Obeying the Compulsion

 

Let yourself be drawn by the strange pull of what you really love. It will never lead you astray.

Rumi

Here I go with the shorts again and I am not sure why.  Other than..."It seemed like a good idea at the time." lol.

Some kind viewer, more than one actually, suggested that I would get more views with the shorts, leading to more subscribers.  I never really set out to get subscribers...a few views for sure...but not subscribers so much. I just wanted to be able to practice my speaking and my ability to pass on what I was learning in hope of it being of benefit to another. I wanted it to be more about Self than self. That was my mission.

 But because ego is still around, I found myself looking at the numbers much more than I like, and wondering how I could get more.  I already have the lecture hall past full capacity in terms of subscribers, why do I want more? Still, I heeded the advice and even enjoyed the immediate ego gratification publishing shorts offered. I received more views, more likes, and an immediate "I see you; I hear you!" reward for doing what I do here. I got more subscribers. 

When this happens I get all confused about the purpose of my being here doing what I do in the videos and this blog. Ironically, I pulled out a question from the jar the other day that led to this answer and subsequently the short above:

All is well.