Overwhelmed

 

You can't calm the storm so quit trying. What you can do is calm yourself. The storm will pass. 

Timber Hawkeye

I felt so overwhelmed this morning when I woke up to D. taking a call for work. You see, we are supposed to be out of here tomorow and the house is still not ready for us to move in. We had planned on doing so much today. Sigh! After hours and hours of fixing and painting walls and trim...and it looked beautiful and bright...we noticed yesterday that the stackable washer and dryer will not fit through the very small 1960's doorway to the area that has been created for it. That means attempting first of all to remove the trim that has been on there since the build (and back then, for some reason, they used a heck of a lot more nails! so these things are really hard to remove. It will be messy)! If that doesn't solve the problem ...we will have to make the wall wider...which will create a whole bunch of more mess.  I cannot clean the main space and move everything in until that washer is moved into its assigned location.  We cannot move that until the entry is made bigger and until  D. fixes the electrical over there...which he attempted to do on three different visits only to discover the need for this or that which he did not have with him. He keeps forgetting one thing or another and the distance is too far just to "run back and get it".  I cannot clean in here until all this stuff that I keep tripping over is out of here. It is chaotic. And my poor old dog is just overwhelmed with the chaos. I still do not know what we are going to do about her...tried leaving the decision to D. ( technically she is his dog being that he brought the dogs here after his house got burnt down). I gathered everyone together on Friday to offer him feedback to help with that decision...but here we are.  No decision. It will be to make it, I guess, and I resent that being left to me as well as all the packing and cleaning...on top of all the reno work I do at the house we are moving in to. (I kept up with the guys, let me tell ya.) Anyway, as you can tell by my rambling I am overwhelmed and feeling a bit sorry for myself. Sigh! 

I came here to center again. Deep breath....in ....and a deep breath out. In...out...in....out.....

Okay...I can only do what I can do. What absolutely needs to be done to move...I will focus on that....leaving the rest when I am on there.    I will try cleaning around all this for now...maybe moving boxes and stuff out to the step if I have to.  ( If only the weather was cooperating...winter in Canada is not the time to move people!!)

I did not mean to use this as a venting board lol...but that is exactly what I did. Go figure.

All is well,