Interacting With What Is Showing Up Now

 What is the best way to interact with this situation?

What it means to be here now is not to be there then.

Michael A. Singer

I have a hard time when I hear people talking about consciousness and thought saying that we create our own reality.  I can't help but say, "I created this mess? I am responsible or "to blame" for this? What is wrong with me?"  And oh the pressure I feel...the guilt and shame.  "I have to change my thinking before I hurt anyone else." 

I much rather say to myself, "This is just reality unfolding in front of me and it is the result of many different varibles that have little to do with me.  I am not responsible for it.  I have little control over it.  All I have to do is surrender to it...accept it, embrace it and learn from it."

I don't want to feel self blame for the way things  in my life are unfolding: challenge, challenge, and more challenge when it isn't meant to be this way...that is is a result merely of my mixed up thinking.  

I have no problem observing and accepting and saying to myself, "Oh this is what Life is throwing in my direction.  Alright...I will accept it and grow because of it. I will do the best that I can with this and observe what comes back without attachment to outcome." 

I don't know...I just don't want to think that my years of inner disturbance and my mixed up thinking is the cause of all I am observing in Life.  I know it definitely has some karmic effect because thought leads to feeling...feeling leads to action ....but 

When others are suffering around me and to think that I am not only helpless in helping them...I am the cause of it...is just too much.

I have to think of that.

This will help me go to God...noticing that I have some imbalance inside me.

All is well.