown

For some reason, I don't feel like writing much today. I don't feel like doing anything.  :) I am sitting here with my tea looking out my window as the rain drips down from my eaves trough making its own little lazy life rhythm. The world out there, beyond my messy  writing corner , reminds me that it is a "slow' day and it is perfectly okay to have a slow day.  A replenishing, a refreshing, a cleansing is going on...outside of me and inside of me.  It's all good.

I can slow down. The viewing numbers are down again and that almost relieves me somewhat. Having 100 viewers a day may have added a bit of pressure...pushing me to "perform" a bit.  Not that I can be anything but what I am...but maybe knowing more people were out there made me feel like I had to wear my Sunday clothes when I am much more comfortable in my sweatpants lol. Today I have my sweatpants on. So it is all good.

Don't get me wrong!  I am so grateful...so very grateful to have had the extra readers.  So grateful for having the message ...whatever my message is lol...passed on for as long as it lasts.  It was wonderful.  And yes it left my ego all swollen and puffy lol. I never feel too comfortable when that happens.  Anyway the numbers were good and I am grateful. 

Yet there is also something very comforting as I go back to a few readers.  It is like I was hosting big dinner party, so excited  and grateful that so many  showed up but when midnight comes around, and the guests leave,  it feels good to just have family around too.  You know?  After the crowd shrinks, you can change into your PJ's, take off the high heels and slip into a pair of slippers.  You can pour yourself a bowl of cornflakes and sit down with the "fam"  to discuss how great the party was.

It was a great party and I am grateful.  I will have another one soon.  :)

It is all good!  It is all so very good.

Finding Peace

Those who are free of resentful thoughts surely find peace.
The Buddha

But the fruit of the Spirit is Love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness...
Galatians 5:22

Beyond Thought Change to Belief Change

You have the power in the present moment to change limiting beliefs and consciously plant the seeds for the future of your choosing. As you change your mind, you change your experience.
Serge King


Okay...By now we know that if we change our thoughts we can change our life.  Seems so simple, right?  We tell ourselves all these wonderful things in the mirror.  We change our thoughts into positive ones.  We speak positively to others.  We are doing the work aren't we? So why isn't it working for most of us? Why are many of us still stuck and not able to move forward into the life experience we want?

The problem we are often facing...is we don't believe the things we are telling ourselves.  We do not emotionally connect with the words because they do not make sense to our subconscious minds.

If we want effective change we need to dig a little deeper and change what is under the surface.  We need to go beyond the conscious thought to the subconscious belief to effect the change we want. We will know we are changing what needs to be changed when we "feel better".

Beliefs Are Different than Thoughts

Thoughts lay in the outer layer of our mind, in the conscious part of it.  They are easy to recognize, understand and therefore change. Though they can influence our emotions to some extent, their power is limited.

Beliefs are more deeply rooted and ingrained in the deeper layer of our minds .  They were established by years of conditioning, what we were told by others, what we were brought up to believe.  In a sense they are thoughts with hooks that were drilled into us  in our developing years. They are in there pretty good! Most important to remember about beliefs is that our emotions are more tied up in them than they are  to our superficial thoughts.

What do you really believe?

Often we are not even aware of what is going in our subconscious minds because these beliefs get buried beneath layers of superficial thought change, affirmation and clinging to what we "want to believe" rather than what we do.

In order to "heal" so we can produce the lives we want, we often have to do some excavating to determine what it is we truly believe so we can change those beliefs into ones that no longer limit us but allow us to soar. Thought restructuring  makes superficial changes, while belief restructuring makes life long ones. 

How Do We Determine Our Beliefs?

There are certain things we can do to understand what is going on inside our heads. I would suggest that you get some help to do the digging, especially if you fear that you may unlock some door of secrets you have hidden away from yourself.

• Be Aware of the Conscious Thoughts as they occur. Use the A-B-C- techniques offered by Rational Emotive Therapy.  We can actually trace our thoughts back to an originating belief.  For example, if my thought when something unfavorable happens in my life is, "This isn't fair.  These things are always happening to me."  From this thought I can determine that my belief system is based on this idea that bad things are always happening to me.  I believe bad things will happen to me.  I must somehow be deserving of bad things and unworthy of good. etc etc
• Be Aware of What You Are Dreaming.  Our dreams often bring forth our subconscious beliefs when we are ready to change them. Simone Wright, in her article in the Huffington Post tells us that the things  we learn from dreams are often  keys to our subconscious minds and our healing, "Often times these discoveries will reveal a deeply hidden and subconscious belief that has been running for a very long time without your awareness — and the reason it is coming to the surface now, is because you are now in a position to do something about it."  Keep a dream journal by your bed and follow Wright's tips. I have personally learned so much from my own dreams.
• Be aware of how you feel when you test out new thought changes. As you progress to changing your thoughts, determine how you "feel", with each change in wording.  For example if I were to use the above example of "This isn't fair.  These things are always happening to me. " and begin to change that, I will probably notice that I cannot connect emotionally with a change to "Life is so fair! Good things are always happening to me. "  I won't feel better emotionally...I may actually feel worse because it is so far away from  my  actual belief system.  I can determine than that I do not believe I am worthy of these things.  If I tone the change down and try, " This doesn't seem fair.  It seems that these things are happening to me a lot."  I will probably feel a "yeah...that's what I believe without the drama" etc.  I can then begin to make small improvements in thought and feeling from there until the belief corresponds with something that will change my life more dramatically.

How do we change our Beliefs?

Once a belief is exposed with the A-B-C and examined for what it is, we can begin making changes in the same way we choose our thoughts:

Step One, according to The A-B-C-D-E of REBT (Rational Emotive Behavioral Therapy), is dispute the thought: "D":

• How realistic is it?  Are these things always happening to me? Is this truly unfair or just the way it is?
• Where is the evidence that this is true?
  

Step Two is the "E" of the REBT process which is creating Effective Thought Change.  We can do that by:

• Removing the "musterbations"
• Removing the absolutes
• Removing the put downs, judgements, criticism
• Removing the "lack"
• Removing the drama
• Removing assumption
• Moving up the emotional ladder toward "relief" one rung at a time.

Changing our limiting beliefs is all very doable!  We can learn to feel better and to live better by doing so! Determine what you truly believe, change it and plant the seed for the future of your choosing!

All is well!


References/Recommended Reads

Bishop, F. Michler. (2004) Rational Emotive Behaviour Therapy: The Basics. SMART Recovery, National Training Conference. Retrieved on
http://www.smartrecovery.org/resources/library/For_Family_Volunteers_Professionals/basics-of-rebt.pdf

Lipton, Bruce. (2013)  The Biology of Belief: Unleashing the Power of Consciousness, Matter and Miracles. Hay House.

Wright, Simone (December, 2014) Using Our Dreams as Intuitive Messengers. Huffington Post. Retrieved from http://www.huffingtonpost.com/simone-wright/using-our-dreams-as-intui_b_6057292.html

Book Learning

You cannot open a book without learning something.
Confucius



Lovely morning.  I am sitting here with my tea after a bit of yoga and meditation trying to connect with some words before I head off to teach.

I know we were on the topic of healing with thought change.  I just want to list some books I read in the last couple of weeks.  All of which you may find helpful in better understanding the importance of thinking "well".   I will review them more thoroughly at a later date. These little gems fell onto my lap like books often do so I feel compelled to share them with you.

Suggested books to read:


Behrend, Genevieve. (2013...reprint) Your Invisible Power. Rough Draft Printing.

• This wonderful  little book was written in the 1930's by an amazing an innovative thinker for her time. In her study of "mental science" ...the author understands and explains the power of our thinking in creating the life we experience.

Dyer, Wayne. W. (2007) Inspiration; Your Ultimate Calling. Hay House.:

•   About learning to "think" and "feel" like a spirit having a human experience rather than a human having an odd spiritual experience. Guides the reader into understanding what they are here for in this world of particle, form and space.

Dyer, Wayne. W. (2014) Getting In the Gap. Hay House.

• Short little book with accompanying CD Track to  explain the importance of focusing on the space between thoughts and gradually getting beyond thought. Offers tips for a meditation practice, gradually expanding on this space between visualized words of the Lord's prayer.

Taylor, Steve. (2017) The Leap: The Psychology of  Spiritual Awakening. New World Library. :

• Just as the title implies, a psychology focused guide to waking up.  Helps the reader to understand the "thinking" that occurs with this spiritual process of awakening.

Kuhn, Greg. (2013) Why Quantum Physicists Create More Abundance. Kindle Edition

• Another short and quick read that interestingly applies science to prove the power of our thinking.

All is well in My World!