Learning and Teaching

 I cannot forget my need to teach what I have learned, which arose in me because I learned it.

ACIM T-5. IV 4:3

Feeling a bit off with this bug. Spent the day yesterday making shorts of my videos.   Why did I bother? Well, it was something I could do to fill a portion of my day, a distraction that required little of my limited physical energy. I suppose, I also did it for ego. It is still lingering around trying to prove this self as someone who has something valuable to offer, so it doesn't get kicked off the team lol. Not that I gave it or the team anything to write home about. (The shorts exemplify the imperfections of this human more than the videos do. The headshots represent every bad picture I have ever taken in my life...like the worse lol. I leave them that way because I want to stop being concerned about appearances and also because I haven't got a clue how to change them lol. )

 I also made shorts for this compulsion I have  to share what I am learning with more people. Part of this human wants to remain in obscurity, and another part says that though I can remain in obscurity forever, the learning can't. It has to be passed on. 

Someone sent me a comment once, suggesting that if I made shorts I would reach more people. After reading that comment my immediate thought was, I don't want to reach more people with this stuff. Ego is embarrassed sharing this that I learn. Then I was reminded in someway that this life isn't really about this "me" and what it wants,  is it? There is a reason why I have been directed to learn what I am learning and it wasn't just so this human could be more knowlegeable and keep it to herself. I learn it so I can tecah it. Teaching is a higher-directed need we have when we learn. Might as well listen to that compulsion. 

All is well