Hope's Light

 Hope is being able to see that there is light despite all the darkness.

Desmond Tutu

The sun is shining brilliantly and I feel my heart lighter than it has been in days. I am experiencing...ugh...what I believe is...hope? Something I often dismiss as an unhealthy defense mechanism. Hope... yes...I am experiencing the lightness of hope. I am not weighed down by the heavy clouds that have followed me around for days ( both literally and figuratively) and the weight of "This is it! It is only going to get worse from here" that I was trudging around carrying. I feel a relief of that weight, that darkness, as I look out at blue sky.

It wasn't the change in weather that brought this on (though it definitely helps). It was a requested sign or a few different signs I received from, let's just say, "the universe". I have been praying, intending, asking to be shown a way through this darkness and I got signs that things are going to change for this human...more or less told that she has done the work required and it is time to step off the hamster wheel of effort she put herself on, taking her nowhere. Things are gong to change as long as she stays out of the way with her resisting tendencies.  

So, here I am. Allowing hope...that feeling expereince I tend to discredit...guiding the way.

All is well.