You are staring at the psyche. That is why you don't feel God.
Michael A. Singer
Do you still stare at what is going on in your mind more so than you do at truth? (And no...what is going on in your mind is not truth...no matter how much mind tells you it is...it is just some crazy distorted interpretation of what you are picking up with your five senses.)
I know I still tend to get distracted by what is going on in my mind. Sensory input will come in and my mind is right there during the physiological interpretation process to add its two cents worth. It jumps right in with its input based on a bunch of things I stored...and it creates a big story around that sensory data...numbing out the sensation with its dramatic say.
It is hard not to be distracted. To simply relax into the sensory experience. It is challenging for consciousness not to get sucked into it and the story mind builds around it. Sometimes, that sensory input is literally too "in your face" to ignore, as it was for me over the last couple of days. First it was the eye...and today it is the tooth again ( I knew they were related somehow...involving an irritated trigeminal nerve.)
There was no denying what was showing up on the eye...it was visually obvious... or the physical discomfort of it. That was real, sure. It was uncomfortable and somewhat challenging to deal with, but I could relax into it...meditate even. Consciousness could remain in Its Seat observing the experience.That is, until mind came in with its story. And boom! Consciousness got sucked right off Its throne and pulled into the drama.
Why?
Because the mind's self-created dramas are as compelling and addictive as a Netflix True Crimes series. It is so much easier to numb in front of a TV set ( even if that TV set is in your mind) than it is to experience the real discomforts of Life in the now, which would include the emerging of a bunch of stored stuff we have put so much time and effort into holding down away from conscious awareness. Story telling is the mind's way of coping ...by resisting what is real for that which is being made up. Cra- Cra. Consciousness believes the story line and gets lost in the drama.
Then last evening the tooth thing flared up again. There was also no denying that, let me tell ya. My whole face felt like it was on fire for a few hours last evening. That was challenging enough to handle but mind popped in while the sensory input interpretation and sorting was getting done in the Thalamus with, "OMG! Can you believe this is happening again? You have a valve issue. You can't have infections in your mouth! And you have to wait until June 3 just for a consult...so you can have (and pay for) another Xray that you already had done that clearly shows the problem. What is up with that? That is a month away. Imagine having this pain coming and going for another month. Things like this always happen to you when you present with health related issues, don't they? Why does this health seeking crap always happen to you?" And on and on it went....
I tried to meditate this morning but Consciousness kept getting sucked from attention on breath to attention on the pain and the subsequent story. It was the mind's story, more so than the physical sensation, that was so very distracting. I was pulled down into the garbage.
What is the garbage in my psyche and what is the truth?
The Garbage
The garbage is the story line based on stored samskaras related to past experiences health seeking. I have stuffed and stored so much "stuff" inside related to emotionally charged events I didn't fully process through at the time. This garbage became a "build upon" story where one experience was added to another and another and another. Though the events were real at the time they happened they are not happening now...right now at this moment...therefroe they are not truth. My inability to process them turned them into an ongoing story. The story is the buffer that pulls consciousness to the head so I do not have to feel the emotional pain of those experiences in the body or the now. The story and the garbage, then, are not truth. Yet, consciousness can experience this story and get lost in it as if it were...if we let it.
What is the truth?
Truth is what is happening right now in this moment. There is a bit of pain in my mouth...that physical sensation is neither good nor bad (this judgment takes the experience from truth to story). That sensation is truth. Whatever is happening to my tooth now is truth. Whatever is going on in my eye now is truth...without story line, or narrative...it just is. Consciousness can experience this. And Consciousness is, of course, truth. So, we have the truth of that which is unfolding in our experience now, and the Truth of Consciousness witnessing it. That's it. Without story or distraction in between...we just have truth.
If we stop going to story, we would simply experience the now as it is. We do not have to smash the TV set, we just have to stop watching it. We do not have to get rid of the story, we just have to stop believing it. We do not have to kill off the psyche, we just have to stop staring at it. We do not have to trample down the self with Self, we just have to realize which Self we are.Then, we would experience the truth of Consciousness. Then, we would live our lives the way we are meant to. Then we would experience God.
It is not about getting rid of what you are looking at...you just have to stop looking at it...it is all about not being pulled down into the garbage while you are doing your life.
Pretty cool, eh?
Note: After listening to Michael Singer's podcast this morning, I quickly reviewed what was read in the last 24 and this entry from Jan 26, 2023 came up. Coincidence?
https://dale-lynwritin.blogspot.com/2023/01/drift-back.html
Anyway, all is well!
Michael A. Singer/ Temple of the Universe/ Sounds True ( May 8, 2025) Returning to the seat of Consciousness. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dS_Eb9hsMtE&list=PLyOuAoSmZkKoESr2acNWwhznusbBkKXsT&index=1
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