Refusing to Close or Be Pulled Into the Drama

 Consciousness does not have to be pulled into the disturbed mind.

Michael A. Singer

I had one of those weird dreams last night that I knew meant something.  I remember saying in my dream, "This is symbolic of something. I need to remember this!"  I was building some type of a tower with poles or lego bricks or something (spend a lot of time building things with my grandsons lol) and I was closing it in. I heard this voice coming from the ether..."Leave it open! Leave it open!" So, in my dreams I removed the front walls and left the tower open.

Today, I once again reaffirmed my intention to stay as open as I can. I reviewed my tendency to get lost in this tiny little drama this human I call "me" is starring in...just one of 8.5 billion dramas, how I get pulled right in and down to this sad tale, and how I close from everything else when I do. 

I know the reason for my closure..."self" protection. I get into character way too much, believing I am the part I am playing. The past scenes and acts in this drama were so convincing and compelling I cling to the script as I move into the new acts and scenes...ad libing and impromptu acting my way through the narrative based on what I learned from the past scenes.  Man, this human is making a mess of things  lol. 

I need to stop focusing so narrowly on this drama....I certainly can take part in the play but I need to remember it is just a play...one of 8.5 billion other plays. My focus doesn't have to be on it... especially when it brings this experience down so much. I do not have to close to Life as it attempts to flow through me...in the comedy scenes or in the sad scenes. I want to stay open to allow Life to come in and through.  What about you?  

Just as I was saying to myself, "You have to stop thinking about this "me" and what it is going through!", I get a call from someone truly needing my help. Their drama is much more intense and real  than this human's. Thinking about the needs of others is truly one way to pull ourselves out of our "me-me" addictions.

All is well.