In a sense we are enlightened from the very beginning, endowed with a completely good basic mind.
Dalai Lama
So we have a pretty good mind? The problem, I suppose, is what we do with that good mind.
I imagine being given a wonderful flashlight by which we can see everything clearly. We lift it up to the world around us and we see all that we are meant to see. We turn it inward and we see even more. Everything is so bright, so warm, so beautiful!
The Flashlight
This flashlight is simply a tool we have been given to make our way through this world. It works perfectly at the time of issue! We are told if we hold it in the right way, if we clean it off when we are supposed to and if we take good care of it...it will serve us very well throughout our time here. We will constantly be able to see the joy and beauty that exists around us. We will see all, including Self, as it truly is.
Hmmm! The problem is many of us have not followed those instructions and have not cared for our amazing flashlights.
Lazy Hold
We get lazy and allow our arms to drop to the earth so we only see the "earth" or earthly things. The effort to lift this light up so it shines inside or up into the heavens becomes too much...so we happily focus on the bit of earth this lazy grasp provides. The amount of distance we can see ahead and around us is very limited with this hold. We tend to see only what is immediately around our bodies and we begin to believe that is all there is to this world, this Life.
Dim View
We also do not clean it off like we are supposed to...Most of our flashlights are covered with a thin or thick veil of worldly dust and grim so it does not shine brightly. In fact , the view it provides becomes so dim the world around us begins to look a bit dark and scary. When we do look at something with this dim light it is distorted and we cannot see clearly what it is. We are often so sure it is something that will harm us.
We do what we can to protect ourselves from whatever lurks up ahead beyond our limited perspective. . We look to something "out there" that we can't see to save us. Ego, liking this dim view we have, hides up in the shadows and it keeps calling out to us. It keeps guiding us into something better that it promises is up ahead. We follow blindly, never finding what it says we will find.
A Lack of Care
We also don't take care of this light, this tool that was meant to serve us. It stops working the way it was meant to because we didn't maintain it. It short wires at times or even burns out. It becomes temperamental and we become afraid. we will lose the little light it offers. We put all of our energy into protecting and preserving this small amount of unpredictable light our flashlights now offer. We in a sense...become slaves to it, used by it, instead of using it as the instrument it was meant to be.
The Mind is Our Flashlight
Hmm! Isn't that what we do with these minds? We don't point them in the right direction and become limited by our perceptions. We allow our "mental modifications" to form a veil over them so everything becomes distorted. Our views are distorted and limited and we become afraid. We don't take care of them. We are not careful with what we put in them filling them with junk that will harm them and they appear to short wire and burn out. We become even more afraid of losing the bit of light they offer us. We allow our "monkey minds" to eventually run the show.
Not Too Late!
It's not too late. We can reclaim, clean up and recharge these minds. We can make them the wonderful tools they are meant to be. We just need to hold them...gently... in stillness and quiet while we point them inward. We just need to recognize the veil of ego over them and smoothly wipe it off. We just need to plug them back into the right charger...the right energy Source...the Source of all Life.
We need to see once again that our minds are simply tools meant to serve us and we need not become servants to them or to ego.
It's all good.
Wednesday, July 31, 2019
Monday, July 29, 2019
Making Decisions
Life will give you everything you need to go deeper. A decision will be made. If you act, the worst that can happen is a story. If you don't, the worst that can happen is a story. It makes its own decisions-when to eat, when to sleep, when to act. It just moves along on its own. And it's very calm and entirely successful.
Byron Katie( Loving What Is , page 196)
Hmmm! What do you think about that? Do you think it is you or Life that makes all the decisions for you?
I believe that most of us believe that our lives are all about making decisions and that we are responsible for them. Heck...that is what I teach...be responsible for your choices. Decisions are important, right? We need to make decisions and we need to choose correctly? Right?
Byron Katie, in Loving What Is, would ask "Is that true? Do you know for sure that is true?"
Do we really always have to make decisions? Do we really have to choose?
"Have to" and "should" are words that would get worked to death through this "inquiry" she teaches. The point is...there is nothing we "should" do and there is nothing we "have" to do. So even the decision to brush our teeth or not ...is something we don't have to make. We do not have decide? We just act or we don't.
Hmmm... according to Katie...we just have to brush our teeth or not brush our teeth without thinking about it. The decision about brushing my teeth is not the problem. The problem is the story we tell ourselves about it.
I may have this inner urge to brush my teeth. That urge is not a problem in itself nor is a decision required. I could simply follow that inner urge and go brush my teeth. Yet, if I stopped and put my finger to my chin and said, "Hmmm! Do I really need to brush my teeth? I just brushed them this morning. If I decide to brush them I will have to go all the way inside the house and into the bathroom. That will take another five minutes and I am already late. If I am late again, my boss is going to get so mad. Things are crazy at the office and people are getting fired left and right. I can't afford to get fired!!"
So I don't brush my teeth and go off to work. Then on my way to work, I remember my last dentist appointment and the warning I received from the hygienist about a cavity that is starting. I imagine the cavity growing...and me losing that tooth and all my other teeth falling out of alignment with the removal of that tooth. I wonder what people will say and my lack of attractiveness. I fear I will never attract a mate and be alone for the rest of my life.
The decision to brush the teeth was not the problem. It was made...Life gave me an urge to brush them. I either acted or I didn't; I either brushed them or I didn't. The problem arises not in the decision but in the story we create around it...in the thinking about it . We get lost in mind stuff rather than in simply acting in the moment. We get stressed out before we make the decision and stressed out after wards. It is all so unnecessary. I could have simply responded to the urge(Life making a decision) and brushed them.
Life doesn't get hung up on decisions...it just does. It just flows and goes along its merry old way inside these bodies we are in and these minds we are using. No big deal. Whether or not we act on the decisions or urges it offers us, is none of its concern. The only problem with it ...is what we create in our minds.
And it doesn't matter if we are making decisions about brushing our teeth or getting married....about investing in the stock market or whether or not to continue with life saving measures. Life just does and flows along. Our stories are the problem...not decisions. We really do not need to decide...Life will decide for us. And we will hear it...if we are not so lost in our stories that we lose contact with it. From there we will act or not act...and it doesn't matter to life if we do or don't. It just keeps chugging along.
That simple. Hmmm...something to think about.
All is well in my world.
Byron Katie (2002) Loving What Is. New York: Three Rivers Press
Byron Katie( Loving What Is , page 196)
Hmmm! What do you think about that? Do you think it is you or Life that makes all the decisions for you?
I believe that most of us believe that our lives are all about making decisions and that we are responsible for them. Heck...that is what I teach...be responsible for your choices. Decisions are important, right? We need to make decisions and we need to choose correctly? Right?
Byron Katie, in Loving What Is, would ask "Is that true? Do you know for sure that is true?"
Do we really always have to make decisions? Do we really have to choose?
"Have to" and "should" are words that would get worked to death through this "inquiry" she teaches. The point is...there is nothing we "should" do and there is nothing we "have" to do. So even the decision to brush our teeth or not ...is something we don't have to make. We do not have decide? We just act or we don't.
Hmmm... according to Katie...we just have to brush our teeth or not brush our teeth without thinking about it. The decision about brushing my teeth is not the problem. The problem is the story we tell ourselves about it.
I may have this inner urge to brush my teeth. That urge is not a problem in itself nor is a decision required. I could simply follow that inner urge and go brush my teeth. Yet, if I stopped and put my finger to my chin and said, "Hmmm! Do I really need to brush my teeth? I just brushed them this morning. If I decide to brush them I will have to go all the way inside the house and into the bathroom. That will take another five minutes and I am already late. If I am late again, my boss is going to get so mad. Things are crazy at the office and people are getting fired left and right. I can't afford to get fired!!"
So I don't brush my teeth and go off to work. Then on my way to work, I remember my last dentist appointment and the warning I received from the hygienist about a cavity that is starting. I imagine the cavity growing...and me losing that tooth and all my other teeth falling out of alignment with the removal of that tooth. I wonder what people will say and my lack of attractiveness. I fear I will never attract a mate and be alone for the rest of my life.
The decision to brush the teeth was not the problem. It was made...Life gave me an urge to brush them. I either acted or I didn't; I either brushed them or I didn't. The problem arises not in the decision but in the story we create around it...in the thinking about it . We get lost in mind stuff rather than in simply acting in the moment. We get stressed out before we make the decision and stressed out after wards. It is all so unnecessary. I could have simply responded to the urge(Life making a decision) and brushed them.
Life doesn't get hung up on decisions...it just does. It just flows and goes along its merry old way inside these bodies we are in and these minds we are using. No big deal. Whether or not we act on the decisions or urges it offers us, is none of its concern. The only problem with it ...is what we create in our minds.
And it doesn't matter if we are making decisions about brushing our teeth or getting married....about investing in the stock market or whether or not to continue with life saving measures. Life just does and flows along. Our stories are the problem...not decisions. We really do not need to decide...Life will decide for us. And we will hear it...if we are not so lost in our stories that we lose contact with it. From there we will act or not act...and it doesn't matter to life if we do or don't. It just keeps chugging along.
That simple. Hmmm...something to think about.
All is well in my world.
Byron Katie (2002) Loving What Is. New York: Three Rivers Press
Sunday, July 28, 2019
Verse 64 of the Tao
Rushing into action, you fail. Trying to grasp things, you lose them.
Lao Tzu (according to Stephen Mitchell's translation)
I am going to go back to verse 64 of the Tao. It seems to be speaking to me now though some Life circumstances. I will compare Legge's translation with another's...maybe Stephen Mitchell (being that I am rereading his wife's book right now. :)
Legge's translation:
64
That which is at rest is easily kept hold of; before a thing
has given indications of its presence, it is easy to take measures
against it; that which is brittle is easily broken; that which is very
small is easily dispersed. Action should be taken before a thing has
made its appearance; order should be secured before disorder has
begun.
The tree which fills the arms grew from the tiniest sprout; the
tower of nine storeys rose from a (small) heap of earth; the journey
of a thousand li commenced with a single step.
He who acts (with an ulterior purpose) does harm; he who takes hold
of a thing (in the same way) loses his hold. The sage does not act
(so), and therefore does no harm; he does not lay hold (so), and
therefore does not lose his bold. (But) people in their conduct of
affairs are constantly ruining them when they are on the eve of
success. If they were careful at the end, as (they should be) at the
beginning, they would not so ruin them.
Therefore the sage desires what (other men) do not desire, and does
not prize things difficult to get; he learns what (other men) do not
learn, and turns back to what the multitude of men have passed by.
Thus he helps the natural development of all things,
has given indications of its presence, it is easy to take measures
against it; that which is brittle is easily broken; that which is very
small is easily dispersed. Action should be taken before a thing has
made its appearance; order should be secured before disorder has
begun.
The tree which fills the arms grew from the tiniest sprout; the
tower of nine storeys rose from a (small) heap of earth; the journey
of a thousand li commenced with a single step.
He who acts (with an ulterior purpose) does harm; he who takes hold
of a thing (in the same way) loses his hold. The sage does not act
(so), and therefore does no harm; he does not lay hold (so), and
therefore does not lose his bold. (But) people in their conduct of
affairs are constantly ruining them when they are on the eve of
success. If they were careful at the end, as (they should be) at the
beginning, they would not so ruin them.
Therefore the sage desires what (other men) do not desire, and does
not prize things difficult to get; he learns what (other men) do not
learn, and turns back to what the multitude of men have passed by.
Thus he helps the natural development of all things,
and does not dareto act (with an ulterior purpose of his own).
Stephen Mitchell's Translation
64
What is rooted is easy to nourish.
What is recent is easy to correct.
What is brittle is easy to break.
What is small is easy to scatter.
Prevent trouble before it arises.
Put things in order before they exist.
The giant pine tree grows from a tiny sprout.
The journey of a thousand miles starts from beneath your feet.
Rushing into action, you fail.
Trying to grasp things, you lose them.
Forcing a project to completion, you ruin what was almost ripe.
Therefore the Master takes action by letting things take their course.
He remains as calm at the end as at the beginning.
He has nothing, thus has nothing to lose.
What he desires is non-desire; what he learns is to unlearn.
He simply reminds people of who they have always been.
He cares about nothing but the Tao. Thus he can care for all things.
What is rooted is easy to nourish.
What is recent is easy to correct.
What is brittle is easy to break.
What is small is easy to scatter.
Prevent trouble before it arises.
Put things in order before they exist.
The giant pine tree grows from a tiny sprout.
The journey of a thousand miles starts from beneath your feet.
Rushing into action, you fail.
Trying to grasp things, you lose them.
Forcing a project to completion, you ruin what was almost ripe.
Therefore the Master takes action by letting things take their course.
He remains as calm at the end as at the beginning.
He has nothing, thus has nothing to lose.
What he desires is non-desire; what he learns is to unlearn.
He simply reminds people of who they have always been.
He cares about nothing but the Tao. Thus he can care for all things.
The second translation is much easier to grasp but how will we ever know which one is most accurate unless we can read the original text and understand the language and cultural connotation it was written in? I can't do that...can you? This is an example of how translations differ and can imply different things unintentionally to readers. So though I spent the last few months reading Legge's translation I think I prefer the latter. So much easier to understand. I will try to find the common ground between the two.
So what was Lao Tzu getting at, according to these translations?
- It is much easier to grasp something, feed something and allow it to grow if it is rooted, grounded and stable. That makes sense doesn't it? If something like a young child is moving all around how would you even hold it, let alone nourish it? Our minds are hard to control, feed when they are scattered and constantly moving (monkey minds). If they are rooted and grounded and at rest...dealing with them will be so much easier.
- Before a "problem" becomes too big it should be fixed and dealt with. We should be proactive rather than reactive. We should deal with things "right away" and not let them build up into bigger issues.
- "That which is brittle is easily broken" and " What is brittle is easy to break"....so be mindful of the fragile, the "weaker" points within ourselves and others and do not put unnecessary stress or weight upon them.
- What is small is easy to scatter...the less we have the easier it will be to spread in this world? I am not sure if Lao Tzu is saying that it is best to keep things small so we can get rid of them easier or to reduce what we have so we have less problems to deal with in the long run?
- We should be proactive according to Mitchell's translation and prevent trouble before trouble even arises...and Legge speaks of taking action before a thing makes its appearance...same thing, I guess.
- Both say to put things in order but Legge says "before disorder has begun" and Mitchell says "before it exists". We could be talking two different things here. Legge is referring specifically to the prevention of disorder in the physical realm and Mitchell may be speaking to the idea that we need to keep order in our minds so that disorder doesn't manifest into form around us.?
- All great and "wide trunked" trees come from the smallest sprout. Large and great things grow from small things...Remember...we start small in order to be great. Legge adds that a large tower begins with the foundation of "a heap of earth."
- The famous line: a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step which is more accurately expressed in Legge's translation can be compared to Mitchell's...starts from beneath your feet. This could have a different type of meaning: It is necessary to be rooted to the earth before we move forward? It is something greater than us that helps us to move forward...something beyond us ( heaven and earth) moves us?
- The next bit confuses me. According to Legge's translation, Lao Tzu says that to act does harm...Legge adds in parenthesis...(meaning that it was his interpretation and not actually said by Lao Tzu) ...that action with ulterior motives is what causes harm. Mitchell says that someone who rushes into action will fail. Totally different meanings. What I see is that maybe Lao Tzu was simply saying be careful about action...it is not always necessary and can do more harm than good.
- He who takes hold of a thing, tries to grasp them and cling will lose them. Again Legge refers to ulterior purpose which Legge doesn't. Again...I simply see the spiritual principle of not striving and not clinging and non attachment reflected in this passage.
- Mitchell speaks of "forcing a project to completion" and states that doing so will lead us to ruin what was almost ripe. We cannot force things to be anything but what they are...nature, life, circumstance will grow, develop and evolve in their own time, own rate and own way. Struggling against this fact...and using force and control will only ruin and harm.
- The Master and the Sage then do not force or control...they do not act even or attempt to grasp and cling...they let things "be" as they are and in so doing they do not harm and they do not lose.
- People, according to Legge's translation, are constantly "failing" and ruining what they set out to achieve before completion because they are not as careful at the end of their endeavor as they were at the beginning. Maybe they are rushing to finish? Mitchell says that a successful master remains as calm at the end as he did in the beginning.
- The truly wise person is different from others...from most. He desires different things. He does not desire material wealth and success. He has nothing and therefore has nothing to lose. He does not seek after prizes that are difficult to get. What he desires is "non-desire," according to Mitchell...referring unintentionally to the Buddhist teachings of non-desire?
- He learns what other men do not learn. Mitchell explains that what he learns is to unlearn. He steps away from learning "concepts" and puts aside old established learning to truly discover what is real and important.
- He goes back to what most men overlook and pass by...the truth of who we really are. He reminds people of who they have always been.
- By doing this...he acts in the way of the Tao...of Spirit and of Self...and not for the motivations of the ego or little "me." The way is everything and by that spiritual vision he cares about everything and is able to truly help in the development of all things...in the evolution of consciousness maybe?
Well that is how I see it in my own life anyway. All is well.
Saturday, July 27, 2019
A Balanced and Skillful Approach to Life
A balanced and skillful approach to life, taking care to avoid extremes, becomes a very important factor in conducting one's everyday existence.
-Dalai Lama
Hmm! Do you believe Life is serendipitous...presenting things that appear to be mere coincidence again and again for a greater reason we may never understand?
My days have been so weird lately...I go from getting a lot done in a day to doing absolutely nothing. My surroundings at one moment seem to be very well controlled and completely chaotic the next. There seems to be extreme peace some moments ...followed by extreme stress. I seem to be completely oblivious to anything but the happiness in others one day followed by becoming acutely aware of how "everyone" around me seems to be depressed, anxious, addicted the next. Circumstances seem to be very much in my favour one week...and then I seem to be punished by the universe the next. Up and down I go from one extreme to the other. It feels weird. So...I was pondering what my role in all this was and what "extreme" changes I may need to make yesterday.
I didn't get a chance because of that to read my calendar's quote for yesterday. So I read it this morning and thought, "Well isn't that serendipity?"
You see yesterday I felt so compelled to do eight more verses of the Tao. As I was reading through them I got a little hung up on Verse 59...see for yourself. I wasn't sure if I got it? Then today I read the above quote and am awed by the fact that the Dalai Lama's words coincide with Lao Tzu's at the exact time I am pondering this very thing in my own life.
I truly do not know how to live this life now that I am awakening. I thought I knew how to do it before...I thought I had it all planned and mapped out for me and my loved ones...and now I haven't a clue. I do know Life is going to do the changing for me...I just have to learn to walk between these extremes both mentally and physically. I don't need to make changes...I just need to change the way I think about what I see and believe to be true. I got this!!!
All is well in my world.
Friday, July 26, 2019
More Tao Te Ching
Chapter/Verse 59
Moderation is an important factor in regulating our human tendencies and
in doing spiritual things: “rendering the (proper) service to the heavenly” . It
is only by moderation that man can return to a normal state of being. Every return is what Lao Tzu calls “the
repeated accumulation of the attributes (of the Tao)”. To me this means…that the more we return home
to the spiritual state which is our natural state of being and the sooner we
can do it “early” …the more Tao like…the more true we become.
The more Tao like we become…the more “spiritually centered” …the better
we are able to control the obstacles that get in our way. Though it is not mentioned as such here…I
immediately think that these obstacles are our “mental modifications…our “mind
stuff”…our thinking that creates a veil between us and true awareness. We have
no idea what the limits are to the way we can control our minds? …these
obstacles…but not knowing makes us “ruler of a state”. That state, I assume, is our own human
condition.
He who possesses the “mother of the state”, which I assume is the way, will continue long. This Tao like nature
makes him like the plant which has deep roots and a strong stalk…and this
assures that “its enduring life”…its eternal nature will long be seen.
My Take: Do everything in moderation including our human tendencies and our spiritual ones. Avoid extremes, especially in our striving, doing, wanting, preferring and our "Seeking"...even if it is spiritual seeking. Just be present and in the way. The obstacles that stand in the way of our being spiritual will slip away.
My Take: Do everything in moderation including our human tendencies and our spiritual ones. Avoid extremes, especially in our striving, doing, wanting, preferring and our "Seeking"...even if it is spiritual seeking. Just be present and in the way. The obstacles that stand in the way of our being spiritual will slip away.
Chapter/Verse 60
Governing a
great state is like cooking small fish.
For good energy (that which doesn’t hurt others)…even that that is left behind by the departed…the kingdom has to be governed by the Tao. When neither this energy nor the energy of ruling sage provokes injury on others…the two energies converge in the goodness of the Tao.
My Take: The energy of the other realm and the energy of the leaders in the world , if benevolent, will come together in the Tao to make the world a better place.
For good energy (that which doesn’t hurt others)…even that that is left behind by the departed…the kingdom has to be governed by the Tao. When neither this energy nor the energy of ruling sage provokes injury on others…the two energies converge in the goodness of the Tao.
My Take: The energy of the other realm and the energy of the leaders in the world , if benevolent, will come together in the Tao to make the world a better place.
Chapter/Verse 61
What makes a
great state is its being (like) a low-lying, down-
flowing (stream);--it becomes the centre to which tend (all the small
states) under heaven.
flowing (stream);--it becomes the centre to which tend (all the small
states) under heaven.
As an
example to further illustrate this point Lao Tzu uses the stillness of the female to
explain how that stillness overcomes the male.
Stillness is like a basement which gains adherents and gains favors at the
same time. A great state only wishes to unite men together and nourish them.
And a smaller state only wishes to be welcomed and to serve the other. Both the
lower and the higher get what they want but the great state must learn to “abase
itself”…concede to the little state.
My Take: Don't try to be greater than or to overpower...it is the less threatening, still presence that nourishes people and draws them to it.
Chapter/Verse 62
Tao has of all things the most honoured place.
No treasures give good men so rich a grace;
Bad men it guards, and doth their ill efface.
No treasures give good men so rich a grace;
Bad men it guards, and doth their ill efface.
The Tao is the greatest thing men can have. It is the greatest gift for good men and it
wishes no ill on bad men. It can make men honorable and above others. Even bad men are not left out of its grace.
One lesson of the Tao is greater than any high ranking position a leader can receive. It is the most valuable thing under heaven because it can be attained merely by seeking it and it removes the stain of guilt from the guilty.
My Take: Presence, spirituality...even a step towards it through a lesson, is the greatest gift and the greatest success a person can achieve.
One lesson of the Tao is greater than any high ranking position a leader can receive. It is the most valuable thing under heaven because it can be attained merely by seeking it and it removes the stain of guilt from the guilty.
Chapter/Verse 63
(It is the way of the Tao) to act without (thinking of) acting;
to conduct affairs without (feeling the) trouble of them; to taste
without discerning any flavour; to consider what is small as great,
and a few as many; and to recompense injury with kindness.
to conduct affairs without (feeling the) trouble of them; to taste
without discerning any flavour; to consider what is small as great,
and a few as many; and to recompense injury with kindness.
It is the
way of the Tao to act without needing to narrate and think through the action;
to conduct all affairs with ease; to avoid judging or discerning , or deciding
on preferences; and to kindly forgive
all wrong doings.
The one
who can master the Tao does the greatest of things even through the smallest
acts because he realizes that great things come from small and difficult things
were once easy. The sage sees difficulty
in what is easy and therefore has no difficulty. (Does not expect or assume things should be a
certain way?)
My Take: The way, the Tao, the spiritual path, presence... is a natural state of being and doing that exists beneath thinking about it, getting caught up in emotional drama, judging, preferring, creating opposites in our mind etc. One can do amazing things once they return to this level of being.
Chapter/Verse 64
Problems should be solved before they become problems. Don’t wait for things to get bad before you
act.
Each thing begins with one small step.
This is where the big line from Lao Tzu comes in …”A
journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.”
We should be like the sage and not act or attempt to cling and hold onto something with an ulterior purpose because it causes harm and we will lose what we attempt to hold if we do.
Therefore the sage desires what (other men) do not desire, and does
not prize things difficult to get; he learns what (other men) do not
learn, and turns back to what the multitude of men have passed by.
We should be like the sage and not act or attempt to cling and hold onto something with an ulterior purpose because it causes harm and we will lose what we attempt to hold if we do.
Therefore the sage desires what (other men) do not desire, and does
not prize things difficult to get; he learns what (other men) do not
learn, and turns back to what the multitude of men have passed by.
The wise
man does not want things other men want.
He wants different things and does not get lost in competition for these
prizes normal men seek. He does not act
for “selfish” or greedy purposes.
My Take: Don't procrastinate and put off things. They will just get big....and even when the task before you seems too large...begin anyway...with one step. A spiritually wise person wants different things than others do. He does not compete for egoic prizes and does not do good for ulterior ego reasons. He is guided by Spirit or the Tao.
Chapter/Verse 65
The ancient masters of the Tao did not seek to teach others to enlighten
them but to make them simple and ignorant.
It is difficult to lead others who have “much knowledge”. It is best to have little “knowledge”…it is a
blessing.
“The mysterious excellence of a governor “ arises from knowing this truth.
My Take: The best way to lead, the best way to be is without "knowledge" which belongs to the conceptual mind. A true spiritual teacher does not seek to provide more knowledge but attempts to remove what one thinks they know. Ignorance is bliss.
“The mysterious excellence of a governor “ arises from knowing this truth.
My Take: The best way to lead, the best way to be is without "knowledge" which belongs to the conceptual mind. A true spiritual teacher does not seek to provide more knowledge but attempts to remove what one thinks they know. Ignorance is bliss.
Chapter/Verse 66
A true sage, in order to lead and be above men, will
put himself below men and in order to be before them puts himself behind
them. He is like the sea below the level
of valleys and streams. This way men do
not feel over powered by their leader or harmed.
He does not “strive” so others under him do not
feel the need to “strive”.
Therefore all in the world delight to exalt him and do not weary of
him. Because he does not strive, no one finds it possible to strive
with him.
My Take: A true leader and/or wise master will not seek to be "superior" to others but will put themselves below men. He does not strive so others are not "threatened" and are drawn to the leader's peaceful, nourishing presence.
Therefore all in the world delight to exalt him and do not weary of
him. Because he does not strive, no one finds it possible to strive
with him.
My Take: A true leader and/or wise master will not seek to be "superior" to others but will put themselves below men. He does not strive so others are not "threatened" and are drawn to the leader's peaceful, nourishing presence.
NOTE: Take what I write here with a grain of salt. I read the chosen translation ( which I am not all that fond of by the way :)) quickly and jot down my interpretation of that. I could be missing the point. so it is best that you read these wise words yourself from your own chosen translation. I am no expert ...just a learner.
All is well
James Legge (1895) Tao Te Ching by Lao Tzu.http://www.sacred-texts.com/tao/taote.htm
Don't Close!
Wisdom...Yoga...spirituality is about going deeper...it is about taking down the blinds and being open to what is...being filled of joy inside and sharing it outside. It is not about getting what you want. It is about learning to find out that what you really want is to stay open and not have conditions on that openness.
Michael Singer (from "What do you Really Want?) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=73-2PggJJW0
Basically what we need to learn is to "not close" so we stay open to the peace, joy and love within. Instead of trying to determine what it is that we want...and seeking only that...closing our minds and hearts to anything else...we stay open...we are at the core of spirituality.
"I am not going to let the outside world close me."
We just practice not listening to ego and resist going after all it says to go after; or fighting off what it tells us we don't want...we just accept all that is at is. We honor what is, appreciate it...enjoy it. That is spirituality!
All is well in my world.
Michael Singer (from "What do you Really Want?) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=73-2PggJJW0
Basically what we need to learn is to "not close" so we stay open to the peace, joy and love within. Instead of trying to determine what it is that we want...and seeking only that...closing our minds and hearts to anything else...we stay open...we are at the core of spirituality.
"I am not going to let the outside world close me."
We just practice not listening to ego and resist going after all it says to go after; or fighting off what it tells us we don't want...we just accept all that is at is. We honor what is, appreciate it...enjoy it. That is spirituality!
All is well in my world.
Thursday, July 25, 2019
Conforming or Transforming?
And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind ...
Romans 12:2
Transforming
Wow! This waking up is one roller coaster of a ride, isn't it?
There are these wonderful moments of, "Oh! I get it!"... followed by this awareness of being aware and that inexplicable peaceful feeling that comes with it. Ahhhh! Lovely!
The world makes sense.
Then there comes, out of nowhere, a little urging from ego. It promises that we will find what will make us happy and "better" if we follow it into the doing, collecting, striving out here in the physical world. We follow and may even experience some form of happiness and may come to believe what ego says. But it will not last. The things that were suppose to make us happy...change, break down, get lost, go away or die. Suddenly we find ourselves face down in the muck of one's own thinking, one's own sad story...one's "stress or one's choices". It's like "Whew. How did I get here? I was doing so good."
Nothing makes sense.
We get ourselves back up...shake it off and once again turn our tired bodies and minds in the direction of truth. We begin to feel presence emerging and feel again like, "Oh! I get it!"
We slip away from mind and all the crazy things it wants us to believe and we settle in the here and now. We are no longer dominated by the needs of "little egoic me". All our roles, our performances, our attachments, our ideas have no meaning. We see that our problems were ever only things the mind created. ...that in reality, without the story we attached to circumstance, there is no problem. There is no need for constant striving, fixing, doing...just pure and simple being. We find ourselves to be so much more than what ego tells us we are. We feel peace and joy and Love.
"I'm here! I'm home!"
Going Back and Forth From Transforming to Conforming
Then once again ego calls, "Come over...just for a visit. No harm in that, is there?'' And we go.
Again and again...we go, come back, and go. We find ourselves in the mud of thought again...get up, go back home, get pulled away again and again.
Back and forth between mind and truth we go. Up and down we move. For the most part...it all feels very "unstable".
How the heck is this improvement, evolving, getting better?
I have to remind myself when I find myself shamefacedly making my way back home after a thought bender...that I am getting better. I am indeed waking up. The fact that I can see that I was lost and am in the process of going back home... is a conscious thing. I am aware that I was lost so therefore I am aware that I am aware. I'm awake!
Sure I slip into sleep again and again...but I keep waking up too. I keep recognizing that for a moment, an hour, or a day I was sleeping. Then I stretch and shake off the sleep and I go back to Self.
Those times lost are getting shorter and shorter as well as less frequent. Those times where I am sitting in presence are much longer and more frequent than they ever were. That is progress!!!!
If I wasn't progressing I would still be face down in the mud trying to make the most of it, believing that that limited perspective was all there was of Life, wouldn't I? Knowing that I don't have to stay in the mind...that there is a better way...is progress too!
Not An Easy Process
It is not going to be easy because though truth, Self, soul, consciousness, spirit (whatever you want to call it) encourages us to transform...to just be here and now...the physical world around us still demands a lot. We are in this world but not of it. Tourists in a strange land...we definitely want to be real and authentic to our true selves and always know where "home" is but we do need to interact, exchange, "fit in" to this physical world too. So there will be a lot of going back and forth between the inner world and the outer until we become so enlightened that the transitions are no longer necessary.
Most of us are not there yet. And that is okay. Wherever we are on this journey...be it face down in the mud or totally free of all of ego...is okay. We are exactly where we need to be right here and right now. We start exactly where we are. We evolve from there.
Our waking up is going to happen...it has little to do with us in these minds and forms we are in. It is a much greater orchestrated thing that we are merely a part of. So it is all good.
The Consequences of Transforming; Of Waking Up
When I am sober and awake ( mean that figuratively :), I am no longer attached to certain roles that I once used to define me ( for several reasons). It makes me feel quite shaky, unsure and vulnerable. I feel more than a little lost a lot of the time. The ground feels unsteady beneath me. I am walking around without armour or the defense mechanisms that once saw my little mind through the day. I do not deny. I do not project into the future. I do not rationalize and blame. I slipped away from my "victim" role which was a part of my life for so long... so self pity doesn't work for me. I don't seek for others to fill me up so special relationships are no longer drugs for me to get by with. Nothing seems to "excite" me greatly...nor does anything "bring me down.". For the most part and probably for the first time in my life my emotions are stable. And that is a strange thing in this world. It feels "strange."
An Example of Changes that Occur When We Wake Up
Yesterday I woke up on my 56 th birthday and it was honestly, to me, just like any other day. I was not depressed over the fact that another birthday meant I was getting older nor was I excited about having a day that honored, "me". In fact...I was confused most of the day. It was like..."How do I do birthdays when I truly do not want to honor the "me" as special?" It was so weird and I found myself a little "cranky" in that confusion. My confusion over "me" was soon replaced by confusion over my new view of relationships.
Later that day I received the most beautiful engagement ring from my Fiancé. My reaction was neutral and calm. It was a beautiful ring; he is a beautiful man; and...our relationship is beautiful but I did not jump up and down saying "Yes! Yes! Yes!" I just commented on the exquisite beauty of the ring; put it on my finger; said "This is so nice!" and gave him a big, sincere hug. That was it...we were engaged.
I am very happy to be engaged but for the first time in my life I know that another person can not make me happy nor can they make me unhappy. I know that a "marriage" will not solve all my problems nor will it create problems. I know that this ring on my finger...as beautiful as it it is...is just a "thing". It does not make me "special". There was point in my life that I believed an engagement ring set me off as "special" in the eyes of society...a symbol that said, "look at me...someone sees me valuable enough to put one of these babies on my finger" etc. Now I truly see the ego in all of that. This ring and this engagement does not "excite me' or fill me with romantic notions. It simply is what it is . Ego is still in the background trying to draw me in ...and yes I may go there some day...but for now...I am awake and in this awake state I am not attached to this ring ( though ego tells me I should be...it is so beautiful) and I am not attached to the idea of marriage. I know I am okay with or without. :) I did choose with though!
Like you, I will fall back and forth into and out of unconsciousness. I will still go up and down but I know that when I am in the most awake state it will be a nice easy ride without inclines or dips. Sure that may not be as exciting and thrilling or as "romantic" as society and ego tells me it should be but it certainly is peaceful. I choose peace. I prefer to move within the world of form knowing I am not of it. I prefer to be transformed by the renewing of my mind rather than conforming to a world that really doesn't make much sense to me...until it does.
All is well in my world
Romans 12:2
Transforming
Wow! This waking up is one roller coaster of a ride, isn't it?
There are these wonderful moments of, "Oh! I get it!"... followed by this awareness of being aware and that inexplicable peaceful feeling that comes with it. Ahhhh! Lovely!
The world makes sense.
Then there comes, out of nowhere, a little urging from ego. It promises that we will find what will make us happy and "better" if we follow it into the doing, collecting, striving out here in the physical world. We follow and may even experience some form of happiness and may come to believe what ego says. But it will not last. The things that were suppose to make us happy...change, break down, get lost, go away or die. Suddenly we find ourselves face down in the muck of one's own thinking, one's own sad story...one's "stress or one's choices". It's like "Whew. How did I get here? I was doing so good."
Nothing makes sense.
We get ourselves back up...shake it off and once again turn our tired bodies and minds in the direction of truth. We begin to feel presence emerging and feel again like, "Oh! I get it!"
We slip away from mind and all the crazy things it wants us to believe and we settle in the here and now. We are no longer dominated by the needs of "little egoic me". All our roles, our performances, our attachments, our ideas have no meaning. We see that our problems were ever only things the mind created. ...that in reality, without the story we attached to circumstance, there is no problem. There is no need for constant striving, fixing, doing...just pure and simple being. We find ourselves to be so much more than what ego tells us we are. We feel peace and joy and Love.
"I'm here! I'm home!"
Going Back and Forth From Transforming to Conforming
Then once again ego calls, "Come over...just for a visit. No harm in that, is there?'' And we go.
Again and again...we go, come back, and go. We find ourselves in the mud of thought again...get up, go back home, get pulled away again and again.
Back and forth between mind and truth we go. Up and down we move. For the most part...it all feels very "unstable".
How the heck is this improvement, evolving, getting better?
I have to remind myself when I find myself shamefacedly making my way back home after a thought bender...that I am getting better. I am indeed waking up. The fact that I can see that I was lost and am in the process of going back home... is a conscious thing. I am aware that I was lost so therefore I am aware that I am aware. I'm awake!
Sure I slip into sleep again and again...but I keep waking up too. I keep recognizing that for a moment, an hour, or a day I was sleeping. Then I stretch and shake off the sleep and I go back to Self.
Those times lost are getting shorter and shorter as well as less frequent. Those times where I am sitting in presence are much longer and more frequent than they ever were. That is progress!!!!
If I wasn't progressing I would still be face down in the mud trying to make the most of it, believing that that limited perspective was all there was of Life, wouldn't I? Knowing that I don't have to stay in the mind...that there is a better way...is progress too!
Not An Easy Process
It is not going to be easy because though truth, Self, soul, consciousness, spirit (whatever you want to call it) encourages us to transform...to just be here and now...the physical world around us still demands a lot. We are in this world but not of it. Tourists in a strange land...we definitely want to be real and authentic to our true selves and always know where "home" is but we do need to interact, exchange, "fit in" to this physical world too. So there will be a lot of going back and forth between the inner world and the outer until we become so enlightened that the transitions are no longer necessary.
Most of us are not there yet. And that is okay. Wherever we are on this journey...be it face down in the mud or totally free of all of ego...is okay. We are exactly where we need to be right here and right now. We start exactly where we are. We evolve from there.
Our waking up is going to happen...it has little to do with us in these minds and forms we are in. It is a much greater orchestrated thing that we are merely a part of. So it is all good.
The Consequences of Transforming; Of Waking Up
When I am sober and awake ( mean that figuratively :), I am no longer attached to certain roles that I once used to define me ( for several reasons). It makes me feel quite shaky, unsure and vulnerable. I feel more than a little lost a lot of the time. The ground feels unsteady beneath me. I am walking around without armour or the defense mechanisms that once saw my little mind through the day. I do not deny. I do not project into the future. I do not rationalize and blame. I slipped away from my "victim" role which was a part of my life for so long... so self pity doesn't work for me. I don't seek for others to fill me up so special relationships are no longer drugs for me to get by with. Nothing seems to "excite" me greatly...nor does anything "bring me down.". For the most part and probably for the first time in my life my emotions are stable. And that is a strange thing in this world. It feels "strange."
An Example of Changes that Occur When We Wake Up
Yesterday I woke up on my 56 th birthday and it was honestly, to me, just like any other day. I was not depressed over the fact that another birthday meant I was getting older nor was I excited about having a day that honored, "me". In fact...I was confused most of the day. It was like..."How do I do birthdays when I truly do not want to honor the "me" as special?" It was so weird and I found myself a little "cranky" in that confusion. My confusion over "me" was soon replaced by confusion over my new view of relationships.
Later that day I received the most beautiful engagement ring from my Fiancé. My reaction was neutral and calm. It was a beautiful ring; he is a beautiful man; and...our relationship is beautiful but I did not jump up and down saying "Yes! Yes! Yes!" I just commented on the exquisite beauty of the ring; put it on my finger; said "This is so nice!" and gave him a big, sincere hug. That was it...we were engaged.
I am very happy to be engaged but for the first time in my life I know that another person can not make me happy nor can they make me unhappy. I know that a "marriage" will not solve all my problems nor will it create problems. I know that this ring on my finger...as beautiful as it it is...is just a "thing". It does not make me "special". There was point in my life that I believed an engagement ring set me off as "special" in the eyes of society...a symbol that said, "look at me...someone sees me valuable enough to put one of these babies on my finger" etc. Now I truly see the ego in all of that. This ring and this engagement does not "excite me' or fill me with romantic notions. It simply is what it is . Ego is still in the background trying to draw me in ...and yes I may go there some day...but for now...I am awake and in this awake state I am not attached to this ring ( though ego tells me I should be...it is so beautiful) and I am not attached to the idea of marriage. I know I am okay with or without. :) I did choose with though!
Like you, I will fall back and forth into and out of unconsciousness. I will still go up and down but I know that when I am in the most awake state it will be a nice easy ride without inclines or dips. Sure that may not be as exciting and thrilling or as "romantic" as society and ego tells me it should be but it certainly is peaceful. I choose peace. I prefer to move within the world of form knowing I am not of it. I prefer to be transformed by the renewing of my mind rather than conforming to a world that really doesn't make much sense to me...until it does.
All is well in my world
Wednesday, July 24, 2019
The Prison Door is Open
The prison door is open. I can leave simply by walking out. Nothing holds me in this world. Only my wish to stay keeps me a prisoner. I would give up my insane wishes and walk into the sunlight at last. ACIM:W:57:1:5-9
Do you get it yet?
The only place we are imprisoned, trapped, or stuck is in our minds and in our minds only! It is our clinging to this thought system we have accumulated that keeps us from feeling true freedom, joy and peace. We just need to let go of our attachment to all the crazy things the mind is telling us...in order to be free.
Want peace? Open up to it...get beneath the thinking to where it is and always was. I begin to understand this peace comes from deep within myself. ACIM:W:57:5:3
That is what I want for my birthday...for me and for the world.
All is well!
Do you get it yet?
The only place we are imprisoned, trapped, or stuck is in our minds and in our minds only! It is our clinging to this thought system we have accumulated that keeps us from feeling true freedom, joy and peace. We just need to let go of our attachment to all the crazy things the mind is telling us...in order to be free.
Want peace? Open up to it...get beneath the thinking to where it is and always was. I begin to understand this peace comes from deep within myself. ACIM:W:57:5:3
That is what I want for my birthday...for me and for the world.
All is well!
Tuesday, July 23, 2019
Do you have the ability to step out of thought and into presence whenever you wish to?
That is a big question to answer. If we have that ability we are awake. If we are still struggling a bit but finding that we are able to do this more and more ( like I am ) we are well into the process of waking up. If the mere question sends us into a tail spin of "WTF(front door)? Are you crazy?" Then we are not ready.
It is all good. Many spiritual teachers, including Eckhart Tolle tell us that there is a dormant faculty in all of us waiting to come to Life. That faculty is presence...the space beneath thought. It will make Itself known eventually. In the meantime...we can help it along...if we are so inclined.
It is not that we are going to get rid of thought or stop thought. That is not the mission. That would be akin to attempting to stop the wind from blowing. Thinking is going to happen whether we like it or not. The mission is to simply relinquish our attachment and our identification with thinking. When we relinquish this, we relinquish ego.
The thinking is not the problem...our believing what it tells us... is. We have created these little 'selves' in our mind...these little destructive egos...with the thinking mind. We use more thinking to keep them going. As long as we feed these greedy little entities with thought, the more we believe they are us. And the more we believe they are us...the farther away we get from who we really are. By that I mean...the further we get from realizing, recognizing, and remembering who we really are.
Beneath this thinking and this ego identification is presence...is being. It is always there, going nowhere. We catch glimpses of it from time to time and it feels so darn good. It is just very hard for most of us to stay there. Ego keeps luring us away with "Oh man...you got to think about this or that! Now this is an important thought! I know you are trying toe get all spiritual like but you really have to put some thought into this over here." etc etc
And we follow...one thought that leads to another thought and another until we are lost in some fairy tale woods we have created. Most times, we are not even aware we are lost. It all seems so "normal"...so "real".
The thing we need to do is simply become aware when we are straying off. We need to become aware when we are getting lost in the story so we can gently pull ourselves back. Many Buddhist teachings on meditation tell us that is all meditation is...a practice that improves our ability to bring self back from being lost in thought to presence...to the awareness of here and now...be it by focusing attention on breath, body sensations or the sensual perceptions of what is going on around us. It is a repetitive act of "reclaiming" attention away from ego and placing it back on awareness of the here and now. We just catch ourselves straying, guide self back, hold it there until we stray again, guide self back again, watch thought take over again, guide self back and it goes on...and on...and on. To the Buddhists this is the most profound spiritual practice. "Spirituality", then, is that simple.
Or is it?
How effectively can you catch yourself straying and then bring yourself back to this moment? Can you reclaim your consciousness whenever you want to? Are you even aware when you are slipping into unconsciousness again?
That is what the true "spiritual" quest is all about you. Can you bring yourself back to Self when you wish too?
Some of us wake up so fast. We can go from being unconscious to awake in a "holy instant" and...some of us... can even stay awake. I keep dozing off. :) For most of us to master this staying awake, however, we need to first recognize the need to do so (few even get here). Then we need to practice, practice, practice.
It is a practice that requires commitment. I believe that commitment is worth it though. Even the few, rare moments glimpsed in practice make it all worthwhile.
I guess, it also important to mention...that it doesn't matter what level of this awakening you are on. No one...and I mean no one...is "more special" than someone else based on how "spiritual" they claim to be. We are all equally spiritual...it is just a matter of being aware of it...that's all. Where are you in that awareness? Go from there.
All is well in my world.
That is a big question to answer. If we have that ability we are awake. If we are still struggling a bit but finding that we are able to do this more and more ( like I am ) we are well into the process of waking up. If the mere question sends us into a tail spin of "WTF(front door)? Are you crazy?" Then we are not ready.
It is all good. Many spiritual teachers, including Eckhart Tolle tell us that there is a dormant faculty in all of us waiting to come to Life. That faculty is presence...the space beneath thought. It will make Itself known eventually. In the meantime...we can help it along...if we are so inclined.
It is not that we are going to get rid of thought or stop thought. That is not the mission. That would be akin to attempting to stop the wind from blowing. Thinking is going to happen whether we like it or not. The mission is to simply relinquish our attachment and our identification with thinking. When we relinquish this, we relinquish ego.
The thinking is not the problem...our believing what it tells us... is. We have created these little 'selves' in our mind...these little destructive egos...with the thinking mind. We use more thinking to keep them going. As long as we feed these greedy little entities with thought, the more we believe they are us. And the more we believe they are us...the farther away we get from who we really are. By that I mean...the further we get from realizing, recognizing, and remembering who we really are.
Beneath this thinking and this ego identification is presence...is being. It is always there, going nowhere. We catch glimpses of it from time to time and it feels so darn good. It is just very hard for most of us to stay there. Ego keeps luring us away with "Oh man...you got to think about this or that! Now this is an important thought! I know you are trying toe get all spiritual like but you really have to put some thought into this over here." etc etc
And we follow...one thought that leads to another thought and another until we are lost in some fairy tale woods we have created. Most times, we are not even aware we are lost. It all seems so "normal"...so "real".
The thing we need to do is simply become aware when we are straying off. We need to become aware when we are getting lost in the story so we can gently pull ourselves back. Many Buddhist teachings on meditation tell us that is all meditation is...a practice that improves our ability to bring self back from being lost in thought to presence...to the awareness of here and now...be it by focusing attention on breath, body sensations or the sensual perceptions of what is going on around us. It is a repetitive act of "reclaiming" attention away from ego and placing it back on awareness of the here and now. We just catch ourselves straying, guide self back, hold it there until we stray again, guide self back again, watch thought take over again, guide self back and it goes on...and on...and on. To the Buddhists this is the most profound spiritual practice. "Spirituality", then, is that simple.
Or is it?
How effectively can you catch yourself straying and then bring yourself back to this moment? Can you reclaim your consciousness whenever you want to? Are you even aware when you are slipping into unconsciousness again?
That is what the true "spiritual" quest is all about you. Can you bring yourself back to Self when you wish too?
Some of us wake up so fast. We can go from being unconscious to awake in a "holy instant" and...some of us... can even stay awake. I keep dozing off. :) For most of us to master this staying awake, however, we need to first recognize the need to do so (few even get here). Then we need to practice, practice, practice.
It is a practice that requires commitment. I believe that commitment is worth it though. Even the few, rare moments glimpsed in practice make it all worthwhile.
I guess, it also important to mention...that it doesn't matter what level of this awakening you are on. No one...and I mean no one...is "more special" than someone else based on how "spiritual" they claim to be. We are all equally spiritual...it is just a matter of being aware of it...that's all. Where are you in that awareness? Go from there.
All is well in my world.
Monday, July 22, 2019
Helping the Youth Carry the Responsibility for the Future.
Among the 5.7 billion human beings, the older generation, including me, is getting ready to say goodbye to this world. The youth has to carry the responsibility for the future.
Dalai Lama
The Older Generation
I will be 56 in a couple of days. I am becoming a part of the "older generation". I still have a ways to go before I have to say "goodbye" but I am getting there. I am getting older. It is hard to grasp that with my foolish mind. Something in me perceives no change, no death of cells, no generation of others. Though it is "acutely" aware of the passage of time before me...it doesn't see me changing. Well...until I have a good look in the mirror, that is.
A Time to Fear, says Ego
Ego is then very quick to pick out the crow's feet, the wrinkled brow, sagging skin, menopausal belly and greying hair. Like a film reel, it reminds me of the many, many, many past events I have experienced...the good, the bad and the ugly. It tells me that I am "losing, fading away, getting ready for the big D." Ego likes to instill fear and it is often successful at doing so. It is not something that makes any of us feel better for very long. :)
I don't like to confront ego in the glass, and not because I fear its message but because it is so demanding and almost impossible to satisfy!!! So I don't try to very often. I never did, even in my younger years. I seldom spent time in front of the mirror. I went without the things my culture encouraged: hours primping and preening, straightening or curling hair, applying makeup and hiding defects in attempts to get the look of whomever was trending then...from Farrah Fawcett to the Kardashians. I was always more of a wash, comb, flip hair back in a pony tail and off you go...kind of person. (Much to my daughters' dismay). I don't look in a mirror a lot.
So I can go on a long, long time believing that though everything around me is changing...I am not. Isn't that strange? Is my mind fooling me?
Being Fooled and Finding the Truth
Yes... my mind is fooling "me" but "I" also see the truth. On the outside I am changing...the "me" is experiencing constant flux...but the "I" within ...that which the ego refuses or is unable to comment on... is changeless. It is that part of me that doesn't recognize the change the collective ego is so aware of because it sees beyond the superficial. It knows I am really not changing. :)
So at this age...an age society fears instead of celebrating because it means we are getting close to the final decades of life expectancy...what does "me' want and what does "I" want?
What "me' wants at this time...
"Me" fears! It wants to hide the physical aging....to reclaim youth...to run from death's grip. It wants a false sense of security in physical things ( pensions, safe housing, money tucked away for future). It wants a healthy and beautiful body more than it ever did. So "me' will work its butt off despite of body and mind breakdown...in order to create some idea of "security" or appearance of health and well being . It is jealous and judgmental of the young. It wants to blend in amongst them instead of standing out. It does not want to celebrate this glorious rite of passage. It wants to deny it.
What "I" wants at this time...
What, on the other hand, does "I" want? I wants to be known. It wants to be felt and experienced...it wants to shine. It wants peace and joy...and truth and love. It knows that it's days within this physical form are numbered , so it wants to make great use of it while it can. It knows that is has matured enough within this body and mind to do just that. It offers wisdom. It does not want to blend into the younger culture where it won't be heard...Instead, it wants its grey hairs and wrinkles to stand out as signs that it is ready to mentor, teach and assist the younger humanity in its own growth. It celebrates the aging of the body and mind as markers that we are ready to do that.
We are ready to lead, mentor, guide and teach! This is what this passage is all about...doing that. It is not about little "me" anymore...is it? It is about something so much greater
Our youth need us...whether they know it or not. They need us to show them the way. And we do that not by judging or forcing or "preaching". We do that by setting an example in this golden age of our lives. We do so by "being" the "I" we all are.
All is well in my world.
Sunday, July 21, 2019
Unsteady Transformation
I believe each human being has the potential to change, to transform one's own attitude, no matter how difficult the situation.
Dalai Lama
I have been seeking to change my attitude for so long now and I still have a way to go. Oh it is changing...there is no doubt about that...I have come so far but I am not "there yet"...meaning only that I am there where I always was...where we all are ...but my mind has not let me completely settle into that reality yet. It is still tricking me and I am still foolish enough to believe it. Well my ego is.
"I" ...my aware Self...is just standing in the background watching 'little me' believe ego's lies and all the things I was conditioned to see as 'truth' and make choices based on it.
Sigh! Big pathetic sigh...lol
But I am so...soooooo much better than I was. I feel the shift taking place inside of me. The fact that 'I' am "aware" when 'i' am not aware...lol...is a sure sign of the transformation taking place. It is just a little draining, that's all. That is not a complaint...I would much rather take the fatigue that comes with change over the constant anx I had before when I didn't realize I needed change.
In this stage, I feel like I am on unsteady ground that is constantly shifting under my feet. I am struggling to keep my balance on it. The sign of growth is found in the fact that I am no longer putting all my effort into trying to get this ground to be "smooth" or to move in the direction I think it should. I am no longer "blaming" the ground[ life circumstance, others etc] for being unsteady. I now know that it has little to do with my peace of mind. My focus is on my own "balance centres' within ...on finding inner equilibrium and peace so I can walk along this shifting earth without falling off. So I can serve without hurting.
I can see myself walking, stumbling, falling and I can see myself getting back up again and again...to continue on this journey. I felt myself stumbling over the last few weeks.
So I ran away from home this weekend. The ground beneath me was a little bit too wobbly for my liking...too many people needing me, too many things asking to be done or changed...and I aid to D. "Take me away."
He did...to a wonderful spot on the ocean where I could reconnect to my inner balance centers a little bit better. It was what I needed. Throughout that time my body made it known how much I needed it: a 72 hour cluster of coronary spasms leading to the need fro nitro five different times. I am grateful for that reminder and I am grateful for the trip. I came home and stepped up on the treadmill of this life I have been given once again and I feel I can hold my own...at least for a while.
Sometimes we need a break as we stumble along this path. Sometimes we need rest, a change of scenery or outside support. That's okay! Not all of us will transform in what we see as a "Holy Instant" ...For many of us it will be an imperfect, sometimes painful, step by step process. We will lose our balance, stumble and fall and that is okay.
We will still get there...eventually! For now...we just need to appreciate and enjoy where we are...wherever that may be...even if it feels a little unsteady.
All is well
Dalai Lama
I have been seeking to change my attitude for so long now and I still have a way to go. Oh it is changing...there is no doubt about that...I have come so far but I am not "there yet"...meaning only that I am there where I always was...where we all are ...but my mind has not let me completely settle into that reality yet. It is still tricking me and I am still foolish enough to believe it. Well my ego is.
"I" ...my aware Self...is just standing in the background watching 'little me' believe ego's lies and all the things I was conditioned to see as 'truth' and make choices based on it.
Sigh! Big pathetic sigh...lol
But I am so...soooooo much better than I was. I feel the shift taking place inside of me. The fact that 'I' am "aware" when 'i' am not aware...lol...is a sure sign of the transformation taking place. It is just a little draining, that's all. That is not a complaint...I would much rather take the fatigue that comes with change over the constant anx I had before when I didn't realize I needed change.
In this stage, I feel like I am on unsteady ground that is constantly shifting under my feet. I am struggling to keep my balance on it. The sign of growth is found in the fact that I am no longer putting all my effort into trying to get this ground to be "smooth" or to move in the direction I think it should. I am no longer "blaming" the ground[ life circumstance, others etc] for being unsteady. I now know that it has little to do with my peace of mind. My focus is on my own "balance centres' within ...on finding inner equilibrium and peace so I can walk along this shifting earth without falling off. So I can serve without hurting.
I can see myself walking, stumbling, falling and I can see myself getting back up again and again...to continue on this journey. I felt myself stumbling over the last few weeks.
So I ran away from home this weekend. The ground beneath me was a little bit too wobbly for my liking...too many people needing me, too many things asking to be done or changed...and I aid to D. "Take me away."
He did...to a wonderful spot on the ocean where I could reconnect to my inner balance centers a little bit better. It was what I needed. Throughout that time my body made it known how much I needed it: a 72 hour cluster of coronary spasms leading to the need fro nitro five different times. I am grateful for that reminder and I am grateful for the trip. I came home and stepped up on the treadmill of this life I have been given once again and I feel I can hold my own...at least for a while.
Sometimes we need a break as we stumble along this path. Sometimes we need rest, a change of scenery or outside support. That's okay! Not all of us will transform in what we see as a "Holy Instant" ...For many of us it will be an imperfect, sometimes painful, step by step process. We will lose our balance, stumble and fall and that is okay.
We will still get there...eventually! For now...we just need to appreciate and enjoy where we are...wherever that may be...even if it feels a little unsteady.
All is well
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