A Few Internal Bruises

 

You have to expand your ability to handle the vibrations inside of you until ultimately...you reach that state where you know that nothing ever again will disturb you. 

Michael Singer

Physical Bruises Easier to Handle than Internal Ones

I can handle physical discomfort much better than I can handle that internal discomfort.  I played Pickle Ball on Saturday (for fun) and despite the fact that my ticker was acting up to the point I could barely breathe, my face was still so sore, and my body was aching after a few games, I played full out.  Even when I fell landing hard on the ground and twisting my ankle, I continued on.  After quickly checking for a fracture (have to remember that I do have osteoporosis which has been left untreated since April because of the dental thing) I  jumped right back up to play. I couldn't breathe...had a few bruises...but it was nothing.  If someone during that day, however, were to say or do one little thing that triggered one of these old stuffed wounds, I could have become incapacitated by it.  I can tolerate the physical bruises but I have a hard time still with the internal ones.

The Spiritual Mission 

I am on a mission to learn to handle the inner bruises...to release whatever is responsible for them even if it hurts like heck to do so, I am determined to allow for the release of all that junk I stuffed and stored inside me- that which is making knots of tension and physical ailments in the physical body; that which is forming blockages of the energy flow in the subtle body, and that which is creating great big samskara bruises in the mental body. I know it is going to hurt like the dickens to do so but I am determined. 

Experimenting

I am experimenting with how to do this with self hypnosis.  Self hypnosis offers a quick trip into relaxation. We all know that relaxation is the total opposite of resistance.  It is resistance that keeps us pushing everything back down away from conscious awareness when it gets triggered to come up...thus creating secondary bruising and that "sensitivity" to external events. I am sick of being so sensitive.  

I can't expect  Life to stop triggering me. Life is not responsible for my sensitive reactions. I am. It is just being Life.  It is up to me to handle this since I am the one that created this sensitive inner world with all I stuffed and stored and my determination to resist whatever might trigger it. Stuffed stuff, btw, that wants nothing more than to be released. 

My goal is purification. I want to reach the state where I can remain peaceful and undisturbed no matter what Life throws at me. I can get there. I know I can. I can't stop the triggers Life offers but I can cleanse and purify from the samskaras that get triggered. I can stop resisting their release.

So, I can learn to relax instead of resist when these samskaras start to do what they are wanting to do...come to the surface, be acknowledged, experienced  and then released. I am encouraging their release. A self-hypnosis practice might help. 

Diminishing the Pain Necessary for Healing

Does that mean it has to be painful? To some degree, I suppose, what is stored in pain will come up in pain. But...but I am wondering if it has to be as painful as the original wounding was?  Do we have to relive the trauma that caused the wounding in order to heal from it? Do we have to fall back into that dark abysss of story detail?  

I don't think so. We have to release the energy blockage  from the first three koshas: physical body, subtle body, and mental body that is preventing the shakti to flow freely. That is our goal, sure. I don't think, however, that we need to get stuck in the psychology of  memory recall and reliving trauma, (at least not until we have reached the point of learning to be undisturbed by everything).  That might even have an opposite and deterimental effect for many. It is not the memory and specific life details that need to be released but the energy blockage which is just basically a counter energy to Shakti. 

We also need, I believe, to look deeply into our core beliefs. We do not need to know exactly where they came from but we do need to know what we are truly believing and thinking at the deepest level (of the 3 koshas...the 4th kosha is beyond such limited thinking) to see how those beliefs are impacting our lives in a negative way. We need to release and replace these beliefs with more positive and life affirming ones.  This, I suppose, is where psychology might be beneficial.  So, this approach I am working on is combining physical exercise, energy work, psychology (namely some form of CBT),  mindfulness and meditation, relaxation through self hypnosis and, of course, yoga.  Well, it is all yoga from what I can see. 

Just One Step Forward Toward the Ultimate

This process is meant for the majority of us who still function as personalities, who have yet, to transcend beyond the level of  personal mind. It is not the final goal!  The ultimate goal is to get beyond personal mind to expanded mind, of course. For now, for most of us this transcendence begins with the "psychology"of yoga ...taming the ripplings of the mind. As long as we are full of samskaras...resisting and reacting because of them we cannot get beyond personal mind to transcended mind. Few humans are able to bypass this step and go directly into enlightenment. 

So, here I am working on this guided meditation that will hopefully make this process of samskara release somewhat easier. I am still just experimenting. Where do I experiment? In the laboratory of soul research-my own mind. 

All is well

Michael A. Singer ( July, 2025) Relax, Release, and Rise: The Real Work of Spiritual Growth. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X5vOdH_e9cY&list=PLyOuAoSmZkKoESr2acNWwhznusbBkKXsT&index=3