You can't go up as long as that thing[samskara] is holding you down.
Michael A. Singer
I agree with Michael A. Singer as I listen to this morning's podcast. Spirituality is not about feeling good all the time and never experiencing difficulty....it is about how we handle life when things are not feeling so good and how we handle reality when difficulty arises. Can you live the teachings in time of difficulty?
I am trying to, but it isn't always easy. My heart is breaking with all the things I am dealing with, and I just want to protect it. I want to scream in protest over the slander and defamation of a loved one's character I am constantly being made aware of by certain others. It has been brought to my attention that unjust accusations, lies, and self righteous judgement is being spread through the community. This often, apparently, goes on in professional settings. Though this loved one is responsible for what they have done in the past, for how unwholesomely they ended a relationship, and for how quickly they have started another...there is no fact or evidence associated with why this individual is not fit to have their children. So past mistakes are being used in a very repetitive and unwholesome way so these individuals who have this idea that they know more, are somehow brighter, more ethical and moral, and more capable than me and my loved ones can have control of the situation. It is like OMG...open your eyes and see what you refused and denied to yourself before. Stop judging, stop creating story and look at the truth. I know what the truth is. I have evidence and am collecting more and that, if anything only puts these individuals in a very negative light. I can empathize with their pain and their concern. I can but this goes beyond what is morally 'wholesome'. I have no choice but to fight and use the evidence I collected if I have to to defend this truth. I believe in truth. I am not denying, suppressing any reality because it would make it more comfortable inside here for me...I am beyond all that. I took every concern to heart and investigated it. I objectively looked at both sides (though I could not help but be somewhat bias). I find myself concluding that what they are doing is not fair. It is not morally right, and it is not fair to anyone. Then, I put away my judgements and say...it is what it is. I don't want this battle. I don't...but I have to stand up and deal with this. Where am I going to get the energy to do that?
I want to put my energy where it is needed most? Is that at the side of a dying loved one, in the support of other suffering beings in my household, my own health, these personal things I am trying to accomplish here (writing etc), trying to make an income so I don't go belly under, or on the battlefield? (I am reminded all of a sudden of what Lord Krishna said to Arjuna before He sent him out on the battlefield.)
There is nothing more auspicious for a warrior than a righteous war. Only the fortunate warriors, O Arjuna, get such an opportunity for an onsaught war that is like an open door to heaven. (Gita:3:1, Humanities Libre Text)
Right now, I am trying to deal with it all. Am I bothered? Yeah
So where do I start dealing with all this stuff? Definitely not on the battlefield though I will go there when it is time.
I start with me...inside me. I am bothered. And I am closing my heart. All these things happening at once are showing me that I still have some work to do. The real question isn't what do I do about all these things Life is throwing in my direction. How do I make it stop? The real question is: What have I still got inside me that all this stuff is bumping against?
As long as those samskaras are inside us, we will not feel the real love within that makes us who we really are. We will constantly be closing to that love beneath the blockage because we are constantly selecting what should come in and what should stay out ( preferring). We will not go higher. Hmm!
For the sake of holistic wellness (which includes a certain degree of spiritual freedom in this lifetime) we need to learn to accept all that Life gives us or shows us by simply staying open as we do. We do not ask the lower energies within us to relax (this worry, anxiety, grief, pain, and pressure I am feeling now); we learn to relax in the face of these lower energies and stay open!!
Spirituality is all about getting rid of the stuff inside you. It is about can you handle reality. ...It is about letting go of ego self...that which you built around your real self...("the masquerading self"' as it is termed by Yogananda).
We tend to build a 'me' out of our past experiences, don't we?
The thing is there really is no "bad" experience or no "good" experience. There is just all these amazing lessons that will help us to let go of this 'me' we built so the real being can shine through...so shakti is released and the love that is who we are has a chance to flow freely.
Michael A. Singer reminds us to use everything...so called "good" or so called "bad" ...as a tool to go to God.
He also reminds us we don't need to dwell in guilt about things we have done in the past when we were unconscious. Instead of guilt and shame, we should ask ourselves, "Would I do that again? " If we can say no, with gusto, we can rejoice in the fact that we can look back and see how much we have grown, that we can now see the so called "wrongfulness" or unskillfulness of that which we were feeling guilty about. That unconscious, hurtful, or unwholesome thing we participated in, has led to a certain degree of growth. Put away the guilt for celebration.
My loved one now says with gusto that they wouldn't repeat the mistakes of the past. I believe the sincerity in that answer.
We don't need guilt and shame! If, however, you go out right now, Michael Singer says, and maliciously commit some hurtful action against another...by all means feel guilt.
The same thing with resentment. We need to embrace the reality of what has happened in the past that has hurt us...the people, the events, the situation...see it for what it is and was: a wonderful learning tool, a catalyst for growth and change, something that took us closer to God.
Learn to appreciate the things in life that help you to grow!
That doesn't mean we don't deal or do something about stuff that happens...it means we always deal with our selves first. We recognize what is happening as reality, noticing what is happening inside us as we do. We observe our reactive tendencies etc. We do our best then to use this situation to help us to grow which is equivalent to letting go.
"I am going through this situation, and I am intending that when I go to bed tonight there will be less 'me' inside me than there was when I got up this morning."
That is a mantra I am going to keep repeating to myself.
At the same time, we need to have compassion for the fact that that being inside us is a mess because we made it a mess. It wasn't the other person or that thing out there...it was us. Whatever they are doing or saying, whatever is happening, is just happening and that happening is knocking at our closed hearts saying "Let me in". Our broken little me identities are hiding in that mess terrified of whatever is out there. They locked the door and locked our love and our ability to live fully, healthily, and with the abundant love that we are inside. We are not a mess because we are overly defective humans (all humans are defective in this way). We simply shut the doors to our heart to avoid pain. We need to have compassion for that little me that shuts the door!
When we shut the door, however, all the stuff we stored inside that is making a mess and making us 'sick' can't get out. We are weighed down by these lower energies and we cannot go higher until they are gone. We need to accept what is happening 'out there' and keep the door open so the stuff 'in here' can be released.
If something is getting hit that is good..."I love growth"
I am constantly getting hit but I am determined to stay open. I am determined to use these so-called challenges to take me higher. I am determined to grow through this because I do love growth. I am determined to let go of this 'me' that holds me down.
After all,
"I took birth to go to God. My purpose is to leave this Earth with less than I came down in."
All is well in my world.
Michael A. Singer/ Sounds True/ Temple of the Universe ( ) Beyond the Barriers: Reclaiming Your Inner Esctasy. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZI-wV6ESBkM&list=PLyOuAoSmZkKoESr2acNWwhznusbBkKXsT&index=7
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