The Driver Isn't Ego

 

If you are working on something you really care about, you don't have to be pushed. The Vision pulls you.

Steve Jobs

I often try to justify and rationalize why this 60 + "crazy lady" is spending her time here spewing off all this "crazy talk" in words and video. Though I obviously have an ego and it still pops up every now and again looking to gain something from this experience...it is not the driver of this vehichle I am in. It spends most of its time, in fact, in the back seat screaming "OMG...What are you doing? Why are you turning there? Why are you going there? Don't go there, don't do that! That's not the right way! You are making a fool of yourself. Let me drive for F*&^ (fork) sake!" 

The driver has to do a lot of "ignoring ego" to concentrate on the road and to keep this car moving.  So, it isn't egoic motivation that puts me here every morning. Though ego likes to see the big numbers on the stats page and does the worrying about how this will turn out in the negative way ( Will people/bots/ whatever use the site for ulterior means? Will they reject it, dismiss it, diminish it, and judge the "me" creating it?) , the driver cares very little about all that.  It is able to notice what ego is saying and doing without getting all distracted by it. It stays focused. It has something to do...a place to get to ( I really don't know where that place is lol) and It just keeps going. It is like the driver knows what It is doing and where It is going even if I don't. Sigh!  This human I call "me" is just going along for the ride. 

As for Ego...ego can get out of the vehichle any time it wants to. 

All is well