Who can make the muddy water clear? Let it become still, and it will eventually become clear.
-LaoTzu(verse 15 as translated by James Legge)
I feel like I have abandoned my best friend by not coming here every morning. Wow! It truly is an important part of my life experience. Still away dealing with the crisis and it is just too hard to write and think clearly. This iPad makes the process more challenging lol. Things are really looking up though so I will be back.
All is well.
Monday, March 18, 2019
Friday, March 15, 2019
It is better to leave a vessel unfilled, than it is to attempt to carry it when it is full
Lao Tzu
Four O'Clock in the morning and it looks like it is going to be another sleepless night....that song comes to mind whenever I lay awake around this time. I don't mind sleeplessness too much as long as I have the opportunity to give into my need to write. Aren't most writers insomniacs?
Sigh... I have a lot on my mind...besides how frustrating it is to try to write on an IPad.
We have a loved one going for major surgery tomorrow and his life is literally dependent on the success of this surgery. Then there is one major recovery after another to follow. We can't look that far ahead though. Just one day at a time. And on this day I am awake at four in the morning thinking about him, his father and a loved one at home who is still struggling and I am sad. I am sad but I am accepting. Acceptance is an amazing thing. It simply is what it is..are words that heal.
The last few days I got to know him all over again...I mean really know him beneath all that junk that gets in the way. How beautiful and amazing people are when they are stripped down to their most precious vulnerable states. Then I watched amazing medical and nursing staff do what they do...reaching in beyond all the outer stuff and seeing and treating him 'wholly'and my heart just got so much bigger ( not in the bad way...no we don't need another case of cardiomegaly to deal with). I have faith in humanity again. :)
I read verse nine of the Tao... So beautiful. Lighten the load by not clinging or attempting to have everything. That is reassuring advice being that my vessel is pretty darned empty. What is important is breath and life. I pray that it continues for that lovely young man tomorrow and that he is able to transcend the challenges ahead...to heal in all the ways he needs to heal...so that he can someday help lighten the load of someone else.
All is well because it simply is what it is.
Lao Tzu
Four O'Clock in the morning and it looks like it is going to be another sleepless night....that song comes to mind whenever I lay awake around this time. I don't mind sleeplessness too much as long as I have the opportunity to give into my need to write. Aren't most writers insomniacs?
Sigh... I have a lot on my mind...besides how frustrating it is to try to write on an IPad.
We have a loved one going for major surgery tomorrow and his life is literally dependent on the success of this surgery. Then there is one major recovery after another to follow. We can't look that far ahead though. Just one day at a time. And on this day I am awake at four in the morning thinking about him, his father and a loved one at home who is still struggling and I am sad. I am sad but I am accepting. Acceptance is an amazing thing. It simply is what it is..are words that heal.
The last few days I got to know him all over again...I mean really know him beneath all that junk that gets in the way. How beautiful and amazing people are when they are stripped down to their most precious vulnerable states. Then I watched amazing medical and nursing staff do what they do...reaching in beyond all the outer stuff and seeing and treating him 'wholly'and my heart just got so much bigger ( not in the bad way...no we don't need another case of cardiomegaly to deal with). I have faith in humanity again. :)
I read verse nine of the Tao... So beautiful. Lighten the load by not clinging or attempting to have everything. That is reassuring advice being that my vessel is pretty darned empty. What is important is breath and life. I pray that it continues for that lovely young man tomorrow and that he is able to transcend the challenges ahead...to heal in all the ways he needs to heal...so that he can someday help lighten the load of someone else.
All is well because it simply is what it is.
Sunday, March 10, 2019
Suffering Exists
I really really get the first noble truth of Buddhism after today...suffering exists!
And I am not just talking about my petty little suffering.... But the suffering of all humans...today I witnessed the epitome of self induced suffering and it broke my heart and left me shaking to the core. How far we can fall, how hard we can land and how broken we can all become. I realized how badly one lost human needed an intervention just to ensure he still breathed...and thought the whole world needs an intervention.
We can point fingers, judge and condemn a certain few for their choices, we can shut these people out of our hearts and minds so we do not see ourselves in that suffering, we can segregate and isolate and do all the harm reduction that is possible....but this will not change the fact that suffering exists in everyone. What we need is compassion and healing and kindness for all those that suffer. Definitely, not more judgment. Suffering exists!!
All is well!
And I am not just talking about my petty little suffering.... But the suffering of all humans...today I witnessed the epitome of self induced suffering and it broke my heart and left me shaking to the core. How far we can fall, how hard we can land and how broken we can all become. I realized how badly one lost human needed an intervention just to ensure he still breathed...and thought the whole world needs an intervention.
We can point fingers, judge and condemn a certain few for their choices, we can shut these people out of our hearts and minds so we do not see ourselves in that suffering, we can segregate and isolate and do all the harm reduction that is possible....but this will not change the fact that suffering exists in everyone. What we need is compassion and healing and kindness for all those that suffer. Definitely, not more judgment. Suffering exists!!
All is well!
Friday, March 8, 2019
Seeing Rightly (through Terracotta Soldiers)
It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye.
-Antoine de Sainte-Exupery (The Little Prince)
Working on a poem that I started here yesterday and because it came out here I wanted to leave here. Now I am wondering if that is a good idea. It is just a poem. I have copy right protection. I can prove that it is mine. I don't want any money for it either do I want anyone else to make any money off it (not that they could lol). Just leave it be...please.
After a wonderful get together with friends I found myself triggered as I was innocently reminded of how much my life has changed, how different I now was compared to them and the person I use to be. I felt like all my usual defense mechanisms and personas were dropping away messily...and I wondered if my friends could almost see them dropping away and if that made them feel uncomfortable. It was a lovely, lovely visit yet a weird mental experience took place in my head. My friends are both absolutely lovely...my vulnerability had nothing to do with them.
It actually has been surfacing all week...that heavy sadness I felt when I got up each morning...and I was just very much aware of it during the visit. Then I picked up these beautiful little Terra-cotta soldiers that were tourist/gift representatives of the ones found in the Chinese tomb. Something happened as I held one in my hand...I became aware of how all our defenses and protection are really not real...but used by ego to scare others away. Being open and raw is not a bad thing.
So the poem came out...but it took more time than usual (hours!!)...I was a bit obsessed with it until I finally finished. Now I feel like wow! I feel relief and release. Is that what was coming up since Monday??? I didn't want to analyze it with conceptual thought so it came out creatively...still with words mind you...but words that came from the place behind the mind and not the mind itself. :)
I guess it is about Seeing rightly.
I will put it here now and do whatever I can to protect it but I will just let it be. If I become aware there is any illicit behaviour, I will deal with it harshly only for the preservation of the written word :) :
Terra-cotta Soldiers in a Perfect Little Room
I feel the jagged little pieces of life piercing through my chest,
pulling away the broken flesh and feeding on the rest.
Bleeding , draining memories, sticky, sweet and wet
drip through tiny holes of me, staining social etiquette.
I stand here awkwardly, not quite knowing what to say,
My mind resisting noisily as spirit pushes walls away.
Do they notice I am unprotected now, open, exposed and raw
As I smile my nervous smile, feeling the tightness in my jaw?
Do they see beyond this decaying carcass with its matted clumps of past
Still sticking to the surface of an image that was never meant to last?
Do they wonder who I am now with all the flimsy veils torn away
Or would it be simpler if I hid behind my burqa for yet another day?
All that remains of my defenses are spilling slowly to the floor
Creating large embarrassing puddles that leads me reaching for the door.
But I do not want to leave a mess behind for anyone else to clean
So like the well trained dogs, I sit and hope the puddles can’t be seen.
Do they hear the apologetic trembling in my scattered broken speech
That once expressed such confidence as I stood in front to teach?
Are my long pauses leaving them wondering what we will dare speak of next
As we distractedly reach for cell phones and the protective wall of text?
Even the tiny terra-cotta soldiers, I know, can not protect my crumbling tomb
And I feel a chill despite the light pouring into this perfect little room.
I now know I have trembled more from fear than I ever did from cold
and suddenly I feel like the soldiers ....so very, very old,
I am not who I used to be, the person they knew is gone
yet my body sits upright and smiles and tries to carry on
the fantasy that I ever was this stranger they once said they loved and knew
with the same desires, goals and wishes, I so drastically out grew
There is so much of me that longs to be here, to just sit within their grace
To speak of perfect homes, perfect kids, the challenges they face,
to talk of their work, their pets and crafts, with life so innocently expressed
but it leaves me, for some reason, feeling stripped down to my naked brokenness.
Thankfully there is no talk of shattered hearts, of loss, or bodies that are ill
There is little focus on decaying forefronts and the externals that haunt me still.
They graciously drop their eyes and look away from my broken ,bloody parts
And do they do so, I wonder, with apathy or with kindness in their hearts?
I know it’s hard to look upon what remains of an ugly broken shell
beaten down, and tarnished, depicting how traumatically someone fell
from ego's pedestal of laurel wreaths and perfect decored normalcy
to the hard cold depth of something else , a world so few want to see.
I want to reassure them it is just the outer that can break
And though it looks so messy, it is just the externals life can take
Clinging and fighting and holding on to remnants will never give us peace
There is something so healing, and so freeing, in the sweetness of release.
Besides ...this ‘little me” they thought they knew is just eschar on the skin
and once debrided fully, the healing light will finally come in.
I want to speak of what I learn as each layer is stripped away
And let them know that though it stings, it is going to be okay.
But as I sit on perfect chairs, beside tiny soldiers, seeking true identity,
I question if they can see beyond the layer of raw and fragile vulnerability.
Who I really am is well preserved and waiting within this wall-less terracotta tomb
Where precious Love shines through to all of us who gather in this room.
I am not sure though that what I have to say is something they would really care to hear.
So I bite my lip and nod my head and I listen, focusing on simply being here.
Then I awkwardly take a picture of us to remember how we used to be
And sadly walk away from the room, the soldiers and the lovely company.
© Dale-Lyn 2019
-Antoine de Sainte-Exupery (The Little Prince)
Working on a poem that I started here yesterday and because it came out here I wanted to leave here. Now I am wondering if that is a good idea. It is just a poem. I have copy right protection. I can prove that it is mine. I don't want any money for it either do I want anyone else to make any money off it (not that they could lol). Just leave it be...please.
After a wonderful get together with friends I found myself triggered as I was innocently reminded of how much my life has changed, how different I now was compared to them and the person I use to be. I felt like all my usual defense mechanisms and personas were dropping away messily...and I wondered if my friends could almost see them dropping away and if that made them feel uncomfortable. It was a lovely, lovely visit yet a weird mental experience took place in my head. My friends are both absolutely lovely...my vulnerability had nothing to do with them.
It actually has been surfacing all week...that heavy sadness I felt when I got up each morning...and I was just very much aware of it during the visit. Then I picked up these beautiful little Terra-cotta soldiers that were tourist/gift representatives of the ones found in the Chinese tomb. Something happened as I held one in my hand...I became aware of how all our defenses and protection are really not real...but used by ego to scare others away. Being open and raw is not a bad thing.
So the poem came out...but it took more time than usual (hours!!)...I was a bit obsessed with it until I finally finished. Now I feel like wow! I feel relief and release. Is that what was coming up since Monday??? I didn't want to analyze it with conceptual thought so it came out creatively...still with words mind you...but words that came from the place behind the mind and not the mind itself. :)
I guess it is about Seeing rightly.
I will put it here now and do whatever I can to protect it but I will just let it be. If I become aware there is any illicit behaviour, I will deal with it harshly only for the preservation of the written word :) :
Terra-cotta Soldiers in a Perfect Little Room
I feel the jagged little pieces of life piercing through my chest,
pulling away the broken flesh and feeding on the rest.
Bleeding , draining memories, sticky, sweet and wet
drip through tiny holes of me, staining social etiquette.
I stand here awkwardly, not quite knowing what to say,
My mind resisting noisily as spirit pushes walls away.
Do they notice I am unprotected now, open, exposed and raw
As I smile my nervous smile, feeling the tightness in my jaw?
Do they see beyond this decaying carcass with its matted clumps of past
Still sticking to the surface of an image that was never meant to last?
Do they wonder who I am now with all the flimsy veils torn away
Or would it be simpler if I hid behind my burqa for yet another day?
All that remains of my defenses are spilling slowly to the floor
Creating large embarrassing puddles that leads me reaching for the door.
But I do not want to leave a mess behind for anyone else to clean
So like the well trained dogs, I sit and hope the puddles can’t be seen.
Do they hear the apologetic trembling in my scattered broken speech
That once expressed such confidence as I stood in front to teach?
Are my long pauses leaving them wondering what we will dare speak of next
As we distractedly reach for cell phones and the protective wall of text?
Even the tiny terra-cotta soldiers, I know, can not protect my crumbling tomb
And I feel a chill despite the light pouring into this perfect little room.
I now know I have trembled more from fear than I ever did from cold
and suddenly I feel like the soldiers ....so very, very old,
I am not who I used to be, the person they knew is gone
yet my body sits upright and smiles and tries to carry on
the fantasy that I ever was this stranger they once said they loved and knew
with the same desires, goals and wishes, I so drastically out grew
There is so much of me that longs to be here, to just sit within their grace
To speak of perfect homes, perfect kids, the challenges they face,
to talk of their work, their pets and crafts, with life so innocently expressed
but it leaves me, for some reason, feeling stripped down to my naked brokenness.
Thankfully there is no talk of shattered hearts, of loss, or bodies that are ill
There is little focus on decaying forefronts and the externals that haunt me still.
They graciously drop their eyes and look away from my broken ,bloody parts
And do they do so, I wonder, with apathy or with kindness in their hearts?
I know it’s hard to look upon what remains of an ugly broken shell
beaten down, and tarnished, depicting how traumatically someone fell
from ego's pedestal of laurel wreaths and perfect decored normalcy
to the hard cold depth of something else , a world so few want to see.
I want to reassure them it is just the outer that can break
And though it looks so messy, it is just the externals life can take
Clinging and fighting and holding on to remnants will never give us peace
There is something so healing, and so freeing, in the sweetness of release.
Besides ...this ‘little me” they thought they knew is just eschar on the skin
and once debrided fully, the healing light will finally come in.
I want to speak of what I learn as each layer is stripped away
And let them know that though it stings, it is going to be okay.
But as I sit on perfect chairs, beside tiny soldiers, seeking true identity,
I question if they can see beyond the layer of raw and fragile vulnerability.
Who I really am is well preserved and waiting within this wall-less terracotta tomb
Where precious Love shines through to all of us who gather in this room.
I am not sure though that what I have to say is something they would really care to hear.
So I bite my lip and nod my head and I listen, focusing on simply being here.
Then I awkwardly take a picture of us to remember how we used to be
And sadly walk away from the room, the soldiers and the lovely company.
Wednesday, March 6, 2019
Preparing the Mind and Heart for Peaceful Presence
Today, everything is interconnected. Destruction of your neighbor is destruction of yourself. So please, prepare your mind and heart with patience, knowledge, and skill, so that in the world and in every nation there can be peace.
-Dalai Lama (from today's calendar page)
Hmmm! I have been learning.
An Example of My Learning
I awoke this morning feeling sad and heavy almost to the core. My first conditioned reaction, once I realized how I was feeling, was to build story around it, to use the mind to analyze it , create conceptual reason for it...to give the pain conceptual meaning.
In itself, the heavy sadness was just that...heavy sadness...an emotion I could deal with...signalling maybe that some psychological component of my self was arising. Psychologically, I could understand it but I wanted automatically to build on the psychology of it...and to interpret it, label it, fix it, control it, solve it as the egoic mind so likes to do. I wanted to bring that feeling, that could be felt in my belly and chest and in the heaviness of my limbs, to my head instead of just letting it be.
The Usual Reaction to Pain
That has been my normal reaction to pain for as long as I can remember but I recognized myself almost immediately. I caught myself slipping into previously unconscious patterns of resisting. I was aware of myself reacting right away. So I was able to get beyond the Step One of Knowing Self that I wrote about yesterday. That is quite a thing.
Normally, I would have taken the feeling of sadness to the mind...and I would have worked on being able to see it clearly from that level. I would have pondered over and over again this question, "Why am I feeling sad? What is going on in my outer world that gives me reasons to be sad?' Then I would have begun searching for reasons, focusing on all the things in my Life that have caused pain or could cause pain. I would draw up old painful memories. I would feel even more pain. I would have thought, "Poor me!" etc. Then I would have asked, "How do I fix this or at least what can I get from it?" Then I would imagine telling my story to others, of writing about it, creating more drama and sadness.
I would have basically psycho analyzed and storied myself to death lol. Understanding the whys and hows of feeling and venting is not a problem in itself and even necessary to some extent...but...but...I ...the 'little me'... would have got stuck there.
I would have analyzed to the point of filtering the conceptual whys and hows from the actual experience of feeling and being...which is known as intellectualizing. The more I intellectualized how I felt mentally...the more the feeling would be numbed and stuffed down below the superficial layer beneath all the drama I would have created around it. The sadness would not have been experienced as it simply was asking to be. I would have used up much energy and time resisting the feeling...therefore resisting life in that moment the feeling arose... causing the 'Dukkha' or suffering' component of pain.
Awareness Keeps Us Conscious
But I didn't...I became aware of my egoic reactions before I got lost in them. By becoming aware, I got to choose another option. I went beyond my usual tendency to conceptualize. I let go of my need 'to know' and therefore staid conscious and aware. I simply was with the experience.
Hmm! That little learning outcome was interesting and gave me hope that I am getting there. I don't know where 'there' is but I am getting there because I am 'here'. The more I can catch myself beginning to react and the sooner I can...the more aware I will be.
Commitment to Preparing the Mind and Heart
Anyway...the point is... through the committed preparation of my mind and heart with patience, true non- conceptual knowledge and skill, I got to the point I didn't get lost in my usual conditioned reactions of slipping into unconsciousness...of slipping into the mind when the opportunity presented itself. (Ironic that this type of unconsciousness occurs when we call on the mind, and that the preferred type of consciousness occurs when we get beyond the mind, eh? )
I may slip next week, or tomorrow or half an hour from now but the more I am able to bring awareness into unconscious behavioral patterns, the more conscious I will become.
If I can do it , any of us can!!!
When we stop trying to addictively judge, interpret and label all our experiences or the experiences of others we will experience peace more often. When we relinquish our need to think, do, and narrate we will find the true knowing. It is in the place of peaceful knowing where we tap into who we really are.
Who are we?
And to get back to the Dalai Lama's words...we are all interconnected. When I hurt myself... I hurt another, when I hurt another... I hurt myself. And ...if I offer peace to you, I offer it to myself and vice versa . The same spacious place of peaceful knowing that is in you, is in me, in all of us.
Eckhart Tolle in You Are the Universe explains how we tend to react to people who are present, conscious and aware. We feel relaxed and peaceful around them. We tend to like them and have nice things to say about them. Why? Not because they are anything special or offer anything extraordinary. But simply because we sense that there is no judgment and interpretation...so we can relax without feeling like we are being judged. Peace and judgment do not go together.
True knowing involves no judgment!!! So when we are using that knowing to look at another person, we don't feel the need to judge them. We can see beyond the superficial personality and behaviour of the other to the presence, the same presence that is in us. We therefore help to create a more peaceful world.
Hmm! Something to think about!
All is well.
Eckhart Tolle (2019) You are the Universe. (as linked in the previous entry)
-Dalai Lama (from today's calendar page)
Hmmm! I have been learning.
An Example of My Learning
I awoke this morning feeling sad and heavy almost to the core. My first conditioned reaction, once I realized how I was feeling, was to build story around it, to use the mind to analyze it , create conceptual reason for it...to give the pain conceptual meaning.
In itself, the heavy sadness was just that...heavy sadness...an emotion I could deal with...signalling maybe that some psychological component of my self was arising. Psychologically, I could understand it but I wanted automatically to build on the psychology of it...and to interpret it, label it, fix it, control it, solve it as the egoic mind so likes to do. I wanted to bring that feeling, that could be felt in my belly and chest and in the heaviness of my limbs, to my head instead of just letting it be.
The Usual Reaction to Pain
That has been my normal reaction to pain for as long as I can remember but I recognized myself almost immediately. I caught myself slipping into previously unconscious patterns of resisting. I was aware of myself reacting right away. So I was able to get beyond the Step One of Knowing Self that I wrote about yesterday. That is quite a thing.
Normally, I would have taken the feeling of sadness to the mind...and I would have worked on being able to see it clearly from that level. I would have pondered over and over again this question, "Why am I feeling sad? What is going on in my outer world that gives me reasons to be sad?' Then I would have begun searching for reasons, focusing on all the things in my Life that have caused pain or could cause pain. I would draw up old painful memories. I would feel even more pain. I would have thought, "Poor me!" etc. Then I would have asked, "How do I fix this or at least what can I get from it?" Then I would imagine telling my story to others, of writing about it, creating more drama and sadness.
I would have basically psycho analyzed and storied myself to death lol. Understanding the whys and hows of feeling and venting is not a problem in itself and even necessary to some extent...but...but...I ...the 'little me'... would have got stuck there.
I would have analyzed to the point of filtering the conceptual whys and hows from the actual experience of feeling and being...which is known as intellectualizing. The more I intellectualized how I felt mentally...the more the feeling would be numbed and stuffed down below the superficial layer beneath all the drama I would have created around it. The sadness would not have been experienced as it simply was asking to be. I would have used up much energy and time resisting the feeling...therefore resisting life in that moment the feeling arose... causing the 'Dukkha' or suffering' component of pain.
Awareness Keeps Us Conscious
But I didn't...I became aware of my egoic reactions before I got lost in them. By becoming aware, I got to choose another option. I went beyond my usual tendency to conceptualize. I let go of my need 'to know' and therefore staid conscious and aware. I simply was with the experience.
Hmm! That little learning outcome was interesting and gave me hope that I am getting there. I don't know where 'there' is but I am getting there because I am 'here'. The more I can catch myself beginning to react and the sooner I can...the more aware I will be.
Commitment to Preparing the Mind and Heart
Anyway...the point is... through the committed preparation of my mind and heart with patience, true non- conceptual knowledge and skill, I got to the point I didn't get lost in my usual conditioned reactions of slipping into unconsciousness...of slipping into the mind when the opportunity presented itself. (Ironic that this type of unconsciousness occurs when we call on the mind, and that the preferred type of consciousness occurs when we get beyond the mind, eh? )
I may slip next week, or tomorrow or half an hour from now but the more I am able to bring awareness into unconscious behavioral patterns, the more conscious I will become.
If I can do it , any of us can!!!
When we stop trying to addictively judge, interpret and label all our experiences or the experiences of others we will experience peace more often. When we relinquish our need to think, do, and narrate we will find the true knowing. It is in the place of peaceful knowing where we tap into who we really are.
Who are we?
And to get back to the Dalai Lama's words...we are all interconnected. When I hurt myself... I hurt another, when I hurt another... I hurt myself. And ...if I offer peace to you, I offer it to myself and vice versa . The same spacious place of peaceful knowing that is in you, is in me, in all of us.
Eckhart Tolle in You Are the Universe explains how we tend to react to people who are present, conscious and aware. We feel relaxed and peaceful around them. We tend to like them and have nice things to say about them. Why? Not because they are anything special or offer anything extraordinary. But simply because we sense that there is no judgment and interpretation...so we can relax without feeling like we are being judged. Peace and judgment do not go together.
True knowing involves no judgment!!! So when we are using that knowing to look at another person, we don't feel the need to judge them. We can see beyond the superficial personality and behaviour of the other to the presence, the same presence that is in us. We therefore help to create a more peaceful world.
Hmm! Something to think about!
All is well.
Eckhart Tolle (2019) You are the Universe. (as linked in the previous entry)
Tuesday, March 5, 2019
The Great Mystery
The name that can be named is not the enduring and unchanging name.
So going back to the Tao and what was learned in the first eight verses:
All is well.
James Legge (1891) LaoTzu's Tao Te Ching (https://www.sacred-texts.com/tao/taote.htm)
So going back to the Tao and what was learned in the first eight verses:
- We need to get beyond conceptual knowledge to understand It
- It is not something that can be known with the mind
- It is not something that can be taught or explained with speech or 'symbols'...words
- It is okay if we don't understand it and therefore don't understand who we are.
- The Tao is the way. The way to what we do not yet know.
- The Tao is not a path that can be physically trodden upon
- It can not be reduced to a name
- It is eternal and unchanging
- It is the Creator of Heaven and Earth, what is seen and unseen
- It is the mother of all 'things' (all forms)
- It is not something you seek for and find with the mind
- It is deep
- It is the power that allows all things to spring up
- It is the work but not the achievement of the work
- It is the power that never ceases to be
- It is the universal order that prevails beyond knowledge and desire
- It is emptiness ( open spaciousness= shunyata)
- It is deep and unfathomable
- It is like the ancestor of all things
- It is pure and still
- It appears to have been before God
- It is the space between heaven and earth?
- It never loses its power
- It is free and guarded from obstacles by the inner Self (so it isn't the inner Self?)
- It is spiritual and never dies
- It is the greater mother, giving birth to Heaven and Earth
- It's power is long and unbroken
- It is meant to be used gently
- It is selfless and ever giving thus preserving Itself
- It is excellent like water
- It flows everywhere beyond man's judgments and resistance
- It is home
All is well.
James Legge (1891) LaoTzu's Tao Te Ching (https://www.sacred-texts.com/tao/taote.htm)
The Special Truth
Not inside knowledge, not outside knowledge, not knowledge itself, not ignorance.
-Line from Mandukya Upanishad as translated by Sri Swami Satchidananda in The Yoga Sutras of Pantajali,
Say What???
Okay...I know. All this is getting harder and harder to grasp. But that is the beauty of it, isn't it? We do not have to grasp it or understand it for that truth to be what it is.
It isn't just the Tao that speaks to this idea of not knowing...of experiencing rather than trying to understand the Great Mystery conceptually. Ancient Hindu scripture expresses this as well and Yoga...the ultimate quest for Self...is centered around that idea of finding wisdom beyond the mind.
The 49th sutra of Patanjali's Book One can be translated:
The special truth is totally different from knowledge gained by hearing, study of scripture or inference.
The Tao, consciousness, the cosmic force, God, can not be understood from learning nor can any of it be explained in that way. True knowing can only be experienced by transcending the mind.
And because we are a manifestation of this, we can not understand who we really are until we get past our hang up with knowing conceptually. We are a part of that mystery.
There is an unknown and an unknowable depth to who you are. (Eckhart Tolle, 2019)
Know Thyself!
Tolle explains in, You are the Universe, that there are two levels of understanding this Great Mystery of Self.
We need to let go of conceptual knowledge to reach the ultimate truth of our existence. Christianity, even back in the medieval day, spoke of this need for unknowing. An excerpt from a translation of A Cloud of Unknowing reads
God can be loved but he cannot be thought. He can be grasped by love but never by concepts. So less thinking and more loving. (A Cloud of Unknowing)
Hmm! Something to think about.
All is well!
References
William Johnson...translator(reissued 1996)...A Cloud of Unknowing. Image Publishing book
Sri Swami Satchidananda (2011)The Yoga sutras of Patanjali. Integral publications: Yogaville
Eckhart Tolle (2019) You Are the Universe. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LNuMS-GlDrc
-Line from Mandukya Upanishad as translated by Sri Swami Satchidananda in The Yoga Sutras of Pantajali,
Say What???
Okay...I know. All this is getting harder and harder to grasp. But that is the beauty of it, isn't it? We do not have to grasp it or understand it for that truth to be what it is.
It isn't just the Tao that speaks to this idea of not knowing...of experiencing rather than trying to understand the Great Mystery conceptually. Ancient Hindu scripture expresses this as well and Yoga...the ultimate quest for Self...is centered around that idea of finding wisdom beyond the mind.
The 49th sutra of Patanjali's Book One can be translated:
The special truth is totally different from knowledge gained by hearing, study of scripture or inference.
The Tao, consciousness, the cosmic force, God, can not be understood from learning nor can any of it be explained in that way. True knowing can only be experienced by transcending the mind.
And because we are a manifestation of this, we can not understand who we really are until we get past our hang up with knowing conceptually. We are a part of that mystery.
There is an unknown and an unknowable depth to who you are. (Eckhart Tolle, 2019)
Know Thyself!
Tolle explains in, You are the Universe, that there are two levels of understanding this Great Mystery of Self.
- One important level of knowing your Self is through recognizing your conditioning the moment you are caught in a conditioned reaction. Knowing ourselves on the psychological level is okay to begin with. We can learn to understand our thoughts, emotions and behavioural responses to them We can understand our egos. We can use psychotherapy to help us to do this. The trick, however, is not getting stuck here in the psychological story of who we are. It is good to be aware on the superficial layer but we want to get beyond this layer, right?
- Then we relinquish any attempts to understand with the mind. That is where the above sutra takes us...past the psychological mind. We go deeper into awareness and awareness itself goes beyond conceptual knowing. When and if we are able to completely let go of all the knowing we have been offered from the outside...(the knowing the ego thrives on)...we can then 'experience' the truth of who we really are.
We need to let go of conceptual knowledge to reach the ultimate truth of our existence. Christianity, even back in the medieval day, spoke of this need for unknowing. An excerpt from a translation of A Cloud of Unknowing reads
God can be loved but he cannot be thought. He can be grasped by love but never by concepts. So less thinking and more loving. (A Cloud of Unknowing)
Hmm! Something to think about.
All is well!
References
William Johnson...translator(reissued 1996)...A Cloud of Unknowing. Image Publishing book
Sri Swami Satchidananda (2011)The Yoga sutras of Patanjali. Integral publications: Yogaville
Eckhart Tolle (2019) You Are the Universe. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LNuMS-GlDrc
Monday, March 4, 2019
"I Just Don't Know"
You are still convinced that your understanding is a powerful contribution to the truth, and makes it what it is. Yet we have emphasized that you need understand nothing. (ACIM: Text: Chapter 18:IV:7:5-6)
Hmm! In other words...if we understand it or not the truth really doesn't care. It is still the truth doing what truth does. This to me, is one of the biggest take aways so far in my reading of the Tao. Whether we understand the truth, the Tao, the divine Mystery is irrelevant to it. It still is all that It is. And the thing is...we are not going to understand It with our minds...it doesn't work that way.
How could we ever understand or explain the vastness of the universe...the mystery...what forever alludes conceptual thought...with a few words and syllables. (Tolle...somewhat clipped and paraphrased)
What parts of these first eight verses of the Tao stresses this?
The name that can be named is not the enduring and unchanging name.
Under these two aspects, it really is the same; but as development takes place, it receives the different names
Therefore the sage manages affairs without doing anything, and conveys his instructions without the use of speech.
He constantly keeps them without knowledge and without desire, and where there is those who have knowledge, to keep them from presuming to act (on it).
How deep and unfathomable it is...
...that of the mind is in abysmal stillness
Our travelling the way is best accomplished when we accept that we know nothing and do not try to fill our moments with ceaseless interpreting, judging, solving and doing. We really cannot understand this vastness, this mystery with our conceptual minds. The more we do so, the farther away from it we get. In peace is every breath Thich Nhat Hanh puts it this way: An overloaded boat is easily capsized by wind and waves. Lighten your load, and your boat will travel more quickly and safely.(pg 52)
We need to let go. We need to learn to say: "I just don't know". And be okay with that.
All is well.
You are still convinced that your understanding is a powerful contribution to the truth, and makes it what it is. Yet we have emphasized that you need understand nothing. (ACIM: Text: Chapter 18:IV:7:5-6)
Hmm! In other words...if we understand it or not the truth really doesn't care. It is still the truth doing what truth does. This to me, is one of the biggest take aways so far in my reading of the Tao. Whether we understand the truth, the Tao, the divine Mystery is irrelevant to it. It still is all that It is. And the thing is...we are not going to understand It with our minds...it doesn't work that way.
How could we ever understand or explain the vastness of the universe...the mystery...what forever alludes conceptual thought...with a few words and syllables. (Tolle...somewhat clipped and paraphrased)
What parts of these first eight verses of the Tao stresses this?
The name that can be named is not the enduring and unchanging name.
Under these two aspects, it really is the same; but as development takes place, it receives the different names
Therefore the sage manages affairs without doing anything, and conveys his instructions without the use of speech.
He constantly keeps them without knowledge and without desire, and where there is those who have knowledge, to keep them from presuming to act (on it).
How deep and unfathomable it is...
...that of the mind is in abysmal stillness
Our travelling the way is best accomplished when we accept that we know nothing and do not try to fill our moments with ceaseless interpreting, judging, solving and doing. We really cannot understand this vastness, this mystery with our conceptual minds. The more we do so, the farther away from it we get. In peace is every breath Thich Nhat Hanh puts it this way: An overloaded boat is easily capsized by wind and waves. Lighten your load, and your boat will travel more quickly and safely.(pg 52)
We need to let go. We need to learn to say: "I just don't know". And be okay with that.
All is well.
References
ACIM
Legge. J. (1981) Lao Tzu's Tao Te Ching. https://www.sacred-texts.com/tao/taote.htm
Tolle, Eckhart (2019) What I am means? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tpRshKVMSKk
References
ACIM
Legge. J. (1981) Lao Tzu's Tao Te Ching. https://www.sacred-texts.com/tao/taote.htm
Tolle, Eckhart (2019) What I am means? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tpRshKVMSKk
Hmm! In other words...if we understand it or not the truth really doesn't care. It is still the truth doing what truth does. This to me, is one of the biggest take aways so far in my reading of the Tao. Whether we understand the truth, the Tao, the divine Mystery is irrelevant to it. It still is all that It is. And the thing is...we are not going to understand It with our minds...it doesn't work that way.
How could we ever understand or explain the vastness of the universe...the mystery...what forever alludes conceptual thought...with a few words and syllables. (Tolle...somewhat clipped and paraphrased)
What parts of these first eight verses of the Tao stresses this?
The name that can be named is not the enduring and unchanging name.
Under these two aspects, it really is the same; but as development takes place, it receives the different names
Therefore the sage manages affairs without doing anything, and conveys his instructions without the use of speech.
He constantly keeps them without knowledge and without desire, and where there is those who have knowledge, to keep them from presuming to act (on it).
How deep and unfathomable it is...
...that of the mind is in abysmal stillness
Our travelling the way is best accomplished when we accept that we know nothing and do not try to fill our moments with ceaseless interpreting, judging, solving and doing. We really cannot understand this vastness, this mystery with our conceptual minds. The more we do so, the farther away from it we get. In peace is every breath Thich Nhat Hanh puts it this way: An overloaded boat is easily capsized by wind and waves. Lighten your load, and your boat will travel more quickly and safely.(pg 52)
We need to let go. We need to learn to say: "I just don't know". And be okay with that.
All is well.
You are still convinced that your understanding is a powerful contribution to the truth, and makes it what it is. Yet we have emphasized that you need understand nothing. (ACIM: Text: Chapter 18:IV:7:5-6)
Hmm! In other words...if we understand it or not the truth really doesn't care. It is still the truth doing what truth does. This to me, is one of the biggest take aways so far in my reading of the Tao. Whether we understand the truth, the Tao, the divine Mystery is irrelevant to it. It still is all that It is. And the thing is...we are not going to understand It with our minds...it doesn't work that way.
How could we ever understand or explain the vastness of the universe...the mystery...what forever alludes conceptual thought...with a few words and syllables. (Tolle...somewhat clipped and paraphrased)
What parts of these first eight verses of the Tao stresses this?
The name that can be named is not the enduring and unchanging name.
Under these two aspects, it really is the same; but as development takes place, it receives the different names
Therefore the sage manages affairs without doing anything, and conveys his instructions without the use of speech.
He constantly keeps them without knowledge and without desire, and where there is those who have knowledge, to keep them from presuming to act (on it).
How deep and unfathomable it is...
...that of the mind is in abysmal stillness
Our travelling the way is best accomplished when we accept that we know nothing and do not try to fill our moments with ceaseless interpreting, judging, solving and doing. We really cannot understand this vastness, this mystery with our conceptual minds. The more we do so, the farther away from it we get. In peace is every breath Thich Nhat Hanh puts it this way: An overloaded boat is easily capsized by wind and waves. Lighten your load, and your boat will travel more quickly and safely.(pg 52)
We need to let go. We need to learn to say: "I just don't know". And be okay with that.
All is well.
References
ACIM
Legge. J. (1981) Lao Tzu's Tao Te Ching. https://www.sacred-texts.com/tao/taote.htm
Tolle, Eckhart (2019) What I am means? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tpRshKVMSKk
References
ACIM
Legge. J. (1981) Lao Tzu's Tao Te Ching. https://www.sacred-texts.com/tao/taote.htm
Tolle, Eckhart (2019) What I am means? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tpRshKVMSKk
Sunday, March 3, 2019
Let things be, let yourself be, let everything be and accept it as it is. Nothing more. Nothing less.
James Frey, A Million Little Pieces
Okay...I am addicted to the Tao lol. Just like James Frey in A Million Little Pieces I am transferring my energy to it so I can heal. Of course, it is one of the many things I use to heal from my thinking addiction(which is probably the root cause of most addictions).
There is so much ancient wisdom in the east and it has taken centuries for the West to open up to it. Amazing really. Hmmm! The Toa offers such wisdom.
So what I would like to do, is interpret eight verses at a time. Eight is the sacred number in the East (well 108 is) only because it represents the symbol of infinity maybe? I don't know but anyway. I will do eight at a time. So every few days I will post my interpretations of those eight here.
Please know they are just my interpretations. I read James Legge because he is my chosen translator and try to understand what he meant quickly and from the heart. I often then go back to other translators as well, just to compare. The differences can be astounding! Goes to show what Lao Tzu tried to teach...that the sage should instruct without speech. Words can sometimes get in the way of what was meant.
Anyway here are the first eight:
Verse Two
James Frey, A Million Little Pieces
Okay...I am addicted to the Tao lol. Just like James Frey in A Million Little Pieces I am transferring my energy to it so I can heal. Of course, it is one of the many things I use to heal from my thinking addiction(which is probably the root cause of most addictions).
There is so much ancient wisdom in the east and it has taken centuries for the West to open up to it. Amazing really. Hmmm! The Toa offers such wisdom.
So what I would like to do, is interpret eight verses at a time. Eight is the sacred number in the East (well 108 is) only because it represents the symbol of infinity maybe? I don't know but anyway. I will do eight at a time. So every few days I will post my interpretations of those eight here.
Please know they are just my interpretations. I read James Legge because he is my chosen translator and try to understand what he meant quickly and from the heart. I often then go back to other translators as well, just to compare. The differences can be astounding! Goes to show what Lao Tzu tried to teach...that the sage should instruct without speech. Words can sometimes get in the way of what was meant.
Anyway here are the first eight:
How do we understand the first eight verses of the Tao?
Verse One
We need to understand that beyond what we can see and understand
with our physical forms, beyond what we can name and label with our minds… the
Tao exists. It is the path…the way for
all of us. It a way to healing. But we
cannot get there with our ‘little me’ or ego focus. We cannot understand it conceptually with our
minds …it needs to be experienced as the Great Mystery it is. We need to let go
of what we think we know about it, about Life, about the world and each other
and accept that we do not know.
The world is full of amazing contrast, what we refer to as opposites. Opposites are like two sides of the same coin
and that is okay….both sides are equally valuable and equally valueless. We do not need to judge anything as good or
bad…just accept it for simply being what it is.
We need this contrast. At the
same time we must realize that we make judgments about it in our mind and that
can create resistance to what is. The wise
person doesn’t do. The wise person
focuses more on being than doing. The
wise person goes beyond speech…beyond words and mental concepts to teach. Presence or being with the way is the best teacher. When we are present we go beyond a need to judge
and interpret, to own, to compete, to cling or to do for the sake of
reward, achievement and recognition. We just are
and we allow things to just be.
Third Verse
We must put away our ego tendencies if we want the world to become
a more peaceful place. We need to put
away our own individual desires to own, to flaunt, to be recognized, to be
special or better than…if we want to stop tempting others into self and other
destructive behaviours. The wise man leads others to a state of peace and
social order through helping them empty their minds of tired old belief systems
and conceptual knowledge, takes care of their bodies by filling their bellies,
reduces the power of their egos so they learn to stop resisting life and strengthens
their stability and solidity(their bones). It starts with one mind…our
own. When we have peace and stillness,
good order is universal.
Forth Verse
This verse speaks to the infinite emptiness, the infinite
spaciousness of the Tao. I really see Buddhist like ideology in this verse. The Tao
is deep, unfathomable and a mystery that we will never understand with our
conceptual minds. It is the oldest of the old and came before our understanding
of God (This translation uses the word God…but I don’t know if Lao Tzu would
have. Other translations use the word
…gods, or time etc)
Fifth Verse
Heaven and Earth and the Sage who understands them does not act to
be “good”…they just are. All beings, all things are treated without judgment,
attachment and ideas of specialness. They are treated as sacrificial toys
or humble and useless things (https://chinese.stackexchange.com/questions/13325/the-meaning-of-grass-dogs-dogs-of-grass)
There is a space between Heaven and Earth; between the physical and the non
physical. That space is like a bellows (
an instrument used by Blacksmith’s that expanded and contracted to let air
out). Even when this space is contracted and apparently empty…when we cannot
see it…it is still there and it doesn’t lose its power. And then when it is expanded and working we
can feel the air of it. The more we speak of it and use conceptual knowledge to understand it, the more tired we
become. We cannot understand it this
way. The inner being is always there guarding
the Tao, allowing it to flow freely but we cannot see that or understand
that…we cannot explain that with words or actions. It must be experienced.
Sixth Verse
In Verse sixth we speak of the eternalness of the Tao. This spiritual essence which is the way
tucked into the valley of the physical does not die. It is actually a feminine
mystery…and is often referred to as The
Great Mother in other translations. It is the root from which heaven and
earth grew. This makes me think of the
female womb, the root chakra. It is long
and unbroken, meaning that it is infinite and indestructible as is its power. It can be used gently without force or
masculine aggression…and without pain.
Seventh Verse
Heaven endures forever and earth has continued for as long as it
did because they did not live for themselves but for all beings. There is no egoic selfishness in them. Therefore the wise put away their egos and
put the little ‘self’ last. By so doing they find the ‘Greater Self’, the
true Self. The sage treats the ‘little me’ as foreign to his or herself and the
real Self is preserved by doing so. It
isn’t that they have no personal needs.
It is just that these needs are met because they are not ego needs but
the needs of the One Self. The Tao provides
Eighth Verse
In the eighth verse the Tao is compared to the excellence of water. Like water, it benefits everything. In its easy natural flow it can occupy all
things easily and go to those low places man would rather not go. It does not strive or fight its way there…it
just flows. There is also an analogy of
a residence in this verse. A residence is
a home, a place to live and excellence is defined as suitability. Legge’s
translation teaches that the mind is a suitable place to live if it is still;
relationships are suitable if they are virtuous; leadership is suitable if it
secures good order…actions and affairs are suitable if there is ability and all
movement is suitable as long as it is timely. The biggest take away here is that if we as humans do not fight or resist where
we are even if we deem it to be a low position we are showing excellence,
suitability for life and no one will find fault with us. We do not resist the
flow we go with it. We go with the flow
of Tao.
Well that is what I think and feel anyway. and we know how valuable that is lol...
References or to-reads
Frey, James (2005) A Million Little Pieces Sixth Edition. Random House Canada; Toronto
Legge, J. (1891) Lao Tzu's Tao Te Ching. https://www.sacred-texts.com/tao/taote.htm
Tao Te Ching Translation Comparison https://ttc.tasuki.org/display:Code:gff,sm,jhmd,jc,rh/section:1
Saturday, March 2, 2019
Know Thyself!
I was just thinking about what an amazing time the 6th century BC must have been. So many great, great thinkers walked the planet around that time: There was Socrates in Greece, Lao Tzu and Confucius in China, the Buddha in Northern India. Wow! These individuals stepped out and away from mainstream society, put down tired old dogma and belief, to question. That's what they did...they questioned. They actually traded in the value of conceptual knowledge (maybe with the exception of Confucius) for inner knowing and understanding of the Self. Isn't it amazing that they all lived around the same time?
Just thought that was cool.
I was just thinking about what an amazing time the 6th century BC must have been. So many great, great thinkers walked the planet around that time: There was Socrates in Greece, Lao Tzu and Confucius in China, the Buddha in Northern India. Wow! These individuals stepped out and away from mainstream society, put down tired old dogma and belief, to question. That's what they did...they questioned. They actually traded in the value of conceptual knowledge (maybe with the exception of Confucius) for inner knowing and understanding of the Self. Isn't it amazing that they all lived around the same time?
Just thought that was cool.
...that difficulty and ease produce the one (the idea of) the other....
Lao Tzu's Tao Te Ching as translated by James Legge, 1891
Hmm! I am really flying through the Tao but I need to pull back and go back a little...spend some time on each verse...slow it down so I am not so much interpreting it but feeling it.
The second verse is all about opposites or contrast...how there are two sides of the same coin maybe...one allowing the other to be (if only mentally and conceptually).
So as we talked about struggles, challenges and problems we need to see that difficulty gives birth to ease and ease give birth to challenge. (Of course it is believed that the Tao was written in the period of yin-yang in China which would speak to this idea of duality being non duality.) I have often mentioned how life gives us contrasting ropes of circumstance and experience on which to weave our tapestry. One type of rope allows the other to be seen, felt, experienced etc ...creating texture to our lives. We maybe shouldn't judge one as being good or bad...just being...just springing up and not resisting Life by declining to show self.
Of course, all the things used as examples in this verse involve a certain judgment or interpretation, don't they? : Beauty and ugliness, skillful and unskilled, existence and non-existence (takes me back to the Buddhist idea of birth and non-birth), difficulty and ease, height and lowness, notes and tones in music, behind and before etc). All of this involves a certain interpretation, doesn't it? What you may consider beautiful, I may see as ugly. What a 7 foot you deems as short, a five foot 4 inch me might see as tall.
For some reason, Shakespeare's line from Hamlet came back to me instantly as I read this verse. Nothing is either good or bad but thinking makes it so. (Act II, Scene 2)
So maybe that is why the verse goes on to say that the sage manages all his affairs without doing anything. Without judging, interpreting or resisting Life. He just is and things just are. I take that because of a lack of judgment he is wise and able to serve not because of busy work but because of presence. He doesn't have to get lost in doing. Most importantly, he teaches without words, without concepts. What he teaches goes beyond knowledge, without a need to own or possess all the things that 'spring up', without expecting any reward or recognition.
True teaching, true leading goes beyond the judgments of duality. Seeing them yes, understanding how they come to be ...yes...but not seeking to be recognized for this knowledge.
Hmmm!
Interesting. All is well.
Lao Tzu's Tao Te Ching as translated by James Legge, 1891
Hmm! I am really flying through the Tao but I need to pull back and go back a little...spend some time on each verse...slow it down so I am not so much interpreting it but feeling it.
The second verse is all about opposites or contrast...how there are two sides of the same coin maybe...one allowing the other to be (if only mentally and conceptually).
So as we talked about struggles, challenges and problems we need to see that difficulty gives birth to ease and ease give birth to challenge. (Of course it is believed that the Tao was written in the period of yin-yang in China which would speak to this idea of duality being non duality.) I have often mentioned how life gives us contrasting ropes of circumstance and experience on which to weave our tapestry. One type of rope allows the other to be seen, felt, experienced etc ...creating texture to our lives. We maybe shouldn't judge one as being good or bad...just being...just springing up and not resisting Life by declining to show self.
Of course, all the things used as examples in this verse involve a certain judgment or interpretation, don't they? : Beauty and ugliness, skillful and unskilled, existence and non-existence (takes me back to the Buddhist idea of birth and non-birth), difficulty and ease, height and lowness, notes and tones in music, behind and before etc). All of this involves a certain interpretation, doesn't it? What you may consider beautiful, I may see as ugly. What a 7 foot you deems as short, a five foot 4 inch me might see as tall.
For some reason, Shakespeare's line from Hamlet came back to me instantly as I read this verse. Nothing is either good or bad but thinking makes it so. (Act II, Scene 2)
So maybe that is why the verse goes on to say that the sage manages all his affairs without doing anything. Without judging, interpreting or resisting Life. He just is and things just are. I take that because of a lack of judgment he is wise and able to serve not because of busy work but because of presence. He doesn't have to get lost in doing. Most importantly, he teaches without words, without concepts. What he teaches goes beyond knowledge, without a need to own or possess all the things that 'spring up', without expecting any reward or recognition.
True teaching, true leading goes beyond the judgments of duality. Seeing them yes, understanding how they come to be ...yes...but not seeking to be recognized for this knowledge.
Hmmm!
Interesting. All is well.
Friday, March 1, 2019
Thursday, February 28, 2019
At the Gate
Where the mystery is the deepest is the gate of all that is subtle and wonderful.
Lao Tzu (as translated by J. Legge; 1891)
So what did you think of Verse One? Did it touch you or did you find yourself saying: "WTF(front door)?
Hmm! I don't know if there is a right or wrong way to make sense of the Tao conceptually. I just read it, feel it, then I jot down what I believe each line to mean right off the top of my head. I do not want to over think it...because when we do that we lose the way.
This first Verse , I believe, is talking about the spiritual path which is the way or the Tao Itself.
Stanza One
It states in the opening line that this 'path' is not necessarily a physical path that one can trod upon. Unlike things of the physical world it is eternal and unchanging. What is eternal and unchanging?: spirit, essence, the non physical.
It is also not something that you can reduce to a label, a thought or a 'name' because again it is eternal and unchanging. The Tao is not something we can truly understand and experience with our bodies and minds.
Stanza Two
In the second stanza Lao Tzu goes on to say (according to this translation) the Tao takes us between the physical and non physical realms. Having no name it goes beyond what is created as form to being the Creator (Originator) of form and formless (heaven and earth). We can look at Tao then as God, Life, The Field etc. The Tao is spiritual and divine. It is non physical.
Then Lao Tzu goes on to say when It has a name...when we give it a name ( and therefore understand it conceptually with the mind) the Tao becomes or is the mother of all things....creator of form and form itself. It is earthly. It is physical.
Stanza Three
The third stanza is speaking to where we, the seeker, must be if we want to truly understand the Tao. We need to be without desire. Without craving and superficial seeking. Sounds a bit like the Buddhist ideology, doesn't it? We cannot expect to find it if we want it with the limitations of our human mind or ego . It is too deep for that. And if we seek it from there we will never hear it.
If we remain with desire, with ego craving... we will only ever catch glimpses of its outer fringes at best. We will never get beyond that superficial understanding of it. We will never experience it or know it completely.
Stanza Four
In the forth stanza where Lao Tzu's words are translated as under these two aspects, I assume the two aspects to be the physical and non physical aspects of the Tao, the nameable and the nameless. Possibly meaning that there is no duality...no two...just one when he says it remains the same. It is only when development takes place that It receives different names or distinctions. I am not sure if 'development' here refers to worldly development, ego development, development of the mind or something else?
Together we call them the mystery. So regardless if wed ivied them with our minds and no matter what we call them... they are one mystery. The Tao is a mystery...the world of form and formless is a mystery. Life is a mystery. Of course, a mystery is something that is challenging to figure out, to know and understand with the mind.
Where is this mystery the deepest? Where is there less knowing with the conceptual mind? It is at the gate...right at the gate that leads us inward. We might think that the closer we get to understanding something, the less mystery there would be but Lao Tzu is saying it is deepest...there is more mystery, less knowledge right at the gate. Again...maybe conceptual knowledge is not needed to understand the Tao. It is beyond what we can understand with our limited human minds.
I think of this quote from Einstein:
"We are in the position of a little child entering a huge library filled with books in many different languages. The child knows someone must have written those books . It does not know how. It does not understand the languages in which they are written. The child dimly suspects a mysterious order in the arrangement of the books but doesn't know what it is. That, it seems to me, is the attitude of even the most intelligent human being toward God. We see a universe marvelously arranges and obeying certain laws, but only dimly understand these laws. Our limited minds cannot grasp the mysterious force that moves the constellations." - Albert Einstein(Goodreads)
What lay beyond this gate? The subtle (the ordinary, the plain, the easily bypassed) as well as the wonderful( the extraordinary, the amazing, all that causes wonder and awe.) So we get right up to the gate of experiencing Life and it is there where the mystery of Life is deepest. Could this mean that the mystery is greater in that space between 'thinking about life' and experiencing it?
I really got hung up on that 'and' in this translation. When we read the subtle and wonderful we are not making distinctions between them. We include all Life behind the gate of our understanding. But what if Lao Tzu actually meant 'between'...what if he was referring to the gate between the subtle and the wonderful...that would change the whole context of this stanza wouldn't it? Oh...oh thinking too much lol.
So in a nutshell...what message do we carry away from this Verse? It doesn't matter if we name it or don't name it; think of it as physical or non physical or if we understand it or not with our conceptual minds (well we will only be able to understand it superficially that way)...the Tao which is the way, the Life force within us, the truth, the true spiritual path will always be the Tao...eternal and unchanging...a mystery.
Well that is how I see it. :)
All is well.
References
Goodreads: http://www.alberteinsteinsite.com/quotes/einsteinquotes.html
J. Legge(Translator) (1891) Tao Te Ching by Lao-Tzu. From the Sacred Books of the East, volume 39. Retrieved from https://www.sacred-texts.com/tao/taote.htm
Lao Tzu (as translated by J. Legge; 1891)
So what did you think of Verse One? Did it touch you or did you find yourself saying: "WTF(front door)?
Hmm! I don't know if there is a right or wrong way to make sense of the Tao conceptually. I just read it, feel it, then I jot down what I believe each line to mean right off the top of my head. I do not want to over think it...because when we do that we lose the way.
This first Verse , I believe, is talking about the spiritual path which is the way or the Tao Itself.
Stanza One
It states in the opening line that this 'path' is not necessarily a physical path that one can trod upon. Unlike things of the physical world it is eternal and unchanging. What is eternal and unchanging?: spirit, essence, the non physical.
It is also not something that you can reduce to a label, a thought or a 'name' because again it is eternal and unchanging. The Tao is not something we can truly understand and experience with our bodies and minds.
Stanza Two
In the second stanza Lao Tzu goes on to say (according to this translation) the Tao takes us between the physical and non physical realms. Having no name it goes beyond what is created as form to being the Creator (Originator) of form and formless (heaven and earth). We can look at Tao then as God, Life, The Field etc. The Tao is spiritual and divine. It is non physical.
Then Lao Tzu goes on to say when It has a name...when we give it a name ( and therefore understand it conceptually with the mind) the Tao becomes or is the mother of all things....creator of form and form itself. It is earthly. It is physical.
Stanza Three
The third stanza is speaking to where we, the seeker, must be if we want to truly understand the Tao. We need to be without desire. Without craving and superficial seeking. Sounds a bit like the Buddhist ideology, doesn't it? We cannot expect to find it if we want it with the limitations of our human mind or ego . It is too deep for that. And if we seek it from there we will never hear it.
If we remain with desire, with ego craving... we will only ever catch glimpses of its outer fringes at best. We will never get beyond that superficial understanding of it. We will never experience it or know it completely.
Stanza Four
In the forth stanza where Lao Tzu's words are translated as under these two aspects, I assume the two aspects to be the physical and non physical aspects of the Tao, the nameable and the nameless. Possibly meaning that there is no duality...no two...just one when he says it remains the same. It is only when development takes place that It receives different names or distinctions. I am not sure if 'development' here refers to worldly development, ego development, development of the mind or something else?
Together we call them the mystery. So regardless if wed ivied them with our minds and no matter what we call them... they are one mystery. The Tao is a mystery...the world of form and formless is a mystery. Life is a mystery. Of course, a mystery is something that is challenging to figure out, to know and understand with the mind.
Where is this mystery the deepest? Where is there less knowing with the conceptual mind? It is at the gate...right at the gate that leads us inward. We might think that the closer we get to understanding something, the less mystery there would be but Lao Tzu is saying it is deepest...there is more mystery, less knowledge right at the gate. Again...maybe conceptual knowledge is not needed to understand the Tao. It is beyond what we can understand with our limited human minds.
I think of this quote from Einstein:
"We are in the position of a little child entering a huge library filled with books in many different languages. The child knows someone must have written those books . It does not know how. It does not understand the languages in which they are written. The child dimly suspects a mysterious order in the arrangement of the books but doesn't know what it is. That, it seems to me, is the attitude of even the most intelligent human being toward God. We see a universe marvelously arranges and obeying certain laws, but only dimly understand these laws. Our limited minds cannot grasp the mysterious force that moves the constellations." - Albert Einstein(Goodreads)
What lay beyond this gate? The subtle (the ordinary, the plain, the easily bypassed) as well as the wonderful( the extraordinary, the amazing, all that causes wonder and awe.) So we get right up to the gate of experiencing Life and it is there where the mystery of Life is deepest. Could this mean that the mystery is greater in that space between 'thinking about life' and experiencing it?
I really got hung up on that 'and' in this translation. When we read the subtle and wonderful we are not making distinctions between them. We include all Life behind the gate of our understanding. But what if Lao Tzu actually meant 'between'...what if he was referring to the gate between the subtle and the wonderful...that would change the whole context of this stanza wouldn't it? Oh...oh thinking too much lol.
So in a nutshell...what message do we carry away from this Verse? It doesn't matter if we name it or don't name it; think of it as physical or non physical or if we understand it or not with our conceptual minds (well we will only be able to understand it superficially that way)...the Tao which is the way, the Life force within us, the truth, the true spiritual path will always be the Tao...eternal and unchanging...a mystery.
Well that is how I see it. :)
All is well.
References
Goodreads: http://www.alberteinsteinsite.com/quotes/einsteinquotes.html
J. Legge(Translator) (1891) Tao Te Ching by Lao-Tzu. From the Sacred Books of the East, volume 39. Retrieved from https://www.sacred-texts.com/tao/taote.htm
Wednesday, February 27, 2019
The Tao Te Ching
I decided to read the Tao Te Ching again and to try a different translation. The thing about these beautiful ancient texts is a deficit may arise in the translation of them. To go from the archaic Chinese to English takes a great level of expertise. Much could be lost based on the translator's interpretations.
I decided to try this old version from a real expert. Now I have the added challenge to translate from 19th century English lol.
I will only put a few verses out of the 81 here. This is, of course, Verse One. Just read it for yourself ...see what happens inside you and tomorrow I will give my interpretation of it. (For what it is worth, lol)
1
The Tao that can be trodden is not the enduring and unchanging Tao.
The name that can be named is not the enduring and unchanging name.
(Conceived of as) having no name, it is the Originator of heaven
and earth;
(conceived of as) having a name, it is the Mother of all things.
Always without desire we must be found,
If its deep mystery we would sound;
But if desire always within us be,
Its outer fringe is all that we shall see.
Under these two aspects, it is really the same;
but as development takes place, it receives the different names. Together we call them the Mystery.
Where the Mystery is the deepest
is the gate of all that
is subtle and wonderful.
The name that can be named is not the enduring and unchanging name.
(Conceived of as) having no name, it is the Originator of heaven
and earth;
(conceived of as) having a name, it is the Mother of all things.
Always without desire we must be found,
If its deep mystery we would sound;
But if desire always within us be,
Its outer fringe is all that we shall see.
Under these two aspects, it is really the same;
but as development takes place, it receives the different names. Together we call them the Mystery.
Where the Mystery is the deepest
is the gate of all that
is subtle and wonderful.
J. Legge(Translator) (1891) Tao Te Ching by Lao-Tzu. From the Sacred Books of the East, volume 39. Retrieved from https://www.sacred-texts.com/tao/taote.htm
A True Teacher?
A true Mahayana teacher should be someone who enjoys simplicity, yearns to be anonymous, and as Tibetans would say, hides in solitude like a wounded animal.
-Dalai Lama ( from my desk top calendar for February 27, 2019...Andrews McNeil publishing/Kansas City)
Funny this should come up for today after I wrote what I did yesterday about teaching. Funny that my superficial self would automatically interpret it as something meant for 'me'. lol Still got a big fat ego, don't I?
Let's cut 'me' down to size using the above quote from his holiness.
Teacher?
I do like to think of myself as a teacher. It is a role I identified with long before I began to awaken so it is a part of my personal history and therefore a part of the little 'self'. As I have mentioned before, I believe we are all teachers and therefore I do not claim any 'special' status. So yeah, on a superficial level and on a deeper level I am okay calling myself a teacher.
Am I a 'true' teacher? What is a true teacher lol? I like to teach truth but I don't know truth yet...still learning. I am not sure where that puts me.
I am not a Mahayana teacher. That is, I (as the little self) am not a Buddhist trained in the Mahayana tradition. So I definitely can't own that one. I greatly respect the years of training and devoted practice that a trainee goes through to establish that expertise. I also love to listen to such teachers in the Mahayana and Zen traditions. But...I cannot pin those credentials to my chest. Besides, I look at Buddha's teaching as a philosophy and wonderful way of healing the mind. I don't seek the religion in it.
Simplicity?
I do enjoy simplicity. I really do. I am so tired of all the drama and the chaos...the busyness this world demands. I want the quiet, the solitude and the peace of simplicity. I am not a renunciant, however. I haven't given up all my materials....but luckily for me, my income and a lot of material assets have been removed from my life by circumstance. I can live without.
Anonymous?
Do I yearn to be anonymous? Hmm...I don't want to be famous or even popular...not really. As a teacher, I want the message I offer to be read and heard. As a writer, I do want publication. There are times in the height of feeling bad about myself ( when ego is in charge) I do look to redeem myself with my writing and think ego things like "When I get published, they will see that I had something to offer...they will understand me . I will redeem myself " etc. Silly I know.
I may never get that and that is okay. The true writer in me just wants to write and I can usually push both shamer and redeemer ego off my computer chair when I do sit down to write. So I do not write to be famous. I write to write. In fact, most of my writing is done using a pen name...so I do remain partially anonymous. I am a fairly shy person by nature, so I don't like to put myself out there too much lol.
I do, however, have an ego like I mentioned before and my ego likes to see readers on my stats. I do not feel comfortable with a lot of readers though...but anything around 30, 40 or 50 a day makes me think, " yeah I am getting through to somebody somewhere". (Actually, I am okay with ten or more) I question the statistic calculations on this site...so I never truly know just how many readers I am getting. I went so far at one point of adding Google analytics to ensure proper tracking. Silly ...ego stuff I know. Obviously, I do not wish to be that anonymous if I am doing that.
Hiding?
I love the last part lol. I do hide in solitude like a wounded animal. I am forever using the analogy that I am off hiding in a corner away from society licking my wounds. So that applies. I do like to hide here in my reclusive healing comfort zone. I know I can't stay here but for now, until I am healed, I hide away like a wounded animal. :)
So I don't know what that makes me. And does it really matter because it really isn't about 'me' anyway, is it? It is about the Deeper I...the greater Self that lies beneath all this superficial stuff. Now that part of me is a true teacher. That part of you is a true teacher as well.
All is well in my world.
-Dalai Lama ( from my desk top calendar for February 27, 2019...Andrews McNeil publishing/Kansas City)
Funny this should come up for today after I wrote what I did yesterday about teaching. Funny that my superficial self would automatically interpret it as something meant for 'me'. lol Still got a big fat ego, don't I?
Let's cut 'me' down to size using the above quote from his holiness.
Teacher?
I do like to think of myself as a teacher. It is a role I identified with long before I began to awaken so it is a part of my personal history and therefore a part of the little 'self'. As I have mentioned before, I believe we are all teachers and therefore I do not claim any 'special' status. So yeah, on a superficial level and on a deeper level I am okay calling myself a teacher.
Am I a 'true' teacher? What is a true teacher lol? I like to teach truth but I don't know truth yet...still learning. I am not sure where that puts me.
I am not a Mahayana teacher. That is, I (as the little self) am not a Buddhist trained in the Mahayana tradition. So I definitely can't own that one. I greatly respect the years of training and devoted practice that a trainee goes through to establish that expertise. I also love to listen to such teachers in the Mahayana and Zen traditions. But...I cannot pin those credentials to my chest. Besides, I look at Buddha's teaching as a philosophy and wonderful way of healing the mind. I don't seek the religion in it.
Simplicity?
I do enjoy simplicity. I really do. I am so tired of all the drama and the chaos...the busyness this world demands. I want the quiet, the solitude and the peace of simplicity. I am not a renunciant, however. I haven't given up all my materials....but luckily for me, my income and a lot of material assets have been removed from my life by circumstance. I can live without.
Anonymous?
Do I yearn to be anonymous? Hmm...I don't want to be famous or even popular...not really. As a teacher, I want the message I offer to be read and heard. As a writer, I do want publication. There are times in the height of feeling bad about myself ( when ego is in charge) I do look to redeem myself with my writing and think ego things like "When I get published, they will see that I had something to offer...they will understand me . I will redeem myself " etc. Silly I know.
I may never get that and that is okay. The true writer in me just wants to write and I can usually push both shamer and redeemer ego off my computer chair when I do sit down to write. So I do not write to be famous. I write to write. In fact, most of my writing is done using a pen name...so I do remain partially anonymous. I am a fairly shy person by nature, so I don't like to put myself out there too much lol.
I do, however, have an ego like I mentioned before and my ego likes to see readers on my stats. I do not feel comfortable with a lot of readers though...but anything around 30, 40 or 50 a day makes me think, " yeah I am getting through to somebody somewhere". (Actually, I am okay with ten or more) I question the statistic calculations on this site...so I never truly know just how many readers I am getting. I went so far at one point of adding Google analytics to ensure proper tracking. Silly ...ego stuff I know. Obviously, I do not wish to be that anonymous if I am doing that.
Hiding?
I love the last part lol. I do hide in solitude like a wounded animal. I am forever using the analogy that I am off hiding in a corner away from society licking my wounds. So that applies. I do like to hide here in my reclusive healing comfort zone. I know I can't stay here but for now, until I am healed, I hide away like a wounded animal. :)
So I don't know what that makes me. And does it really matter because it really isn't about 'me' anyway, is it? It is about the Deeper I...the greater Self that lies beneath all this superficial stuff. Now that part of me is a true teacher. That part of you is a true teacher as well.
All is well in my world.
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