The "Handling Disappoint_ent" Wordle Riddle

 Instead of cr_ing, "Wh_  _e?" or "Wh_ not _e?", tr_ observing the h_ _an experience of disappoint_ent like a q_estioning, c_rio_s scientist, discovering so_ething new and exciting. Feel the feelings, notice the tho_ghts, b_t ref_se to swi_ in the_. Instead, observe the_ from a distance and en_o_  the role of c_rio_s Observer.

This h_ _an I call "Me".

Writing with letters missing is challenging. Reading what so_eone has written with letters missing is likely even more challenging. Think of it as a long wordle riddle. I apologize b_t I need to write. lol

How do _o_ handle disappointment when it _nfolds in front of _o_? Have _o_  observed and noticed what happens to  _o_  phsicall_,  _entally and e_otionally when things do not go _ _or wa_ and how that response or reaction affects what _o_ experience in the f_t_re?

I have been watching the h_ _an condition of disappoint_ent in self  latel_. I _easre how disappointed I feel in sit_ations as a deter_inant of  _ _ progress.  What I a_ noticing is quite astounding. I find myself approaching disappoint_ent with a great deal of scientific c_riosit_. It is prett_ cool. I find _ _self  to be a q_estioning, c_rio_s observer rather than a victi_ to what I lost or to the circu_stances that didn't work o_t the wa_ I planned. I am more interested in the "Oh, so this is what it feels like to experience this," now, than I a_ the, "Oh no! Wh_ does this alwas happen? Wh_ don't things ever work_ ot for _e."  (Which I did observe happening in this mind for the briefest of _o_ents). As a c_rio_s observer...I a_ less weighed down b_ disappoint_ent. I notice, for s_re, the feelings and tho_ghts that nor_all_  co_e when so_ething we were hoping for doesn't _aterialize or work o_t...b_t I no longer swi_ in it...I therefore don't drown in it. I let it go so I can observe it fro_ a distance. It is like I a_ on the shore watching the experience of disappoint_ent float past this h_ _an I call _e. It is reall_ a different and al_ost exciting perspective. 

So, this co_p_ter that I a_ so_ewhat dependent on to _eet the creativit_ needs of this h_ _an...is obviosl_ not working the wa_ it co_ld work, _aking the _eeting of these needs extre_el challenging. I a_ not wallowing in the disappoint_ent. S_re, I felt and feel so_ewhat fr_strated. S_re, there were tho_ghts of, "Wh_ _ e? Wh_ is this  happening to me?" which led to _ore generalized tho_ghts of, "Wh_ is it alwa_s so challenging for this h_ _an?" _et, I find _ _self standing on the shore watching these feelings and tho_ghts float b_. I a_ not down there swiming in the_. On top of that, I feel like a scientist in a lab who _ust observed so_ething reall_cool thro_gh the _icroscope. "Wow! This is how it feels not to be lost in that crap!" 

I didn't get the little _ob that popped _p offering a certain hope. There was certainl_ a  _o_entar_ reaction of disappoint_ent. I did not want to s_ppress it.  I allowed self to feel it, b_t then I _ _ _ped back _p onto the river bank and I watched it fro_ that viewpoint. And it was like, "Cool! This is what it feels like not to be so attached to o_tco_e." 

This _orning, I still feel a little _p. I know in _ _  heart that it is all good. That it wasn't s_ppose to be an_ other wa_ than the wa_ it tr_ned o_t.  How do I know that? Beca_se this is the wa_ it trned o_t. I get excited thinking abo_t that, wondering what Life has in store for this h_man other than this that did not transpire. I a_  c_rio_s again. So, cool.

Anwa_, tho_ght I wo_ld share.

All is well.