Truth Beyond self

 Step back away from yourself and you will see truth better than if you look at yourself.

Michael A. Singer

Caught this human I call me again following the ego part of its mind into reactivity. I discovered last night how very sensitive I am lately as this big samskara of not being enough as a friend makes its way out of me.  Most of it is out already, but there are  still tentacles clinging by their suckers to the heart's open door. I noticed it activated last night when I wasn't being heard by a friend as I spoke. Ego got louder and louder, and this human I call 'me' got more and more annoyed, more and more hurt, more and more determined to make this person hear me. I went from identifying as the hurt human trying to be heard in a friendly conversation to pulling back and watching what was going on and what this human was experiencing and doing.  I felt annoyed and hurt in one moment...I watched this human experience annoyance and hurt in another. I got pulled in again...I pulled mySelf out again. I was a loud, semi obnoxious ego raising its voice and making sure it was heard in one second and in the next second I was calmly detached watching it all go down. Then somewhere in that experience I decided to stay where I was...to not follow ego.  So I zipped my lips and just sat where I was listening. It was a strange experience but every experience like this helps us to see what the mind does and proves the fact that we do not have to follow the mind!  Truth is found beyond the mind, beyound the self. 

All is well!