As Unreal as the Clothing We Wear

 Yes, death is always painful...but nothing real has actually died there, just an illusionary identity.

Eckhart Tolle

Tolle is speaking to the death of the "me" that occurs in what was deemed by Saint John of the Cross to be, "The dark night of the soul." This idea of "me" is an  illusionary identity ...nothing has really died, just this idea we may have had of ourselves.  It is painful, as I am learning through my own experience in this dark night, not so much like the pain of "grief"that comes with losing someone to death  but in the pain of confusion.  Like "Why is this happening? What does it all mean?" and "Who am I without this "me" identity? What do I do now? "

So, those are the questions this human is asking herself these days. The answers are coming, albeit not all that clearly written or quickly lol...but they are coming.

As those answers come, deeper questions arise about reality and my eyes begin to open to greater truths. Now, I look at the above quote and also think it can apply to the death of the body.  I have friends and loved ones presently grieving the loss of their loved ones right now...one the loss of a brother to cancer, and another the loss of a nephew to a sudden health crisis. I  feel deeply for them as I think about how difficult grief is. (from my own experience with it). With no intention, what so ever, to diminish this pain of grief they are likely experiencing, I find mind asking other questions. 

Why is death so challenging and difficult? 

This answer emerges: Because we believe the death of the body and personality means the death of that consciosness that made that personality and that moved that body. We erroneously see it as the end of the being we have come to know. 

But what if "nothing real has actually died here, just an illusionary identity" applies to this sort of death as well. 

Say what, crazy lady? 

We assumed the being that we loved was just the body and personality...what if these were simply the false identities the being wore while here? What if the formless essence of who they truly are/were  lives on; is still around? The more I ask and the more I ponder...I somehow "have the felt experience" that that is the truth.

This understanding, of course, will not remove the pain of losing the physical presence of what we have come to know...but it may help to alleviate some of the suffering that comes with grief. 

I hold the view that death is rather like changing one's clothes. It is not an end in itself.

The Dalai Lama

Hmm! Something worthy of thinking about, isn't it? 

All is well. 

Eckhart Tolle (July, 2026) There is Always Light at the End of the Tunnel. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vSyMKS7g0NQ&t=425s

Writing and Standing Up to Live with All of It.

 How vain it is to sit down to write when you have not stood up to live.

Henry David Thoreau

Am I vain or am I finally maturing as a writer and as a human being?

I write, or at least try to write, what I have lived as I stand here in this life experience...on very wobbly legs, mind you. :) I try to strip away all the egoic costumes I am used to wearing to create an image and to just be the imperfect, struggling human, the imperfect, struggling writer, and the imperfect, struggling learner that I am. That raw vulnerability and imperfect presentation is unsettling for many. The may find it hard to read this.  It is often unsettling for this "me" that is becoming less and less the driver of this life experience, to stand in Life and write about it.

Whatever remains of this "me" wants comfort and ease, a certain freedom from pain and suffering.  It erronously believes through its conditioned programming that it "should"  get what it wants as a writer: appreciation, validation, publication, payment, notoriety, a certian life style, and freedom from this life it is experiencing now  as it  does what it does. It should also be free from the unwanted:  criticism, rejection, obscurity, poverty, difficulty, and invalidation for what  it offers the world. Somehow "me" thinks if I get what ego wants and avoid what it doesn't want, I will be fulfilled as a writer, and as a human. But as Singer reminds us

Getting what you want doesn't work!

Knowing that it doesn't work, however, doesn't mean we need to pretend we do not want the things we want and that we want the things we do not want, that we renounce, that we stuff the wanting  and the unwnating way down inside us either.

Suppressing our preferences doesnt work.

What about expressing those preferences and aversions?

 Expressing our preferences doesn't work...

Yet, isn't that what you do here -express what you see as your desires and aversions?

Expression in the above, I believe, refers to our seeking and doing to have our desires manifested or "expressed" in our everyday life circumstances, and to avoid our aversions.

So though I write, aware of these desires and dislikes, I try to stay unattached to the outcome of this writing. I am definitely not fully evolved or enlightened, but I have matured enough to know that I will keep writing, as I feel pulled to do, independent of the possible outcomes that will be expressed in the life circumstances this human may encounter. I know now, after so many experiences with desire and aversion in this lifetime, that spending energy attempting to get what I want and avoid what I, as "me", don't want is a ridiculous waste of time and precious resources.  It will never make this "me" happy.  It will simply lead to more suffering. 

"Been there, done that." 

Knowing that, Singer tells us, is a sign that we are becoming mature souls. I have evolved enough to understand... 

If you are okay getting what you don't want or  not getting what you want...you are enlightened. 

Again, I am not sure how evolved or enlightened I am at this point but hopefully I am getting there. 

Go through what you need to go through  ...grow through what you need to grow through...mature with every experience...you actually become deeper because you went through the experiences you go through.

You go through what you need to go through...everthing you go through is for the purpose of  liberation...taking you to God...pulling you up. 

All is well

Michael A. Singer/ Temple of the Universe/ Sounds True (July 2, 2026) There Are No Problems, Only Experiences.

Henry David ThoreauWalden(1854) Walden: Life in the Woods.  Ticknor and Fields.

Thoreau on Not Succumbing to Limiting Belief Regarding Human Possibility

 It is never too late to give up our prejudices. No way of thinking or doing, however ancient, can be trusted without proof. What everybody echoes or in silence passes by as true to-day may turn out to be falsehood tomorrow, mere smoke of opinion,  which some had trusted for a cloud that would sprinkle fertilizing rain on their fields. 

We are all convinced that we are only capable of so much, aren't we? So true to our convictions that our conditioning keeps us stuck in a certain level of being and doing. These limiting beliefs are passed down from the generations before us. What makes these "old people" wiser than us? Why do we adhere to the essaging the passed down and limit ourselves accordingly.

What old people say you cannot do, you try and find that you can.

Do we really know what we are capable of other than assuming limitation based on what we were taught?  

But man's capacities have never been measured, nor are we to judge of what we ca do by an precedents, So little has been tried. 

We really don't know, do we, and it is okay that we don't? Such not-knowing leads us into exploring and experimenting with truth like Thoreau had done on Walden Pond. 

As Confucios said, "To know that we know what we know, and that we do not know what we do not know, that is true knowledge..."

All is well.

Henry David Thoreau/Full Text Archive. Chapter One: Economy in Walden Walden.https://www.fulltextarchive.com/book/Walden-by-Henry-David-Thoreau/

Truth Rather Than This

 Rather than love, than money, than fame , give me truth.

Henry David Thoreau

Hmm! I now know what Thoreau meant by "with a success unexpected in common hours" . He meant that his success, possibly the success we are all destined for if we would only allow such a success, was in discovering the truth of what this life experience is all about; about what is truly important, and what isn't; about who we are etc. In common hours...when we are busy tramping around the busy world in an attempt to satisfy an unquenchable "me"...we will not discover that truth. 

Hmm! I often longed to do what Thoreau did...go out to a cabin in the woods and just "be" for awhile.

All is well.

Living the Life You Imagined?

 I have learned this, at least, by my experiment; that if one advances confidently in the direction of their dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with success unexpected in common hours.

Henry David Thoreau

What experiment is Thoreau talking about that gave him this insight to "advance confidently" in the direction of his dreams? 

He spent two years in a little one room cabin in the woods, on the property of his sccessful mentor, Ralph Waldo Emerson. From that experiment and the writing of it he became one of the world's greatest transcendental writers. (I am not sure if that is what he meant by success but...)

I am reading "Walden" now...well listening to it on a free adio book I found on line. It's pretty cool.

I ask myself, " Am I living the life I have imagined?" Hmm! Big question. What about you, are you living the life you imagined? Are you meeting with success?  

And what exactly is "success?" And what are the "common hours?" 

Those are questions best left for another day. 

Happy Canada day to all fellow canucks!!! 

All is well. 

Audio Books. Walden (Full  Audio Book) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VaME4iHUhSE&t=561s

That Which Observes; Not that Which Is Observed

 By Whom willed and directed does the mind light on its subjects? By whom commanded does Prana, the first, move? By whose will do men [humans] speak this speech? What intelligence directs the eye and the ear?

Kena Upanishad (Verse 1) https://www.wisdomlib.org/hinduism/book/kena-upanishad-shankara-bhashya/d/doc145042.html

This truth is what Michael A. Singer is speaking about in the below linked podcast.

Consciousness is a totally different thing than what it is aware of.

Consciousness is the Objective Observer, not that which it is observing.  We need to redirect our focus, then, from being lost in what we are observing and experiencing to the bigger question, "Who is experiencing?" 

We need to move our focus from all the crazy things we are thinking about to, "What wills the mind to think?" 

Instead of focusing on the experience of feeling "stuck" in a life pattern ask, "Who wills the energy within  to move?" 

Instead of focusing on what we need to say or what someone said to us that seemed so hurtful ask, "What directs our speech?" 

Instead of getting lost in all the things the body is picking up with the five senses ask, " What inner intelligence allows the eye to see, and the ear to hear?  "

We are, according to this beautiful Upanishad found in the Vedas, Objective Observers of Life experience. So, what is that which is Observing this body, this personality we call "me", and the energy that comes first before all things?  

What is the answer to these questions?

God/Brahman /that infinite field of energy that pours through us and all things. 

It is eye of the eye, the ear of the ear, tongue of the tongue, and also life of the life.

So, trace back from what you are seeing to that which is allowing you to see it. Trace back what you are hearing to that which is allowing you to hear it.  Trace back what you are speaking to that which is allowing you to speak it. Trace back all the events and happenings of this thing you call, "my life" to the Source of that Life. We need to focus on the Observer rather than the observed.

We are the observers of our experience, not the experience. It is so hard for us to realize that truth and not to be carried away into identifying with what we are observing. 

It is hard to be objective and not get pulled in. Too often our samskaras get in the way preventing us from seeing who we are. It is hard to embrace the need for purification so we can trace back the source of our focus to that which is focusing. Yet, if we do Singer and many of the ancient masters tell us, we can end our sense of suffering. The mess of perception is inside, not outside.

You are objective outside but not inside. (Singer)

Though there are many translations of verse 5 onward, this is one that resonates with me the most.

Not that which the eye can see, but that whereby the eye can see, know that to be Brahman the eternal, not what people here adore

Not that which the ear can hear, but that whereby the ear can hear, know that to be Brahman the eternal, not what people here adore.

Not that which speech can illuminate, but that whereby speech can be illuminated, know that to be Brahman the eternal, not what people here adore.

Not that which the mind can think, but that whereby the mind can think, know that to be Brahman the eternal, not what people here adore. 

https://moonlightenedshelves.wordpress.com/2013/01/04/not_that_which_the_mind_can_think/

And who or what is this Brahman?

That is the thing...we really cannot know or at least conceptualize what this Brahman is. It's reality is too big for our little minds. Yet by embracing the not knowing, we will come to know the Source of who we are. 

If though thinkest "I know well" it is certainly but little. The form of the Brahman, you have known....Therefore, I think that what thou thinkest known, is still to be ascertained.  Verse 9

It is known to him, to whom it is unknown; he knows it not, to whom it is known...Verse 11

https://www.wisdomlib.org/hinduism/book/kena-upanishad-shankara-bhashya/d/doc145050.html

So much beauty and wisdom in these Vedas 

Please note: Key board is malfunctioning again, and though I try to be careful when I go through again some letters might be missing.

All is well.

Michael Singer/ Temple of the Universe/Sounds True (June 29, 2026) Witness Consciousness and the End of Suffering.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g65HUsEBPNc

https://moonlightenedshelves.wordpress.com/2013/01/04/not_that_which_the_mind_can_think/

Wikipedia  (n.d.) Kena Upanishads https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kena_Upanishad

Wisdom Library/S. Sitarama Sastri (1905) The Kena Upanishad

https://www.wisdomlib.org/hinduism/book/kena-upanishad-shankara-bhashya/d/doc145050.html

Quenns Universit (n.d.) The Kena and Katha Uupanishads https://mast.queensu.ca/~murty/ind4.pdf

Relatively Important or Absolutely Important?

 

Everthing is relative; and only that is absolute.

Auguste Comte

As we advance a bit in this school of hard learning, we begin to make a distinction between what is relatively important and what is absolutely important. If we consider a decision another has made, for example, relatively important to our experience of Life or Life in general, we may just smile, wave a hand, and let it go.  Most happenings in this lifetime could be considered just relatively important, and this will have a remarkable effect on our peace of mind. Life is just one big flow of everchanging phenomena afterall. Most of it is just relative, effecting the individual human here and effecting other beings there...depending on their likes and dislikes... not on what is absolutely significant. We cannot cling to very much of it, let alone control it. We just need to focus on the impermanent nature of things as the flow past us. \

What is absolutely important? The learning, of course, is important, That is what we are here, in this Earth school, for...the learning that will help us to go deeper and live with a higher state of consciousness and awareness, appreciating the interconnectedness, the inter beingness of all things. When we learn to recognize and honor the Oneness of all things ; when we begin to see that Life is not here to serve this "little me" but we are here to serve it. ...the comfort of this human...we see as  very secondary and therefore relative and insignificant; what we, as  this human, can do for others, the world, and Life, however, is absolutely important!

I recently found myself reacting strongly to a decision another has made regarding the property I left in his very capable hands to look after. What they did with the house as far as changes, I saw was of relative importance ...coming and going , flowing towards this human, flowing past. It had no impact on this "me". But when I was informed that a pest control specialist was contracted to remove all "nasty insects" from the yard, I freaked...and did not see this as relative.  As far as I was concerned the conseqences of such an action would be too far reaching to natre, the experience of Life, and to this human's role as steward to the land, to see it as relatively important. It seemed of absolute importance for me to stop this process from taking place in what is still considered "my" yard. 

Most of the passing phenomena of life is insignificant, and of relative importance. Recognizing and honoring the interbeingness of all living things, to me, anwa is of absolute importance.

All is well.

Relaxed Alertness and Not Knowing

Now if you don't understand anymore about what "my life is all about" or "what am I supposed to do?"...that  is usually experienced as undesirable because the mind likes to make sense of things. And it makes sense of things by labelling things with concepts. That is what understanding conceptally is...[This type of knowing] is always limited and it is always one-dimensional...

Become aligned with the present moment...[and ask]...can I become comfortable with not knowing what is going on? 

Relaxing into the not knowing can take us to where we want to be.

Relaxed alertness, Tolle teaches, is becoming comfortable with not knowing.

All is well.

Eckhart Tolle (June 2026) Stop Chasing Awakening...https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JQChRel86vY&t=279s

From Anger to Sadness; From Sadness to Vulnerability

 

...

In the middle of that hardness you will find anger...sit with that...

Go to the center of the anger and you'll probably find sadness...

Stay with the sadness until it turns to vulnerability...

Author Unknown

All is well.

Devoted to Getting Rid of "Me"

 I have devoted my life to the deep understanding that Life is my teacher, my guru. It is putting me through what I need to go through to get rid of myself. 

 Michael A. Singer

This, more or less, has been my mantra for the last few years. As I keep getting pulled into the stuff outside of me and the stuff inside of me, I have to remind self often that it isn't about me.

Other words of wisdom shared in today's podcast.

Ever single person is a person having experiences...it isn't all about me

In order to be disappointed, you had to have appointed something to be a certain way. [Stop appointing.]

You didn't have a bad experience, you had a growth experience.

If you are clear enough to ask, "Can I handle this?" the answer is always "yes"!

Can you avoid resisting how the inside is dealing with the outside? 

You have two choices: Resist or Accept.

All is well

Michael A. Singer/ Temple of the Universe/ Sounds True (June 22,2026) Waking Up to Witness Consciosness. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_xtcfpDQeQU&list=PLyOuAoSmZkKoESr2acNWwhznusbBkKXsT&index=1

Angst

Flame's Angst

Flittering, flickering, fluttering in the window to the Self,

 the mind's flame, a busy dancer, performs a dance of angst.

Ducking from the movement of forms that threaten to extinguish it,

 and following the objects and activities that promise 

to make it glow bigger and brighter,

it bends back; it moves forward; it glows small; it grows tall 

as it dances the seemingly never-ending dance of fear and desire. 

Feeling tiny and at the mercy of another's breath,

or a heavy gust of wind that could blow 

through the partially open window, 

it shrinks and curls forward, hiding its glow 

beneath the veils and shades it covers itself with.

Attracted to that which it assumes will 

make it stronger and brighter...

it puffes itself up, 

flickering wildly to make itself known 

to the moth tapping on the other side of the glass.

It dances its fervent dance of angst throughout the long night.

The busy flame, during its exhausting performance,

does not ponder the truth that

 whether it dims itself to an ember, 

or manages to grow into  a ferocious fire,

it will be extinguished when morning comes. 

If it could only still itself on the wick at its center,

long enough to see that this temporary and fleeting dance 

doesn't need to be for protection or desire.

The little flame can simply experience what it is like to glow,

while it brightens the world around it;

 while it dances the perfect dance

until it merges with the light of dawn. 

© Dale-lyn June, 2026

Again I try not to judge what comes out here.  I was listening to another Michael Singer podcast and it just came out. Certainly not perfect and it doesn't feel all that inspired...it just is as it is.

All is well in my world.

 Michael A. Singer/ Temple of the Universe/ Sounds True (June 22,2026) Waking Up to Witness Consciosness. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_xtcfpDQeQU&list=PLyOuAoSmZkKoESr2acNWwhznusbBkKXsT&index=1

At the Mercy of Conditioning

 Forgive them for they know not what they do...Luke 23:34

Forgive them...whoever it was that hurt you, for at the time of the "doing, the speaking, the thinking" they did not know what they were doing. They were, as Tolle describes, "a victim of their own conditioning."

I love these words: 

You cannot demand that a human being should act beyond their level of consciousness. They can't help it. They are completely at the mercy of their conditioning...they themselves are the victims of their own conditioning....with that realization comes a certain compassion and forgiveness

This understanding, of course, must also be directed towards ourselves when we suddenly realize what we have done or failed to do as a result of our conditioning. We forgive others; we forgive ourselves.

As I think of the unconscious behaviour of others that was directed towards my loved one or myself over the years, I immediately and almost simultaneously think of what I have done to others , or not done, as a result of my own conditioned brokenness. It is an automatic thing that happens to me now. When I think of the so called "wrong-doing" of others, I automatically think of my own "wrong-doings" over the years.  I am brought down , rather quickly, from any high horse of moral superiority I might have crawled up on. Anger towards others, I see now,  leads, to anger towards myself. Hmm!

That, I believe, is a part of our evolution and awakening...to see that humanity is not a finished product. Both the other and ourselves are interconnected parts of that humanity. We are evolving together. To hurt the other, it to hurt ourselves. To forgive the other, is to forgive ourselves. 

It is our purpose to evolve and awaken out of the egoic consciousness.  And if you do not awaken, while you are unconscious, you create suffering for yourself and others. 

Let's end the suffering once and for all. Forgive your brother; forgive yourself. Let's awaken together. 

All is well. 

Eckhart Tolle (March, 2026) If You Grew Up in Chaos, Watch This!https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vpbQ-X_-Cig

Being Okay With Not Knowing

 Be Comfortable in the State of Not Knowing [and with that, the portal to true knowing may open].

Eckhart Tolle

This is paraphrased to some degree. Tolle is telling us that if we can settle into that space of not knowing and the confusion that often arises in our awakening, instead of saying it is "bad, wrong, shouldn't be" while stressfully seeking and striving for the knowing, we may discover a peace that takes us into awakening.  The only place that awakening to that knowing that which is beyond conceptual explanation, can take place is in the now and if we are resisting the now because we are not there and assume we should be...we won't get there. Settle into the moment by settling into the reality of it: At this moment you may be confused and do not know the truth of your experience. That's okay.  Settle into that. Relax into that. Allow that "not knowing" to be.  Allow the moment to be exactly as it is....

The knowing will come when and only when you are okay with what is.

All is well.

Eckhart Tolle (June, 2026) Stop Chasing Awakening. It Will Come When You Least Expect It. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JQChRel86vY

What Is In the Way, Is the Way

 What is in the way, is the way...

Eckhart Tolle

Those are very freeing words of wisdom if we take the time to ponder them, and honor them.

The greatest deal of suffering is generated from unconsciousness

Ironically, it is also unconsciousness that leads us to consciousness by slowly removing that which holds us from it...the ego..

By the Grace of the Divine, the ego has built into it a self destruct mechanism

Suffering seems to gradually erode the egoic idenity.

As the ego gets eroded away by life challenges, we cannot help but to see and realize what lay beneath the layers of ego personality we have worn.

That which we assume is suffering, challenge, or obstacles on our path to realizing who we really are, are also the forces that lead us to that realization, therefore to  that freedom from suffering.  The idea of suffering takes us to the  realization of who we truly are behind the idea of suffering. 

The things in your life that seem to prevent you from flowering, the obstacles in your life, those things are actually the main motivating force behind the awakening.

Words of wisdom , maybe, we can all ponder?

All is well in my world.

Eckhart Tolle (June, 2026) Realizing this will end your suffering. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=auDhu9YReHE

Love, Not Fear

 Allow both the beauty and sadness to touch you...

This is Love, not fear.

Unknown

I am experiencing a great deal of anticipatory grief. My beautiful old girl has an appointment at three, her last appointment. We were expecting this. We actually considered making the call a year ago but held back. It is such a difficult decision for a human to make about a member of another species that doesn't communicate with words to tell us they are ready to go. How the heck do I know it is her time? So we hummed and hawed and held back and she suddenly came around to enjoy another year of food (she loves to eat), drives in the car with her head out the window, walks in the woods, swims in the river, balls to chew (she gave up chasing them a while ago), treats, and lots of people who truly loved her. We said then, we will wait until she stops eating for two days and gets noticebly weak to the point there is no doubt that it is her time. Well, the time has come. She hasn't eaten for two days, can barely walk, refuses her treats, and was not really responding to our pats and shows of affection...that is until she seen me crying after I made the call. She lifted her head up and wagged her tail a bit as if to say, "It's okay. I will be okay if you need me to be. I will stick around," 

I just smiled and said, as if she could understand, "It's okay girl.  You don't have to hold on for us. It is time you got out of that painful old heavy body you are in, so you can run in the fields again, chasing squirrels, and feeling free."  

She put her had back down and went to sleep. 

Sigh! So this grief thing we humans do is all about the willingness to allow both the beauty of the experience we have loving another and the sadness of their potential absence to touch us deeply. Grief is Love, not fear! 

All is well.

From That Place of Hardness

 Just Sit! Notice where you feel hard and sit with that...

Author Unknown

Relax Through It

 Relax through the experience of the energy that you used to resist.

Michael A. Singer

Hmm! That is the message of this time, the answer to most of our so called problems. When will we get that?

All is well.

Just Sit

 Just sit . Notice where you feel hard and sit with that....

in the middle of that hardness you will find anger.......sit with that...

go to the center of the anger and you'll probably find sadness....

stay with the sadness until it turns to vulnerability...

keep sitting with what comes up...

the deeper you dig, the more tender you will become...

raw fear can open into the wide expanse of genuiness, compassion, gratitude, and acceptance of the moment....

a tender heart appears naturally when you are able to stay present...

from your heart you can see the true pigment of the sky, ...

you can see the vibrant yellow of the sunflower, and the deep brown of your own eyes...

a tender heart doesn't block out rain clouds, or tears, or dying sunflowers,

Allow both beauty and sadness to touch you...

This is Love, not fear.

Author unknown

In my renewed committment to meditate more purposefully I created the above video. At the same time, I was reminded of the above words from a gatha or prayer or guided meditation...  not sure what you actually would call this...that I often recite. I am also not sure who actually wrote these words but over the years I have heard a lot of people use them, and too many have claimed them as their own. 

Regardless...this is a perfect recitation to listen to or recite as one is practicing the zen art of "just sitting", as I am once again inspired to do, thanks to an introduction to the way app.com.  I am no Zen master like Henry Shukman is...far, far from it but as a certified meditation and mindfulness teacher, and as someone who has attempted to meditate for many years, I am inspired to do a series of guided practices on "just sitting". Of course, lacking the Zen lineage holding, I encourage you to listen to someone who does hold it. Check out The Way App.com

The first line of that Gatha, or whatever it is, is "Just sit. Notice the hardness and sit with that..."

I would like to focus on that one line. The practice of just sitting is all about being still and noticing what is in your present experience at the moment...noticing and allowing...all of it, including our own internal or external resistance to sitting and resting in the moment. The hardness, of course, is our resistance manifesting as tight and tense muscles, a nervous system ready to fire us into fight or flight at anytime, the hard walls of our selecting and prefering minds that decide what can come into our experience and what cannot, and the holding back from reality. What are we resisting? We are resisting external and internal triggers that remind us of the stuff we stuck and stored deep inside us, that Life is constantly offering us. This very human protective response is like a hardness...a closing off...a creation of a hard steel wall between us and reality, between what is outside and what is inside, between us and that which we are...love and peace. Hmm!

So, that is my next meditation attempt.  Focusing on that one line.

All is well.

 

Beyond Ego to Handling It All.

 Your ego is made up of that which you couldn't handle in the past.

Michael Singer

This is what I am writing about in my book.  How to get beyond this ego we created to the core of the human experience where our wounds are located, and then past that.  It is about encouraging the release of the energy around these wounds so we are free of samskaras.  If we are free of samskaras...we are open and able to handle all that life provides.  When we are open we also give shakti ...sat chit ananda...a free and clear pathway to flow through, so we can experience who we are and Life as we are: love. 

It is not about getting what you want...or avoiding what you don't want.  It is about handling it all. 

All is well

Michael A. Singer/ Temple of the Universe/ SoundsTrue (June 15, 2026) The Seat of Consciousness/ Freedom Beyond the Ego. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6vyOWmHJV6I&list=PLyOuAoSmZkKoESr2acNWwhznusbBkKXsT&index=2&t=1694s

A Chosen Project of Rewriting

 

Books aren't written-they are rewritten. Including your own. It is one of the hardest things to accept, especially after the seventh rewrite hasn't quite done it.

Michael Crichton

I committed myself to finishing one book...well, the rewriting of one book I have previously written to make it more "real" to myself and others. I needed to redirect and concentrate my focus from all the many writing projects I am working on to one. I wanted to take one writing endeavor that I could also focus my "speaking on". (To start speaking again, I need something to direct the speaking on.  Books are usually needed to be recognized in this area by speaking bureaus and such.)This particular book represents my major focus in healing and in yoga: samskara release. I want to share what I have learnt to date with hope that doing so will not only give me a platform on which I can help others, but that will enhance my personal learning journey and my own healing. 

Speaking? Who wants to hear an old woman speak about those types of things, crazy lady?

I really don't know.  I also don't know who will read this book that I will focus all my attention on in the upcoming weeks and months. (Once I am committed to a writing project, it gets most of me until it is done.) I can't think about anything other than the completion of this book in a way that satisfies this "me". Just like I couldn't think too much of the "after this is done" component of the English Learning book or the writing guides for youth I recently wrote and published, or the many completed mannuscripts for novels, other non-fiction, and poetry that has poured through me over the years. So much writing, I completed. So much writing I started without completing too. I may not be the best writer in the world but I am certainly a prolific one lol. 

Copies of these effort and time consuming projects, that took so much of my focus and energy when I was writing them, are simply sitting on my book shelf collecting dust now.  A few people have them...not everyone I intended them for... but a few. Still, I knew, from the moment I typed the first word, that my job was to write them and then get just one reader to read them so I had the sense of a completed cycle.  That's it! What happend to them after that was never my responsibility, or even my business I suppose. I write them and get at least one reader to read them and my work here is done.  The rest, I knew, was up to something much bigger than this human I call "me".

And there are times when I am called back to a project, like this one, with a certain internal whisper, "Rewrite this! This could be good."  Hmm!

So, here I am rewriting a book I feel compelled to write so that I not only get one reader, but so that I will eventually get one listener to hear me as I go from writing to speaking about this. So, cra-cra, I know. I am in my sixties for goodness sake and I am obeying a calling probably meant for a much younger version of myself. Sigh. 

One thing this focused writing gives me is a sense of purpose...a sense of creative focus. It takes my ADHD writer's mind and redirects it so it isn't all over the place. Having one thing...rather than a million scattered things...to focus on puts a well intended meaning into my day. Each project I devote myself to finishing gives me purpose and I so enjoy the process.  I enjoy the process because I truly love writing. I also enjoy the sense of accomplishment I get with every 2000 words or so written; the sense of achievement I get with every chapter completed; and the sense of "Oh wow! Look what I did!" when I am holding a copy of it in my hand.  Hmm! 

I love thinking as I write  that what I write will have meaning and purpose for someone else someday too. That it will be helpful and beneficial, that it will serve...if not in this life time of mine...after I am gone, possibly. And again, that is beyond my responsibility or control.  Life will decide the outcomes of these projects...I just have to remain completely and fully in every moment of them. 

All is well.