You are a very great being. You are a very great being that is holding yourself down. Let go.
Michael a. Singer
I have been, as you know, contemplating the meaning of Life and the idea of purpose. I have this idea in my head that I, as this human, and you, as that human, are supposed to accomplish something "big" in order to make the most of these lifetimes we have been blessed with. We can't waste a moment feeling anything other than the highest forms of joy and happiness. We have to go on some grand mission to serve others or the world at large. We have to acheive ultimate ego worthy successes, and we have to make a big, note-worthy difference. We are great beings, aren't we? Shouldn't we then be doing great things and feeling great emotions?
I have been walking around with a boulder sized knot in my belly full of have-tos, and shoulds, as well as a deep sense that I am not "doing enough", not "fixing" enough of what appears to be wrong in me and around me...not feeling enough of the joy, love, happiness and peace I am supposed to be feeling. I feel like I am not being enough and therefore not living this life the way I am meant to. I fear I might be squandering it and the gifts I have been given to experience and express the magnitude of this life experience. I guess, that kind of makes me feel like a spiritual failure.
I see that there are two things holding me back from embracing Life fully and enjoying the joy, bliss, love and peace within me. The first of course, are my samskaras, and the second is this misconstrued expectation about what it means to embrace Life and be human that I hold onto.
Samskaras need to be released and out of the way to experience the joy already within us.
You let them go...because they are stealing the depth of your life
Oh I mean, I see the necessity of and have committed myself fully to this life process of purification. I am trying to release the junk stuck inside me. Unlike Michael A. Singer, I am not doing it in a gentle way. I am not just dealing with the low hanging fruit that plunk down on my head...I have a shovel and I am digging to the roots. I want this stuff out of me. I am committed to purification and I do truly see the wisdom in that quest. I put my all into it and am therefore hitting a lot of buried treasures. I am dealing with some pretty big and challenging emotional energy as it is released from the sealed trunk it was buried in. That isn't easy. I am facing that which I spent most of my life running from and believe me...I still want to run. I just don't.
As I deal with the heavy and draining samskara stuff, I proceed through moment to moment living as a human being who has a lot of challenging life experiences, with a lot of heavy suffering going on around her. I keep hearing over and over from this self and from the suffering others around me, "I have to do more with my life or it won't be worth living! Its not meaningful enough as it is." Somehow we are equating the meaning of Life with some "great doing" or some "grand experiences" that seem to be beyond our reach. For me, even despite all my work, I still hear myself saying, " Life will have more meaning and I will feel more joy if I gain literary success, or if I become renown as a teacher of this stuff, if I get more readership, if I only had more money so I could stop worrying about money, if those I loved got better." Because I don't have those things now...I feel that twisting in my gut...that need to acheive and fix...I hear others reciting and even find myself reciting at times this mantra that I have come to know isn't true: "I will be happy when I accomplish this, if I get that, when I heal from this, if I help enough there, when they finally realize that or take the steps needed to get better, I truly have come to see that is not the way Life works. I, therefore, feel stuck. I feel like I am not doing what I should be doing with this gift of Life I have been given.
Life is right here and right now. Where is the meaning in this experience if it isn't in the striving for these great acts and this achievement?
That is the question that brings me back to reality. I spend my time wondering what that is. I have come to see that joy, love, happiness, peace and well being are already in me and I am not experiencing them for the two reasons explained above. I am blocked with samskaras and I also have very unreal ideas and expectations about the meaning of Life. So, I continue to purify to get rid of the first reason I am feeling stuck and I seek the true meaning in Life to end the second.
Putting Away Unreal Notions About Life's Meaning?
Could it be that it doesn't matter what we do, where we are, what roles we play, what we own or have to Life's meaning? Could the meaning of Life simply be about being in it wherever we are at?
When I am walking in the woods and truly, truly feeling the earth beneath my feet, so much so I am no longer thinking about how to fix things...the knot in my gut releases and I know this is my life. This is it. I do not have to do anything with it. It doesn't have to be any different than what it is. This is enough. It is beautiful as it is, worthy of my respect and admiration. Joy emerges in a very subtle form.
When I am hanging clothes on the line on a beautiful morning like this morning, hearing the bird song all around me, feeling the breeze and the sun on my face. Man...that is no grand act of serrvice to humanity, maybe, but that is a precious moment in this Life experience. It is enough. It is worthy of my respect and appreciation. Joy emerges in a very subtle but real form.
When I am writing in this crazy blog to God knows who, if anyone, I feel it then too. This is enough. The act of writing, sharing learning is enough. I do not need fame or money for it. This gives life meaning. These moments, here, are worthy of my respect and appreciation. Joy emerges.
When I am sitting across from someone spewing out their pain and dissatisfaction with the Life experience and I can remain calm, somewhat detached but truly compassionate (even when they cannot see it)...it is enough. This too is Life. This too is worthy of my respect and appreciation. And yes, even in these moments joy can emerge.
So instead of thinking and searching for the grand experiences, I can just look around me and find the joy that is there. We do not need to do more with these lives…we just need to be more in them. That’s all it takes to give Life meaning. Then joy, bliss, love and peace will emerge on their own. And there is nothing we need to do to make that happen. .
You don't need anything to make you happy. Spirituality isn't about getting things. It is about letting things go.
All of life is beautiful. All of life is joy ...enjoy all of it.
Every moment in life is an opportunity to bliss out.
If you want to be happy...let go...let go of the part of you that is making you neurotic
You can be happy if you let yourself be.
All is well.
Michael A. Singer/ Temple of the Universe/ Sounds True (April 13, 2026) Stop Chasing Happiness: Remove What blocks It. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2SXcMK4dj70&list=PLyOuAoSmZkKoESr2acNWwhznusbBkKXsT&index=1&t=1145s
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